Well, sort of, ha ha ha. Thx to Lynda, who helped me sort out parts of the brain. Asked me what of all the possible things to do I would most like to do.
Go Bicycle around Australia. hhmmmmmmm. Sounds really really good to me. So, concentrated thoughts and energy and feelings and ...... we will see. Current planning is to work at leaving in fall next year. need to re-establish a few things, Like get the bike that I want, trailer, panniers etc.
Also, sell stuff off. Like everything. Have already started today and have travel money now for Melbourne, YEHAH!
Anyone reading this that knows of what I have and has an interest in it.... let me know.
Bed Time.
Hey, if you have not tried to eat raw foods as your diet.... try it. The energy is awesome. Will probably go off for the next week due to traveling, but will hammer it when I return.
love to all of you.
gene
Sunday, 23 November 2008
Friday, 21 November 2008
up UP UP down ha ha ha
Hello All,
Well, best I can say is that life is really really interesting with the changes leading up to 2012 and beyond.
I have seen quite a few interesting articles lately about the changes that are possibly coming and how differently idea based people might react to them. There is a great one coming up in the next Issue of Conscious Living. I have not read it all yet, but it is well documented and well written.
Basically, Mother Earth is changing. The energy that she vibrates at is increasing. This has been going on for millenia. From my Tesla work we had information that when tested at Hertz levels, in 1890 She was at 7.5. 1950 at 8. 2001, 16. and 2005 17.8. My dates are from memory and may not be perfectly but the Hertz numbers I remember clearly.
OK, as Gaia speeds up so do we as humans. If you look at the majority of people in the 1850's they were physically hard working people. Today's society is much more button pushers. We are ever moving toward doing less physically and much more mentally. There will be an even greater shift in this direction over the next few years.
The other direction of happenings will be that all humans will be moved toward peaceful co-existence. That doesn't seem remotely possible as we look around our world now. It is happening though at ever increasing numbers. There may well be a huge increase in violence caused by those that do not understand the forces that are working inside of them. The great mis-understanding of the SELF and EGO will cause much hardship for many.
My own blogs have shown my own journey through mostly my mental situation. I am not crazy. I am not paranoid. I am not in terror, I am not in euphoria either. I am not any of those emotions at all really. I am ....... a sounding board for them. They pass through me.... I observe them. This is easier said than done however. It is so easy to get caught up in the feeling of paranoia. Rather than to sit outside of the self and observe the self feeling that feeling.
I have just had 5 days of being UP. It was GREAT. There are more lessons to learn. This morning I am a bit down. Can't get started. Trying to sort out what it takes to stay UP. Yesterday I was laughing at my financial condition. Today also, that is not the problem. It is a concern, however at some level I just don't care. There is little more that I can figure out to do. So, I choose to be as happy as I can be under the circumstances, while knowing that all will be absolutely perfect no matter what happens.
I figure that if I am who what I think that I am.... physically fit, healthy, knowing that all will be well, mentally aware that I am on a passage through life, and working at staying in observation of the mental ups and downs........ and having difficulty with this passages..... most of the world is in utter turmoil by comparison.
Many have great financial situations. Many are in financial stress. And there will be more. Mentally, there are going to be many having difficulty reaching out for help..... hmm think I will call someone right now for a chat.... be back shortly.
Ahhh the pause with friends that gets the mind into happy spaces.
I would love to hear from any of you that are having interesting times to share. Sharing is growing. Sitting in your stuff is stifling. Reach out. I am here. bodyshine@iinet.net.au I am on skype too. just insert the email address and I will come up.
Best wishes to all.
Keep breathing. Take life one breath at a time if necessary.
peace
gene
Well, best I can say is that life is really really interesting with the changes leading up to 2012 and beyond.
I have seen quite a few interesting articles lately about the changes that are possibly coming and how differently idea based people might react to them. There is a great one coming up in the next Issue of Conscious Living. I have not read it all yet, but it is well documented and well written.
Basically, Mother Earth is changing. The energy that she vibrates at is increasing. This has been going on for millenia. From my Tesla work we had information that when tested at Hertz levels, in 1890 She was at 7.5. 1950 at 8. 2001, 16. and 2005 17.8. My dates are from memory and may not be perfectly but the Hertz numbers I remember clearly.
OK, as Gaia speeds up so do we as humans. If you look at the majority of people in the 1850's they were physically hard working people. Today's society is much more button pushers. We are ever moving toward doing less physically and much more mentally. There will be an even greater shift in this direction over the next few years.
The other direction of happenings will be that all humans will be moved toward peaceful co-existence. That doesn't seem remotely possible as we look around our world now. It is happening though at ever increasing numbers. There may well be a huge increase in violence caused by those that do not understand the forces that are working inside of them. The great mis-understanding of the SELF and EGO will cause much hardship for many.
