Hello Everyone,
Maybe, just maybe the tide is starting to turn. I have been working with a TCM Acupuncturist trained in China for 3 weeks. I went to him due to my continuing aches and pains since the broken fingers, the cold this winter, frustrations at work, life etc.
I told him that I knew in my heart that he could help me, however, he needed to tell me to come back until I was healthy. Not wait for me to leave for a month thinking that what he did for me didn't do any good. Well, after 3 weeks of once a week visits, I am starting to have some real changes happening. Friday back week I had taken 5 Panadeine 15 for one shift of work. I saw Dr. Lim on the following Saturday. that Monday I used only one for the shift and one to get to sleep. All week I only used a max of 2 per day.
Tuesday when I went to work I actually almost ran down the steps. Prior I had achingly stepped slowly from one to the next. I was amazed at the difference. I was even singing feeling really really lite and light.
Then late in the shift I allowed the radio controller for the Over Head Crane to slip from my fingers and go into the Hydrochloric Acid. Well, it floated. It died too. $3000 gone for the company. I was bereft.
Well, I didn't get fired. Wednesday though I was slower than on Tuesday. Thursday I felt powerful again. Friday is weird in that normally I leave home for work at about 12:45 and get home about 10:30 pm. Fridays I have to start at 11 and get off at 4:45. Then on Saturday I have to get up at 3:45 to get to work at 5 off at 11. So, to have any energy by Saturday noon is really something. I laid down for a nap and only slept for 30 minutes.
Then off to Fremantle to do some shopping and another appointment with Dr. Lim. Well, the Blood Pressure is up from 90/50 to 100/60 and like I said I am feeling pretty good. Oh, sure there are still plenty of aches and pains, but the energy is rising. Actually I am noticing old aches and pains that had been covered or masked by the more recent ones. I had a client coming over for a massage at 4 so had to hustle back to the car. Stopped in at the grocery and found my favorite Soy milk (Lush Chocolate) on sale for 1.99. bought 19 of them. And some new SAKATA rice crakers of whole meal without wheat still on sale (ends 4-11). quickly I head home.
As I am driving I am noticing that I feel really really great. That was when I started to wonder if the tide is finally turning on my life and my energy too.
And this is what else has been happening . . . I sent this to a friend and will repeat it here:
Well, the biggy right now is that I have figured out that I am an idealist. Probably sort of already knew that, just didn't admit to it. I believe that it is possible to set high standards of living my life and living in life and that others CAN do simple ethical, morally correct way of living and we can all work and live together happily. And be helping the environment at the same time. Here is an example.
At work we go through a lot of wire. Heavy wire big as pencil led in a wooden pencil. I mean we go through TONS of it per week. I don't mean tons as in just a lot. I mean tons as in 2-3 tons of steel wire every week. We have a special bin to place used wire, steel bands from loads and other steel tossed after a job. There are many wire bins around the property. Not many trash bins however. So, the lads though told weekly to not use the wire bins for trash have done so repeatedly to the point that the recycling company that used to pay us $90 / ton for wire has refused to take any more wire off of us due to the amount of trash that is in the bin.
Last weekend I spent 6 hours for an income of $198 to clean out the large storage bin used for wire. It was emptied this weekend to another recycler that will not pay us anything. This arvo I looked at the bin. It has been filled from all the small bins around the property. It is full I mean FULL of trash. Gloves, plastic shrink wrap, plastic strapping, cardboard boxes etc. What is wrong with these idiots?????
I could go on and on and on about the asinine behavior at work. WHY am I there? I wonder. OK OK I do have a few good reasons.
I am 2 weeks away from getting full time with a real company employment. I think that will give me immediate paid holidays, paid vacations, sick leave etc. Also, I have been accepted for a different position that will be clean, daytime, similar pay, nicer hours. 45 hours during the week with weekends and evenings free. It has been put off and put off and put off. Meanwhile I am continuing as the Pickler. I don't hate it. I am getting tired of it. And currently I am saving about $250 a week towards a goal of buying a camper van and living in it. Then I would have available over $500 a week toward the payments, upkeep, and creating more.
Do you remember my Moldavite? Lost it between forklift driving and taking this job. Remember the beautiful Labradorite? Lost it this week. Both of these stones cause major shifts in a persons life. Well life is settling down I must say.
SO, back to the now of writing this blog.
