weird thoughts good energy

ha ha ha. Life is weird. So are my thoughts. i need to be asleep. Can't. Got a pittance of a check today from CL work. ought to have been 20% and was 10. Somehow that got me thinking I am broker than I am. I have been living without any income for a month and get 300 and go into weird thoughts.

Have to do a garage sale and sell any all that is left to sell. Book cases for $5. Where will I stack my books. Hmmm sell the books at a $1 each to get rid of them so that I can live out of my car. Sell the crystal cave for good money though. And the white Buddha statue.

Give back the rent to buy computer that I have no idea why i got. Sell the safe too. It is only worth about $20 and I have nothing left to put in it anyway. Sell the wind chimes, the queen size bed it certainly won't fit in the little car. Then the little bed eventually too and sleep on the thermarest.

Sooner or later have to give up this pad as it will bankrupt me the rest of the way. Need to take out my cash left in the bank so that ..... What ever.

Lose the email accounts, phone numbers, web site, loose it all.

YET, heck this is Australia mate. Centre Link support, Homes wEst to get a place to live. It might be rough but better than being in the states for sure. Still not a bad place to live off the land. Plenty of roo road kills to feed myself with.

Found a place today that feeds for a gold coin donation. Got two meals worth from them today.

Put in at Job place for work. Don't know why my mind has gone off dreaming of having NOTHING left. And the whole time that I am thinking these thoughts I actually have a smile on my face. Last week I would have been going crazier with these thoughts.

I guess if I cannot manifest wealth then I will imagine total wipe out.

Couldn't sleep as mentioned so had to get these thoughts down. Will have some income I hope next week if healing work comes through. Will see what happens.

I feel spun out happy that I am going completely broke again. Been what now at least 3-4 times in the last 3 years. Ought to be feeling fairly familiar with it all eh.

Well, main thing is that my head space is feeling really really great. If I am down and out financially and happy that is better than having some coin left and feeling like shit. Least ways it is for me.

Well, any of you that bother to read this. In this instant I am feeling GREAT. Yehah what in the world is going to happen next

Love all of you

peace

gene