My own blogs have shown my own journey through mostly my mental situation. I am not crazy. I am not paranoid. I am not in terror, I am not in euphoria either. I am not any of those emotions at all really. I am ....... a sounding board for them. They pass through me.... I observe them. This is easier said than done however. It is so easy to get caught up in the feeling of paranoia. Rather than to sit outside of the self and observe the self feeling that feeling.
I have just had 5 days of being UP. It was GREAT. There are more lessons to learn. This morning I am a bit down. Can't get started. Trying to sort out what it takes to stay UP. Yesterday I was laughing at my financial condition. Today also, that is not the problem. It is a concern, however at some level I just don't care. There is little more that I can figure out to do. So, I choose to be as happy as I can be under the circumstances, while knowing that all will be absolutely perfect no matter what happens.
I figure that if I am who what I think that I am.... physically fit, healthy, knowing that all will be well, mentally aware that I am on a passage through life, and working at staying in observation of the mental ups and downs........ and having difficulty with this passages..... most of the world is in utter turmoil by comparison.
Many have great financial situations. Many are in financial stress. And there will be more. Mentally, there are going to be many having difficulty reaching out for help..... hmm think I will call someone right now for a chat.... be back shortly.
Ahhh the pause with friends that gets the mind into happy spaces.
I would love to hear from any of you that are having interesting times to share. Sharing is growing. Sitting in your stuff is stifling. Reach out. I am here. bodyshine@iinet.net.au I am on skype too. just insert the email address and I will come up.
Best wishes to all.
Keep breathing. Take life one breath at a time if necessary.
peace
gene
Wednesday, 19 November 2008
weird thoughts good energy
ha ha ha. Life is weird. So are my thoughts. i need to be asleep. Can't. Got a pittance of a check today from CL work. ought to have been 20% and was 10. Somehow that got me thinking I am broker than I am. I have been living without any income for a month and get 300 and go into weird thoughts.
Have to do a garage sale and sell any all that is left to sell. Book cases for $5. Where will I stack my books. Hmmm sell the books at a $1 each to get rid of them so that I can live out of my car. Sell the crystal cave for good money though. And the white Buddha statue.
Give back the rent to buy computer that I have no idea why i got. Sell the safe too. It is only worth about $20 and I have nothing left to put in it anyway. Sell the wind chimes, the queen size bed it certainly won't fit in the little car. Then the little bed eventually too and sleep on the thermarest.
Sooner or later have to give up this pad as it will bankrupt me the rest of the way. Need to take out my cash left in the bank so that ..... What ever.
Lose the email accounts, phone numbers, web site, loose it all.
YET, heck this is Australia mate. Centre Link support, Homes wEst to get a place to live. It might be rough but better than being in the states for sure. Still not a bad place to live off the land. Plenty of roo road kills to feed myself with.
Found a place today that feeds for a gold coin donation. Got two meals worth from them today.
Put in at Job place for work. Don't know why my mind has gone off dreaming of having NOTHING left. And the whole time that I am thinking these thoughts I actually have a smile on my face. Last week I would have been going crazier with these thoughts.
I guess if I cannot manifest wealth then I will imagine total wipe out.
Couldn't sleep as mentioned so had to get these thoughts down. Will have some income I hope next week if healing work comes through. Will see what happens.
I feel spun out happy that I am going completely broke again. Been what now at least 3-4 times in the last 3 years. Ought to be feeling fairly familiar with it all eh.
Well, main thing is that my head space is feeling really really great. If I am down and out financially and happy that is better than having some coin left and feeling like shit. Least ways it is for me.
Well, any of you that bother to read this. In this instant I am feeling GREAT. Yehah what in the world is going to happen next
Love all of you
peace
gene
Have to do a garage sale and sell any all that is left to sell. Book cases for $5. Where will I stack my books. Hmmm sell the books at a $1 each to get rid of them so that I can live out of my car. Sell the crystal cave for good money though. And the white Buddha statue.
Give back the rent to buy computer that I have no idea why i got. Sell the safe too. It is only worth about $20 and I have nothing left to put in it anyway. Sell the wind chimes, the queen size bed it certainly won't fit in the little car. Then the little bed eventually too and sleep on the thermarest.
Sooner or later have to give up this pad as it will bankrupt me the rest of the way. Need to take out my cash left in the bank so that ..... What ever.
Lose the email accounts, phone numbers, web site, loose it all.
YET, heck this is Australia mate. Centre Link support, Homes wEst to get a place to live. It might be rough but better than being in the states for sure. Still not a bad place to live off the land. Plenty of roo road kills to feed myself with.
Found a place today that feeds for a gold coin donation. Got two meals worth from them today.
Put in at Job place for work. Don't know why my mind has gone off dreaming of having NOTHING left. And the whole time that I am thinking these thoughts I actually have a smile on my face. Last week I would have been going crazier with these thoughts.
I guess if I cannot manifest wealth then I will imagine total wipe out.
Couldn't sleep as mentioned so had to get these thoughts down. Will have some income I hope next week if healing work comes through. Will see what happens.
I feel spun out happy that I am going completely broke again. Been what now at least 3-4 times in the last 3 years. Ought to be feeling fairly familiar with it all eh.