When I got home from the grocery I received a phone call from Patricia Hamilton owner/creator of Conscious Living Expo and Magazine. Whose show I will be at most of next week. http://woocomcampaigner.woocom.com.au/em/mail/view.php?id=387780462&k=bf7f319 Patricia advised me that she had shifted some space around at the show and gave me another booth so that now I have a 4 meter X 2 meter rather than the single that I was going to have this year.
Also, last evening my ex called wanting the phone number of the mechanic for her Camper van. Then she told me that after driving all the way around Australia and only 75 k from home the police pulled her over and inspected the van. Knocked it back as unsafe and she has to do major repairs to get in passed again all within two weeks. She is thinking it may have reached the end of its life. Hmmmmm I am thinking. If I could but it cheap from her, I could use the frig for the rig that I wish to create. And the stove and????? Then I started thinking that in reality I could fix it up perhaps and live in it this summer alone and save several thousand before winter hits again. So, I have sent off an email to her just in case of this possibility.
Therefore you now see the reason that I am wondering if the tide has turned. the thoughts came before Patricia called, so, we will see.
OH, and about 2 weeks ago while I was sleeping in one morning a lady called that I had taught SGH too 2 years ago requesing my address so that she could send me the balance of what she owed. YEHAH!!!! $265.
Best wishes to all
peace
gene
may you all be well and happy
Saturday, 27 October 2007
Wednesday, 24 October 2007
Change is growth. What happens when the fuel runs out?
Hello everyone,
I feel that my whole life has been based in change. When Jen and I first got together, one of the reasons that we did so from her part was my willingness to change what ever I was to what ever I might be. Jen and my life together was nearly constant awareness of change. Traveling the US, Traveling to Honduras, coming back to the states selling everything that I owned and coming to Australia.
Then once here about 3 years ago I saw a stone pendant that I purchase. Labradorite. It caused change in a person and or the situations around that person. Then about 18 months ago I bought some Moldavite. This stone exponentiates change. The two working together is like change on steroids and rocket fuel together. Well, the last couple of years have been major change again for me. Separation from Jen. Healing business slowing down down down. Fell through the roof at the last place and damaged my left wrist. 1 Feb this year off the bike and broke two fingers. Gone to work as a laborer and much more.
As I left the previous work place where I drove the forklift, I lost the Moldavite. I had had messages from Spirit to quit wearing it. I didn't listen. I lost it and understood.
Some time since Sunday past I have lost the Labradorite too. Again, I had messages from Spirit to stop wearing it, again I didn't listen.
So, now I am sitting in realization that these two stones that exponentiate change are gone. On the one hand I am devastated. On the other I can say that they were beautiful to wear and enjoyable to partake of while I was in their presence. Now they are gone and on with life. My assumption at this point is that I am sort of like a rocket that has run out of fuel. Exponentiated Change has stopped. Now I am gliding on empty. At some point in time I will normalze to what ever would be a balanced level of change for me.
I am open to that too.
Wait and see.
peace
gene
may you all be well and happy
I feel that my whole life has been based in change. When Jen and I first got together, one of the reasons that we did so from her part was my willingness to change what ever I was to what ever I might be. Jen and my life together was nearly constant awareness of change. Traveling the US, Traveling to Honduras, coming back to the states selling everything that I owned and coming to Australia.
Then once here about 3 years ago I saw a stone pendant that I purchase. Labradorite. It caused change in a person and or the situations around that person. Then about 18 months ago I bought some Moldavite. This stone exponentiates change. The two working together is like change on steroids and rocket fuel together. Well, the last couple of years have been major change again for me. Separation from Jen. Healing business slowing down down down. Fell through the roof at the last place and damaged my left wrist. 1 Feb this year off the bike and broke two fingers. Gone to work as a laborer and much more.
As I left the previous work place where I drove the forklift, I lost the Moldavite. I had had messages from Spirit to quit wearing it. I didn't listen. I lost it and understood.
Some time since Sunday past I have lost the Labradorite too. Again, I had messages from Spirit to stop wearing it, again I didn't listen.
So, now I am sitting in realization that these two stones that exponentiate change are gone. On the one hand I am devastated. On the other I can say that they were beautiful to wear and enjoyable to partake of while I was in their presence. Now they are gone and on with life. My assumption at this point is that I am sort of like a rocket that has run out of fuel. Exponentiated Change has stopped. Now I am gliding on empty. At some point in time I will normalze to what ever would be a balanced level of change for me.
I am open to that too.
