life goes on

Hello All,

Well, after the hysterics of the Daughter coming home.....well there was just a lot of screaming going on for a few hours.

i was very concerned for Sara's health. I have been here just on 5 weeks and watched her grow considerably, then all come down around her knees. I was considering calling her sister in Adelaide or her mum and tell my worries. I bit my tongue and prayed for something better to happen.

Daughter decided to go to 2 - 18 year old parties on Friday night didn't bother calling home saying that she wasn't coming home that night. I was awakened at 7:45 am on Saturday with a teary S. in major pain. The day was ROUGH. Later that day she came good again.

On Sunday it was a near repeat as she had decided in the midst of all this stress to take one less of her pain medication down to zero. MAJOR pain the next day with much more weaping. She did an emergency call to a new lady we had heard about that heals nerve pain. We were able to leave immediately and S. was put on to a couple of different machines where the lady said nerve pain taken away is as simple as mowing the grass.

Well all and good, but it didn't happen. And now S. hopes were really really low. Still by the time we got home in early arvo she was coming good again. Strong enough to call the daughter and tell her that she couldn't come after her. The end result of this was that Sara went to her Sister's and they finally had a long sitdown talk to explain to the daughter where she was at with Doctor sister in attendance. Still mostly the talk was about finding why daughter didn't want to stay with her Aunty. Situation solved. She will move in with Aunty.

Sara again last night went with out the pain meds. a bit nervous this morning but getting stronger. I am a good person to have around again.

For me......I am working at staying in the nothing. I really don't know what/where/how is next. Many options. I have a little bit of money and could do many things BUT with the world economy the way that it is when I start thinking I get worried. When I stay in nothing, i am OK. And I am OK with that. I have a place, I have funds coming from the govt. There will be thousands more looking for funds soon as there have been many layoffs here in WA. Just need to chill and be very practical and work on my spirituality.

I woke this morning the first time in fear and wondering all the what if's. Then slept and woke into "stay in the nothingness" and have been doing well.

Peace to all of you.

May you be able to find a space in your life to sit in nothingness and find a way to not worry either.

gene