Well, main thing is that my head space is feeling really really great. If I am down and out financially and happy that is better than having some coin left and feeling like shit. Least ways it is for me.
Well, any of you that bother to read this. In this instant I am feeling GREAT. Yehah what in the world is going to happen next
Love all of you
peace
gene
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
I'm baaaacccccccckkkkkkk!!!
Hello All,
Well, for all those supporters over the last few weeks, WOW thanks. Been a real battle getting through this last energy shift. And that is what it turned out to be. I didn't even ever think about that idea until I got to channeling after I felt "ALIVE" again.
Seems that in all the other shifts that I have taken over 35 years of exploring the Light side of life I always knew when I had gone through a shift because I would feel ANGRY again. Well, this time Spirit had something different in mind for me. Seems that with this latest shift I needed to feel many more emotions and of greater magnitude.
Now I have many friends that say it is no longer necessary to "feel" all this crap when we shift. Well for them I say good on you if you don't. I must have needed to. Least ways I did it, ha ha ha.
So, how does it feel to look at a friend that is in Terror for no reason. It is pretty scary just to watch. It is worse to be in it let me tell you. Or Paranoia, anxiety, depression, weird suicidal thoughts, sanity, insanity, euphoria, and all of it again and again.
No one thing that I did helped totally. One major tool was ..... well I was going to say one thing, but Spirit stuck in another thought. Time was the main tool. The rest were just toys that I was playing with until time had done its own course of life for me.
I will tell the tool that helped a lot anyway. I got if from Master EFT practitioner Peter Graham. He had gone through a similar episode a few weeks ago. He said to tap through all the points of EFT while saying, "I am waking from this" This statement worked well because the sensations were all trance like. A trance that I needed to wake from. Eventually I did.
Let me tell you some of the week past.
Monday 10 November (mum's birthday) Conscious Living closed on a big package deal with a customer. I really liked the two men doing the work. R. invited me to stay longer in the week for a full moon ceremony on Thursday night. I had planned on returning home late Wednesday or early Thursday. hmmmmm full moon with Crystal bowls singing to the moon. Yep can do.
Tuesday 11 Nov. Wholistic Business meeting with Tony Walton. Really great information. And Liana Virasinge doing Oneness Blessing. That too was GREAT.
Wed 12 Nov. Was Conscious Living's Symposium. PH was beside herself with energy. I was the scapegoat for a lot of her energy. It was not a good party.
However, I met a lady there that had taken Rich Si Windelov workshop in Subiaco. When we compared notes she and I had both been going through the same sort of Shit. It was just so awesome to find someone else that was concerned for their own sanity and others concerned too. We compared notes and it was really really good to be together for a bit.
I had not wanted to carry any stuff away from the Symposium because I lived South and was not planning on being back to the office till afternoon. They didn't have enough cars so I got volunteered. Seems that I picked up two boxes that were DESPARATELY needed at the office before 11. Got the messages about 12:30. Paybacks are hell.
Thurs 13 Nov. Was mostly an easy day. Then the Moon song. It was GREAT too. One lady there told the group that she had just quit her job of 6 months and was headed off in the morning to Melbourne on the back of a Motorcycle by way of the South West. When we had a chance I told her that they were welcome to stop in on the way through. Found out that R. was also with them for a few days. Three guests finally.
Friday 14 Nov. Twas a longish day after too many spent in Perth. Friends showed up about 7:30. Out for supper. Then to the beach. Skinny dipping in the ocean with a howling cold breeze to come out too. Then Oneness Blessing for my friends on the Beach. Close to midnight for bed. Now two nights spent out of doors with the Moon.
Saturday 15 Nov. Got up at 5:30 and off for a bike ride with the Busso crowd. Got home at 8 as C & C were up but R still asleep. We all ended up in the meditation room eating and talking and talking and talking and next thing was to do a rebirthing on two of the people. That was AWESOME. Finally around 1 we walked to the local groc for fixings and did a raw blended and salad lunch. then more talk in the meditation room. Obviously they were not leaving today. Saturday late arvo watched the Sun go down and the Moon come up. Later I did a Spiritually Guided Healing on C & C and R. Lady C. was gob smacked. We really went deep and transitional healings took place. It was a major rework. The other two had major work too, but not at that level.
Sunday 16. Around 10 they finally left. I was a little sad, but .... there will be more guests. I decided to blend me a meal. Got all the ingredients out and cut up and stuffed the blender and got it going. it lasted a bit. I did get some thick coursely ground fodder until the gear on the bottom of the blender shattered. Oh well, it has been on its way out for 4 years. Late Sunday I realized that "I was ALIVE" again. Energy had been good for 2 days in a row. Got a call from R. that he was coming back through Busso on way to Perth, OK to stay Monday night? Absolutely.