Wait and see.
peace
gene
may you all be well and happy
Saturday, 6 October 2007
its about time
Hmmm, interesting thought as I wrote that header for this blog. I meant that it is about time that I got in gear and wrote another blog. Then again it is about time as I have just had a birthday too, ha ha ha.
Hello everyone, Hope that all of you are having a really awesome time where ever you may be.
Well, the lead up to my birthday was tremendous. I was so excited as it was to be a big one. One of those decade things. Can any of you that really have known me for a while imagine me, my beingness being 60. What an awesome number. So many years and years of living. All the places that I have been, the massages that I have done, the friends that I have met. When I had my last major accident near Atlanta and had the broken leg, if anyone would have said that I was to move to Australia I probably would have died laughing.
For this birthday I took the day off of work (-165.60), went to the Buddhist Monastery, with two friends, at Serpentine to give Dana (food and other offerings) to the monks (aprox 200). Enroute to the Monastery, I received a phone call and a very dear friend Siobhan called and sang me happy birthday WOW. I had been stockpiling food and things to take for about a month. I baked 6 pumpkin pies ($30) for my birthday. Two for work, Two for the monastery, One for my singing class, 1/2 made it to my good friend and incredible support person Gavin. I ate the other half ha ha ha. I didn't stay to hear happy birthday sung to me as I needed to get to work. Later that day I sent off the application for my divorce from Jenny ($405). Then that evening went to see the Cirque Du Soleil Veraki ($106.95) Again two friends opted to go to the Cirque with me. Two of us were sitting about 10 rows back right in the middle of the stage with an aisle leading up to us. The other had bought tickets later and was one row back and to the left. It was like the most perfect position for all of us for the whole show. it was an expensive day and well worth it. I mean how many times does anyone turn 60 in a life time? ha ha ha.
I had had other hopes and goals that just didn't manifest so this was the best that I could do. My sister turns 60 next year. . . . hmmmm maybe a visit is in order. Don't hold your breathe though.
An assessment is due. My weight on my birthday was 72 kilos. I am still standing the height that I was when I finally stopped growing at mid 20's of 6'5" (194.5 I think). I ride my bike on its trainer stand every morning for 30 minutes and stretch for another 30. I can bend at the waist and put my fists on the floor between my feet. I can still twist around and put my big toe of either foot against my forehead. That has slipped a bit as I used to able to chew on my toes till I was in my late forties.
In my run up to being 60 I have had a fair few accidents. I had a horse when i was a child. Purchased when I was 6 and he was 6. I lost count of being thrown off of him after 30 times. That is a lot of bruising. And that doesn't count the times that I almost got thrown or stomped or kicked, or bitten. I can see my sister reading this and smiling remembering old Charlie. She probably got tossed a few times too. He was a mean old fiesty fart, but did live to being 30 years old. Then there have been a few bicycle crashes. And the trees that fell on me when i was about 35, and the car that hit me in '97, and probably a few other incidents best forgotten, ohhh like falling out of the hay mow at a friends home, and off the top of the hay wagon, and out of a few trees, and a few punchups. Well, heck life is meant to be lived right? However, they don't tell the young ones that all those aches and pains come home to roost 30 - 40 -50 years later, OUCH.
So, yes as I have turned 60 there are a few aches and pains. Now a big part of the recipent list of this blog are my students of Spiritually Guided Healing. Well, guys and gals let me tell you. 1) the healing that you all sent when I got that lung crud this past winter was almost unbelievable even to me. I litterally could feel my bodies cells and energy changing minute by minute as all of you came on line to help out. I went from unable to move to thinking I could run a marathon in about 4 hours. Thank You Thank You Thank You.
As most of you know the last "accident" was my falling off the bicycle and breaking two fingers of my right hand. Well that is still a problem. I am typing this with both hands so that is a vast improvment. I work using my hands and there is some dexterity. However, when I wake in the morning my hand is a stiff claw. As I am riding my trainer I work it vigorously and get it all going for the day. An hour later when I move my hand it feels like every joint is filled with acid crystals. I am getting used to it. I seldome need pain medicine for it.
However, when at work I need my hand much more vigorously then simple typing. I have this **&^&%^%$$# control for the Over head Crane that take much button pressing to keep working. Seems that the wet environment is not conducive to a happy control. Sometimes I have to press the on switch 5-10 times then the "both" control switch 5-10 times then one of the single switches 5-10 times before checking to see if the thing will raise. If it does that is great. it usually doesn't and I have to go through the whole process again, and again, and again, and again and well you get the point. Sometimes I do this 10-15 times before it will work. Then it is good for one command and I have to do the whole thing again. This absolutely KILLS my hand. For this I take pain medication, and Salmon Oil, and Full Motion (GNLD), and Green Lip Mussle Extract, and and and it is quite the mouth full. And I get healing, and massages. It is slow to heal.
