healing

Hello All,

Had an interesting day yesterday. Received a healing called Holigraphic Kenitics (spelling?) Goes in and sorts out the start of the programming that creates some of the not so pleasant current way of life stuff.

Like my ability to be financially solvent. Comes from several sources of this life time activities and attitudes with my parents. Also, some from previous lives.

I have been having a more stiff neck situation for about 6-10 months. That was possibly started from the many falls off of the horses, off of bicycles, motorcycles, out of trees, off the top of a semi-trailer, out of a hay mow and probably running my head into a lot of stuff through the ages. Healer person says that it is an attitude of needing to be accident prone (or some such....he talked so fast I had difficulty understanding him). This went back to early youth where I sort of got some aspects of life upside down and though I knew I needed to care for myself as my parents didn't seem to care, set myself up for major OUCH just to test the potential of support....never did come, ha ha ha.

Another area was anger, impotent fury, major frustration....again mostly youth mis-guided thoughts.

Another area worked on was the lack of energy that I have always had. The healer attempted to find a pattern of events and could not so just went into the psychi of the Spirit that I am and worked there.

my opinion: Well, I don't think I was his best client. I was not argumentative with him, but just didn't seem to be able to answer his questions in the way that he seemed to expect. Often I could not understand that he was talking to some aspect of me and wanting an answer. Did I drift off? Often he wanted "what is the first thing to come to your mind.....", nothing, blank, purple vision with some green swirling around. This didn't seem to please him, he was wanting, towns, buildings, things...all I got was this swirl.

Still, at one point I felt an energy hmmmmm how to describe...... If as I visualize that which is my body as layers of energy....ok, sort of like an onion....but not so singularily defined. So, yes layers but not that you have to peel the outer to get to say the third layer in... OK? So, as energy the layers can shift out of sequence into other sequences without disturbing the outer layers....got it? So, I felt this energy that felt like it might be a full on copy of my entire body, lift out of my body and disperse away from me. Like a filter being removed from the existence of my beingness. I do not remember which of the four areas being worked upon when this energy filter left me.... any would help. Also, I suspect that this happened each time of the four areas that he worked with. It was just that this one was the most significant in its strength of feeling upon my space and time at that time.

Results:

Well, this morning I am pretty much same as yesterday. Not much energy, no real direction yet, still with senseless fears about just stuff. I did attempt to get my sleepy butt out of bed earlier.....then had a strong message from Spirit to go back to bed. I willingly obliged. Up at my regular time of 7:30am.

I sure hope that something comes out of this healing as I feel that I am suffering from sitting squeezed by duality ideas. Want to work/don't want to work. Want to be cared for/want freedom. and others that I cannot formulate at this writing.

Well, today is Wed Lotto day with friends to see if we can energize results in our favor. Tell you more tomorrow or later.

peace

gene