Mon 17 Nov. I got myself down to Centre Link and got signed up for some income. It has been a week and though we signed off on a major package I have yet to be paid by Conscious Living. it has been about a month now since I last had income. The reserves are thinning. I know that I will be paid, not when. Nor how much. Also took time to buy a new blender and chopper upper too. Gotta eat and I like this raw food energy and and and. We will report this as we go along.
R arrived around 5. off for a walk on the beach and talk until 10ish. I was really tired. Up at 4:30 for bike ride. Rode too HARD and came home exhausted at 6:55. After the shower slept for an hour. First time I have ridden that hard in years. Slept again later for another hour. R is gone now and I have been actually working for CL for the first time in weeks I have the energy to do so. it is weird to have not had any energy for so many weeks.
Now I have lots to catch up with. Gotta get the cash flow going again. Have a feeling that the trip over to Melbourne next week is very important for me and my future.
Well, from this frontier I can say that it is good to be alive, YEHAH!
Peace to All in these interesting times
gene
Well, for all those supporters over the last few weeks, WOW thanks. Been a real battle getting through this last energy shift. And that is what it turned out to be. I didn't even ever think about that idea until I got to channeling after I felt "ALIVE" again.
Seems that in all the other shifts that I have taken over 35 years of exploring the Light side of life I always knew when I had gone through a shift because I would feel ANGRY again. Well, this time Spirit had something different in mind for me. Seems that with this latest shift I needed to feel many more emotions and of greater magnitude.
Now I have many friends that say it is no longer necessary to "feel" all this crap when we shift. Well for them I say good on you if you don't. I must have needed to. Least ways I did it, ha ha ha.
So, how does it feel to look at a friend that is in Terror for no reason. It is pretty scary just to watch. It is worse to be in it let me tell you. Or Paranoia, anxiety, depression, weird suicidal thoughts, sanity, insanity, euphoria, and all of it again and again.
No one thing that I did helped totally. One major tool was ..... well I was going to say one thing, but Spirit stuck in another thought. Time was the main tool. The rest were just toys that I was playing with until time had done its own course of life for me.
I will tell the tool that helped a lot anyway. I got if from Master EFT practitioner Peter Graham. He had gone through a similar episode a few weeks ago. He said to tap through all the points of EFT while saying, "I am waking from this" This statement worked well because the sensations were all trance like. A trance that I needed to wake from. Eventually I did.
Let me tell you some of the week past.
Monday 10 November (mum's birthday) Conscious Living closed on a big package deal with a customer. I really liked the two men doing the work. R. invited me to stay longer in the week for a full moon ceremony on Thursday night. I had planned on returning home late Wednesday or early Thursday. hmmmmm full moon with Crystal bowls singing to the moon. Yep can do.
Tuesday 11 Nov. Wholistic Business meeting with Tony Walton. Really great information. And Liana Virasinge doing Oneness Blessing. That too was GREAT.
Wed 12 Nov. Was Conscious Living's Symposium. PH was beside herself with energy. I was the scapegoat for a lot of her energy. It was not a good party.
However, I met a lady there that had taken Rich Si Windelov workshop in Subiaco. When we compared notes she and I had both been going through the same sort of Shit. It was just so awesome to find someone else that was concerned for their own sanity and others concerned too. We compared notes and it was really really good to be together for a bit.
I had not wanted to carry any stuff away from the Symposium because I lived South and was not planning on being back to the office till afternoon. They didn't have enough cars so I got volunteered. Seems that I picked up two boxes that were DESPARATELY needed at the office before 11. Got the messages about 12:30. Paybacks are hell.
Thurs 13 Nov. Was mostly an easy day. Then the Moon song. It was GREAT too. One lady there told the group that she had just quit her job of 6 months and was headed off in the morning to Melbourne on the back of a Motorcycle by way of the South West. When we had a chance I told her that they were welcome to stop in on the way through. Found out that R. was also with them for a few days. Three guests finally.
Friday 14 Nov. Twas a longish day after too many spent in Perth. Friends showed up about 7:30. Out for supper. Then to the beach. Skinny dipping in the ocean with a howling cold breeze to come out too. Then Oneness Blessing for my friends on the Beach. Close to midnight for bed. Now two nights spent out of doors with the Moon.
Saturday 15 Nov. Got up at 5:30 and off for a bike ride with the Busso crowd. Got home at 8 as C & C were up but R still asleep. We all ended up in the meditation room eating and talking and talking and talking and next thing was to do a rebirthing on two of the people. That was AWESOME. Finally around 1 we walked to the local groc for fixings and did a raw blended and salad lunch. then more talk in the meditation room. Obviously they were not leaving today. Saturday late arvo watched the Sun go down and the Moon come up. Later I did a Spiritually Guided Healing on C & C and R. Lady C. was gob smacked. We really went deep and transitional healings took place. It was a major rework. The other two had major work too, but not at that level.