OK, finally 2) I have already mentioned that lifes falls and pit falls accumulate. Yeah that they do. My sister mailed me the PERFECT birthday card. Shows a dorky kid in front of a scary looking house. He says, "Getting older is like living in a haunted house." Before I opened it I already had an answer, "yeah, you never know what or where some weird unexplained pain is going to jump out of your body at you" Inside it said, "lots of noises and smells you just can't explain." Noises, yep got those. Well, I can't smell so don't know about them yet. no one is complaining, hmm there isn't anyone around to complain either ha ha ha
So, what I have unwillingly accepted is that at any awakening prior to starting the day, there is no guarantee of the amount of energy that I will actually have at the time that it is needed. And/or what amount of pain medicine I will need to take to accomplish any event that I still choose to do. Believe me, if you take a couple of Panadeine 15 prior to a bike ride you (or I) will fly, YEHAH. That and cup of coffee, wow I am young again, he he he. Then it take me a couple of days recovery. That is the pisser the recovery time. I can still keep up with the young ones at work, but, they are ready to do it all again the next day. me, I want a day off ha ha ha.
Also, I no longer help people move. I show up after the move with the meal. That is just as much appreciated believe me. I don't do hard labour either. I don't work fast, I work steady. I walk slower and enjoy the trip more. though I can move fast if I need too, however I feel stiff when I have to run. that was what bicycles were invented for.
Well, enough of my stuff. Hope to hear from some of you. I always love your letters and feedback. Some of you statesideres that get this email that know "the ol' man" remind him that he is younger than me, he he.
Come to think of it, the ol' man ought to write a book. This guy was by his own words to me many years ago, smoking 3-4 packs of cigaretts a day and a couch potatoe. The movie, "Breaking Away" comes out, he loves it, get a bicycle and wins the nationals like a year later. Proceeds to kick ass all up and down the East Coast of the states for YEARS. I always loved it when he raced as it was always a good show. Go David GO!!!!
Peace to all of you
gene
may you all be well and happy
Hello everyone, Hope that all of you are having a really awesome time where ever you may be.
Well, the lead up to my birthday was tremendous. I was so excited as it was to be a big one. One of those decade things. Can any of you that really have known me for a while imagine me, my beingness being 60. What an awesome number. So many years and years of living. All the places that I have been, the massages that I have done, the friends that I have met. When I had my last major accident near Atlanta and had the broken leg, if anyone would have said that I was to move to Australia I probably would have died laughing.
For this birthday I took the day off of work (-165.60), went to the Buddhist Monastery, with two friends, at Serpentine to give Dana (food and other offerings) to the monks (aprox 200). Enroute to the Monastery, I received a phone call and a very dear friend Siobhan called and sang me happy birthday WOW. I had been stockpiling food and things to take for about a month. I baked 6 pumpkin pies ($30) for my birthday. Two for work, Two for the monastery, One for my singing class, 1/2 made it to my good friend and incredible support person Gavin. I ate the other half ha ha ha. I didn't stay to hear happy birthday sung to me as I needed to get to work. Later that day I sent off the application for my divorce from Jenny ($405). Then that evening went to see the Cirque Du Soleil Veraki ($106.95) Again two friends opted to go to the Cirque with me. Two of us were sitting about 10 rows back right in the middle of the stage with an aisle leading up to us. The other had bought tickets later and was one row back and to the left. It was like the most perfect position for all of us for the whole show. it was an expensive day and well worth it. I mean how many times does anyone turn 60 in a life time? ha ha ha.
I had had other hopes and goals that just didn't manifest so this was the best that I could do. My sister turns 60 next year. . . . hmmmm maybe a visit is in order. Don't hold your breathe though.
An assessment is due. My weight on my birthday was 72 kilos. I am still standing the height that I was when I finally stopped growing at mid 20's of 6'5" (194.5 I think). I ride my bike on its trainer stand every morning for 30 minutes and stretch for another 30. I can bend at the waist and put my fists on the floor between my feet. I can still twist around and put my big toe of either foot against my forehead. That has slipped a bit as I used to able to chew on my toes till I was in my late forties.