Sunday 16. Around 10 they finally left. I was a little sad, but .... there will be more guests. I decided to blend me a meal. Got all the ingredients out and cut up and stuffed the blender and got it going. it lasted a bit. I did get some thick coursely ground fodder until the gear on the bottom of the blender shattered. Oh well, it has been on its way out for 4 years. Late Sunday I realized that "I was ALIVE" again. Energy had been good for 2 days in a row. Got a call from R. that he was coming back through Busso on way to Perth, OK to stay Monday night? Absolutely.
Mon 17 Nov. I got myself down to Centre Link and got signed up for some income. It has been a week and though we signed off on a major package I have yet to be paid by Conscious Living. it has been about a month now since I last had income. The reserves are thinning. I know that I will be paid, not when. Nor how much. Also took time to buy a new blender and chopper upper too. Gotta eat and I like this raw food energy and and and. We will report this as we go along.
R arrived around 5. off for a walk on the beach and talk until 10ish. I was really tired. Up at 4:30 for bike ride. Rode too HARD and came home exhausted at 6:55. After the shower slept for an hour. First time I have ridden that hard in years. Slept again later for another hour. R is gone now and I have been actually working for CL for the first time in weeks I have the energy to do so. it is weird to have not had any energy for so many weeks.
Now I have lots to catch up with. Gotta get the cash flow going again. Have a feeling that the trip over to Melbourne next week is very important for me and my future.
Well, from this frontier I can say that it is good to be alive, YEHAH!
Peace to All in these interesting times
gene
Monday, 10 November 2008
another day
Hello All,
Been up to my writing for a bit now eh. Had a big successful sale today wtih CL. Big booth, big ad. 4.5 hours of negotiations on top of about 15 hours before that.
got done around 7 and then PH wants me to enter data into the data base for a copule of hours. I started after cancelling my dinner engagement. Then decided resoundly within myself NO!!! By God I got some boundaries too. I told PH (the boss) NO, I have to leave. I had other appointments, I have my own needs, I have not eaten, my mind is going, I cannot concentrate, I am going.
It is amazing since my concussion after the bike accident 4-5 months ago, I get tired and it all comes back to haunt me. The ability for me to do mental calculations as simple as data entry (or typing without my glasses pardon the typos) goes out very quickly when tired, and especially hungry too.
I will attempt to get here again tomorrow or soon to type in the New World Vision of Conscious Living that I am to be selling now. I would rather be a part of it that its salesperson.
May all be well tonight. And may we all bless Barrack Obama and lets all vision him retiring a very old man ie not assinated as so many are feeling will happen.
Peace
gene
Been up to my writing for a bit now eh. Had a big successful sale today wtih CL. Big booth, big ad. 4.5 hours of negotiations on top of about 15 hours before that.
got done around 7 and then PH wants me to enter data into the data base for a copule of hours. I started after cancelling my dinner engagement. Then decided resoundly within myself NO!!! By God I got some boundaries too. I told PH (the boss) NO, I have to leave. I had other appointments, I have my own needs, I have not eaten, my mind is going, I cannot concentrate, I am going.
It is amazing since my concussion after the bike accident 4-5 months ago, I get tired and it all comes back to haunt me. The ability for me to do mental calculations as simple as data entry (or typing without my glasses pardon the typos) goes out very quickly when tired, and especially hungry too.
I will attempt to get here again tomorrow or soon to type in the New World Vision of Conscious Living that I am to be selling now. I would rather be a part of it that its salesperson.
May all be well tonight. And may we all bless Barrack Obama and lets all vision him retiring a very old man ie not assinated as so many are feeling will happen.
Peace
gene
separate me from me
Hello All,
Well, lots of life been happening lately and I am compelled to get the information listed somewhere and here is as good a place as any.
Work: the boss quit paying me my draw on commission 31 October. I am not fired, just not paid ahead of sales.... which were few and looking more dismal as time went on. I do not mind that she stopped paying me. I did mind that she didn't bother telling me. Also,admitedly I didn't even make as many calls in October as in September, but, they were two totally different styles of months. Sept was selling booth spaces for expo 09 mostly and October was selling advertising.
October was a mental month for me. I proceeded to go to some level of crazy. As in insane, paranoia, lost the plot, altered sense of reality, feeling very disconnected from the rest of the world sorts of things.
Last week was the worst. Luckily I had just written that blog about reaching out and followed my own advice and called many of you that do take the time to read what is going on in my head. Thanks to Lynda, Sabine, Jenny (even called the Ex),Marcia, Michelle, Tessa, Peter and a few neighbors in Busso that didn't even know they were saving my life, ha ha ha.
The Ex suggested that I take my dismal self to Centre Link and get signed up for going on the dole. I part the very action of doing that has helped a lot. To admit I need help to the Government did something. It was not a perfect something but it helped get me started not being mental again. And a thanks to Rich who suggested my buying the new Eckhart Tolle book, "The New Earth". Only read a little of it but found significance in that bit. Sounds a lot like reading about Oneness when reading about The New Earth.
Here is an important quote for me from the book: "To recogniseone's own insantity is,of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence." OK, I am not beginning to say that I am anything near clinical insanity. BUT, I had been making those statements, "I think I am going insane". So, close enough. And I also, will not claim " the arising of sanity" either. However, if I can be moving in the direction of, "beginningof healing and transcendence." That I will start to accept.
I am now sitting at friend Enrico's home in Perth. Drove up this morning EARLY. Enroute I had the very strong awareness when I woke up from a nap along the way that I as I sat in my little car was just a capsule of life along the path of that highway. No more or less than any tree, frog, bird or other passing car. I was nothing. I was everything. Also, though, I felt a very strong sense of that part that was sitting in the car being separate from all that is/was around me. So, there was the physical sense of my being in that car and the observer watching that me being in that car.
Anyone that has studied with any guru for any time will no that there is this and there is the observer of this. So there is you and there is the observer of you that is not you really either, ha ha ha. If this warps your head that is OK, one day you will understand it more clearly. I am just beginning too after years of hearing it told to me mostly by Lynda. Hearing it and knowing it is two very different places of beingness.
I am continuing to do this Breath Connection work Buteyko. This is very powerful body changing work. I certainly would never have thought that just by really carefully observing that I would only breath through my nose that I could pull old drugs out of my body. I was told last night by Steve Lumsdaine (Breath Connection) that it is quite possible that with carefull attention to the breath work and really really working at it would pull out the residue of the anti-depressants from my body. Now, some of you may know this, some not. Anti-depressants make you depressed. it is a controlled depression, but still depressing. that in part was what was happening last week. Some of you strongly urged me to stop what ever i was doing. Hmmmm stop breathing.... was that a hint, ha ha ha.
Peter gave me the most changing tip. Peter is the only Master of EFT in Australia. He really knows how this stuff works and how the mind plays the games. He said that he had recently also gone into this trancelike state of mind that I was now in. I readily agreed with him that it felt trance like rather than real depression or paranoia or or or. None of those states of mind lasted very long. He had read some work from John Bradshaw about this and gave me a statement to use and tap and tap and tap and tap and tap. He had tapped for 30 minutes before CLICK he was out of the trance.
The statement: " I am waking up from this. " Said with meaning while tapping the 14 points. I got right onto it. Did 17 minutes and had written a list of things that I just had to do on Friday. And therefore had to quit early. Still, where I had been at a level 10 (serious Yuck) I had come to about a 7. After being at 10, 7 feels like heaven.
All day Friday & Saturday I was good. Sunday AM, I was 9.55555. When I finally could get out of bed I got dressed and started to tap. I tapped for an hour. I gradually got from that 9.5555 to about an 8.
I had scheduled myself to drive to Bunbury. Did so, Hugged a great TALL Friend, twice and came home. on the way, I started talking to myself about all that I had to be grateful for. I started laughing. I came down then to about a 5.
Today, I am sitting yet around that 5. I keep working on it. I know that it (the sensations, emotions etc) are not me. Yet, it is like separateing the dirt from the velcro.... that separation is difficult to see as separate.
Well, I am a work in progress. Gotta go now to a meeting that might make me a bit of money.
Love all of you.
peace
gene
Well, lots of life been happening lately and I am compelled to get the information listed somewhere and here is as good a place as any.
Work: the boss quit paying me my draw on commission 31 October. I am not fired, just not paid ahead of sales.... which were few and looking more dismal as time went on. I do not mind that she stopped paying me. I did mind that she didn't bother telling me. Also,admitedly I didn't even make as many calls in October as in September, but, they were two totally different styles of months. Sept was selling booth spaces for expo 09 mostly and October was selling advertising.
October was a mental month for me. I proceeded to go to some level of crazy. As in insane, paranoia, lost the plot, altered sense of reality, feeling very disconnected from the rest of the world sorts of things.
Last week was the worst. Luckily I had just written that blog about reaching out and followed my own advice and called many of you that do take the time to read what is going on in my head. Thanks to Lynda, Sabine, Jenny (even called the Ex),Marcia, Michelle, Tessa, Peter and a few neighbors in Busso that didn't even know they were saving my life, ha ha ha.
The Ex suggested that I take my dismal self to Centre Link and get signed up for going on the dole. I part the very action of doing that has helped a lot. To admit I need help to the Government did something. It was not a perfect something but it helped get me started not being mental again. And a thanks to Rich who suggested my buying the new Eckhart Tolle book, "The New Earth". Only read a little of it but found significance in that bit. Sounds a lot like reading about Oneness when reading about The New Earth.
Here is an important quote for me from the book: "To recogniseone's own insantity is,of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence." OK, I am not beginning to say that I am anything near clinical insanity. BUT, I had been making those statements, "I think I am going insane". So, close enough. And I also, will not claim " the arising of sanity" either. However, if I can be moving in the direction of, "beginningof healing and transcendence." That I will start to accept.
I am now sitting at friend Enrico's home in Perth. Drove up this morning EARLY. Enroute I had the very strong awareness when I woke up from a nap along the way that I as I sat in my little car was just a capsule of life along the path of that highway. No more or less than any tree, frog, bird or other passing car. I was nothing. I was everything. Also, though, I felt a very strong sense of that part that was sitting in the car being separate from all that is/was around me. So, there was the physical sense of my being in that car and the observer watching that me being in that car.