In my run up to being 60 I have had a fair few accidents. I had a horse when i was a child. Purchased when I was 6 and he was 6. I lost count of being thrown off of him after 30 times. That is a lot of bruising. And that doesn't count the times that I almost got thrown or stomped or kicked, or bitten. I can see my sister reading this and smiling remembering old Charlie. She probably got tossed a few times too. He was a mean old fiesty fart, but did live to being 30 years old. Then there have been a few bicycle crashes. And the trees that fell on me when i was about 35, and the car that hit me in '97, and probably a few other incidents best forgotten, ohhh like falling out of the hay mow at a friends home, and off the top of the hay wagon, and out of a few trees, and a few punchups. Well, heck life is meant to be lived right? However, they don't tell the young ones that all those aches and pains come home to roost 30 - 40 -50 years later, OUCH.
So, yes as I have turned 60 there are a few aches and pains. Now a big part of the recipent list of this blog are my students of Spiritually Guided Healing. Well, guys and gals let me tell you. 1) the healing that you all sent when I got that lung crud this past winter was almost unbelievable even to me. I litterally could feel my bodies cells and energy changing minute by minute as all of you came on line to help out. I went from unable to move to thinking I could run a marathon in about 4 hours. Thank You Thank You Thank You.
As most of you know the last "accident" was my falling off the bicycle and breaking two fingers of my right hand. Well that is still a problem. I am typing this with both hands so that is a vast improvment. I work using my hands and there is some dexterity. However, when I wake in the morning my hand is a stiff claw. As I am riding my trainer I work it vigorously and get it all going for the day. An hour later when I move my hand it feels like every joint is filled with acid crystals. I am getting used to it. I seldome need pain medicine for it.
However, when at work I need my hand much more vigorously then simple typing. I have this **&^&%^%$$# control for the Over head Crane that take much button pressing to keep working. Seems that the wet environment is not conducive to a happy control. Sometimes I have to press the on switch 5-10 times then the "both" control switch 5-10 times then one of the single switches 5-10 times before checking to see if the thing will raise. If it does that is great. it usually doesn't and I have to go through the whole process again, and again, and again, and again and well you get the point. Sometimes I do this 10-15 times before it will work. Then it is good for one command and I have to do the whole thing again. This absolutely KILLS my hand. For this I take pain medication, and Salmon Oil, and Full Motion (GNLD), and Green Lip Mussle Extract, and and and it is quite the mouth full. And I get healing, and massages. It is slow to heal.
OK, finally 2) I have already mentioned that lifes falls and pit falls accumulate. Yeah that they do. My sister mailed me the PERFECT birthday card. Shows a dorky kid in front of a scary looking house. He says, "Getting older is like living in a haunted house." Before I opened it I already had an answer, "yeah, you never know what or where some weird unexplained pain is going to jump out of your body at you" Inside it said, "lots of noises and smells you just can't explain." Noises, yep got those. Well, I can't smell so don't know about them yet. no one is complaining, hmm there isn't anyone around to complain either ha ha ha
So, what I have unwillingly accepted is that at any awakening prior to starting the day, there is no guarantee of the amount of energy that I will actually have at the time that it is needed. And/or what amount of pain medicine I will need to take to accomplish any event that I still choose to do. Believe me, if you take a couple of Panadeine 15 prior to a bike ride you (or I) will fly, YEHAH. That and cup of coffee, wow I am young again, he he he. Then it take me a couple of days recovery. That is the pisser the recovery time. I can still keep up with the young ones at work, but, they are ready to do it all again the next day. me, I want a day off ha ha ha.
Also, I no longer help people move. I show up after the move with the meal. That is just as much appreciated believe me. I don't do hard labour either. I don't work fast, I work steady. I walk slower and enjoy the trip more. though I can move fast if I need too, however I feel stiff when I have to run. that was what bicycles were invented for.
Well, enough of my stuff. Hope to hear from some of you. I always love your letters and feedback. Some of you statesideres that get this email that know "the ol' man" remind him that he is younger than me, he he.
Come to think of it, the ol' man ought to write a book. This guy was by his own words to me many years ago, smoking 3-4 packs of cigaretts a day and a couch potatoe. The movie, "Breaking Away" comes out, he loves it, get a bicycle and wins the nationals like a year later. Proceeds to kick ass all up and down the East Coast of the states for YEARS. I always loved it when he raced as it was always a good show. Go David GO!!!!
Peace to all of you
gene
may you all be well and happy
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