Anyone that has studied with any guru for any time will no that there is this and there is the observer of this. So there is you and there is the observer of you that is not you really either, ha ha ha. If this warps your head that is OK, one day you will understand it more clearly. I am just beginning too after years of hearing it told to me mostly by Lynda. Hearing it and knowing it is two very different places of beingness.
I am continuing to do this Breath Connection work Buteyko. This is very powerful body changing work. I certainly would never have thought that just by really carefully observing that I would only breath through my nose that I could pull old drugs out of my body. I was told last night by Steve Lumsdaine (Breath Connection) that it is quite possible that with carefull attention to the breath work and really really working at it would pull out the residue of the anti-depressants from my body. Now, some of you may know this, some not. Anti-depressants make you depressed. it is a controlled depression, but still depressing. that in part was what was happening last week. Some of you strongly urged me to stop what ever i was doing. Hmmmm stop breathing.... was that a hint, ha ha ha.
Peter gave me the most changing tip. Peter is the only Master of EFT in Australia. He really knows how this stuff works and how the mind plays the games. He said that he had recently also gone into this trancelike state of mind that I was now in. I readily agreed with him that it felt trance like rather than real depression or paranoia or or or. None of those states of mind lasted very long. He had read some work from John Bradshaw about this and gave me a statement to use and tap and tap and tap and tap and tap. He had tapped for 30 minutes before CLICK he was out of the trance.
The statement: " I am waking up from this. " Said with meaning while tapping the 14 points. I got right onto it. Did 17 minutes and had written a list of things that I just had to do on Friday. And therefore had to quit early. Still, where I had been at a level 10 (serious Yuck) I had come to about a 7. After being at 10, 7 feels like heaven.
All day Friday & Saturday I was good. Sunday AM, I was 9.55555. When I finally could get out of bed I got dressed and started to tap. I tapped for an hour. I gradually got from that 9.5555 to about an 8.
I had scheduled myself to drive to Bunbury. Did so, Hugged a great TALL Friend, twice and came home. on the way, I started talking to myself about all that I had to be grateful for. I started laughing. I came down then to about a 5.
Today, I am sitting yet around that 5. I keep working on it. I know that it (the sensations, emotions etc) are not me. Yet, it is like separateing the dirt from the velcro.... that separation is difficult to see as separate.
Well, I am a work in progress. Gotta go now to a meeting that might make me a bit of money.
Love all of you.
peace
gene
Monday, 3 November 2008
be aware
Hello Friends,
I hope to write here more often than I have in the recent past. The energies of the Earth are changing. You have heard me say that recently. I would like to think as I am in an "up" state today, that I am open and aware of these changes.
Well, from an "up" state of mind that is easier than when one is down like in a feeling of depression that is not depression. When in that singular state of mind, the only thing in control is the mind. From the workshop that I took in Fiji the Oneness Process they talked about how the rumbling mind is not your mind. it is not my mind it is a universal mind chatter.
As we all are growing, evolving or as a friend of mine recently said that instead of Beingness, we are becomingness. Always in the state of transformation. Because we are in that state of becomingness all that is happening to us is always new. Because the mind's desire to be in some level of control, it compares the new to what it thinks it has known from the past.
Since the past has so little to do with the rapidly changing now, the mind is confused and goes off into the universal mind chatter to find relief. And when it goes it attempts to drag us with it. Even though in our strength we would not follow the wayward mind, the mind still attempts to drag us where it wants us to be. Comfortable in confusion. All of you that read these words have tools that you have learned to use to come away from mind confusion. Yet, when the mind has grabbed hold of your self, it can be very difficult to get out of its grasp.
Really if you can stay aware of the intent of the mind to drag you down and really really stay aware of the start of that drag, then you can grasp quickly at those tools that you know to use and fight that pull. I am mentioning this, because even I get drug down easily sometimes. Just a slight moment of inattention and bank I am as defeated as anyone that is defeated.
I have just had a glorious healing and clearing from my friend EC. I was near wit's end even on Sunday Morning as I was getting up I got hit by an anxiety attack. It was stupid stuff that I had gone over many times in the recent 2-3 days. I thought that it was gone and would stay gone so I didn't pay it any heed. by the end of the next hour it was all that I could do to get out of bed. Without my friend..... I would have been in continued turmoil.
And that is the main part of this message. We will be drug down occasionally. If we are fortunate and stop the dragging than that is great. Sometimes we cannot stop the process. Then we need to reach out to our friends and ask for a healing for support. For a kind word.
Please a favor from all of you. Please do not think that I am super strong out here to be able to give this advice without support from all of you. I desperately need your calls and emails to keep on keeping on. Now it is my moment or two to be up. I can once again give support. Trouble was that I was giving support when I was feeling like warmed over dog poo. It was a real struggle I had going for over a week.
Those of you who read this letter with regularity know that I give my all and then some to each of you. It is very very important now that we all work together often to keep the energies up for each of us. Kind words, supportive emails, digging questions to be sure that the other is not hiding their pain. Everyone that I know is going through some major transitions. Change is growth, yes, BUT no one ever said that growth was easy.
Support your friends both the close ones and those a bit farther away. Say your love to everyone. Saying Love speaks a wonderful vibration out to the world. Give gratitude every day to all the great things that are in your life. Do this everyday. The universe needs to know that we recognize the great wonderful goodness that is around us.
Ask for help from God, Goddess, Christ Energies, the Arch Angels, anyone or any spirit form that you like. Ask often for their support. They are waiting to help. And they will wait and wait and wait for you to ask for their help. They give it in many ways, however, the really big help comes when you ask for their help.
In the bible somewhere it says, I believe, Ask and ye shall receive. ASK.
One last thought on the title of this letter. Be aware. This is a lot different than the message you see assigned to words where there is a dog that may be grouchy. BEWARE means to scare you off just with the sign. Be Aware, means to use your own powers of discernment and decide the best path for yourself. Do not, please do not fear what is coming ahead. Just be in awareness of the changes that are taking place and realize that change is inevitable and we all have grown because of previous changes around us.
Love all of you
gene
I hope to write here more often than I have in the recent past. The energies of the Earth are changing. You have heard me say that recently. I would like to think as I am in an "up" state today, that I am open and aware of these changes.
Well, from an "up" state of mind that is easier than when one is down like in a feeling of depression that is not depression. When in that singular state of mind, the only thing in control is the mind. From the workshop that I took in Fiji the Oneness Process they talked about how the rumbling mind is not your mind. it is not my mind it is a universal mind chatter.
As we all are growing, evolving or as a friend of mine recently said that instead of Beingness, we are becomingness. Always in the state of transformation. Because we are in that state of becomingness all that is happening to us is always new. Because the mind's desire to be in some level of control, it compares the new to what it thinks it has known from the past.
Since the past has so little to do with the rapidly changing now, the mind is confused and goes off into the universal mind chatter to find relief. And when it goes it attempts to drag us with it. Even though in our strength we would not follow the wayward mind, the mind still attempts to drag us where it wants us to be. Comfortable in confusion. All of you that read these words have tools that you have learned to use to come away from mind confusion. Yet, when the mind has grabbed hold of your self, it can be very difficult to get out of its grasp.
Really if you can stay aware of the intent of the mind to drag you down and really really stay aware of the start of that drag, then you can grasp quickly at those tools that you know to use and fight that pull. I am mentioning this, because even I get drug down easily sometimes. Just a slight moment of inattention and bank I am as defeated as anyone that is defeated.
I have just had a glorious healing and clearing from my friend EC. I was near wit's end even on Sunday Morning as I was getting up I got hit by an anxiety attack. It was stupid stuff that I had gone over many times in the recent 2-3 days. I thought that it was gone and would stay gone so I didn't pay it any heed. by the end of the next hour it was all that I could do to get out of bed. Without my friend..... I would have been in continued turmoil.
And that is the main part of this message. We will be drug down occasionally. If we are fortunate and stop the dragging than that is great. Sometimes we cannot stop the process. Then we need to reach out to our friends and ask for a healing for support. For a kind word.
Please a favor from all of you. Please do not think that I am super strong out here to be able to give this advice without support from all of you. I desperately need your calls and emails to keep on keeping on. Now it is my moment or two to be up. I can once again give support. Trouble was that I was giving support when I was feeling like warmed over dog poo. It was a real struggle I had going for over a week.
Those of you who read this letter with regularity know that I give my all and then some to each of you. It is very very important now that we all work together often to keep the energies up for each of us. Kind words, supportive emails, digging questions to be sure that the other is not hiding their pain. Everyone that I know is going through some major transitions. Change is growth, yes, BUT no one ever said that growth was easy.
Support your friends both the close ones and those a bit farther away. Say your love to everyone. Saying Love speaks a wonderful vibration out to the world. Give gratitude every day to all the great things that are in your life. Do this everyday. The universe needs to know that we recognize the great wonderful goodness that is around us.
Ask for help from God, Goddess, Christ Energies, the Arch Angels, anyone or any spirit form that you like. Ask often for their support. They are waiting to help. And they will wait and wait and wait for you to ask for their help. They give it in many ways, however, the really big help comes when you ask for their help.
In the bible somewhere it says, I believe, Ask and ye shall receive. ASK.
One last thought on the title of this letter. Be aware. This is a lot different than the message you see assigned to words where there is a dog that may be grouchy. BEWARE means to scare you off just with the sign. Be Aware, means to use your own powers of discernment and decide the best path for yourself. Do not, please do not fear what is coming ahead. Just be in awareness of the changes that are taking place and realize that change is inevitable and we all have grown because of previous changes around us.
Love all of you
gene
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