life continues on

15 March 09

In recent times it has begun to amaze me what a week of time or in this case 10 days of time does to ones life.

I left Gavin’s on Friday 6 march. Came back to Sara’s. Got many boxes and packed up this place. I am not to touch Sara’s clothes as many will go to the Salvo’s, nor Esther’s room nor the computer room of art stuff. It is 99.9% done.

Sara is still in the hospital with little progress. They keep getting her on stronger drugs the latest being Morphine.

For me my energy is all over the shop…..again. For the past week I have felt good, BUT, have zero energy. I get all dressed up to go for a bike ride and once on the seat can barely turn the pedals over.

This morning I rode out to meet friend George at the usual place. I did have to ride into a serious head wind, but the wind didn’t make the lack of energy. After we got to the local coffee shop and after two soy hot chocolates, I was almost too tired to ride home, uphill and into the wind. I did make it and did get undressed before sleeping for 4 hours. Then I was off to a conscious living festival that many people had encouraged me to attend. I felt that this was Spirit’s way of informing me that I had to meet someone. I went, saw many old friends, no one new that I will find again and came away after a Casiel More drumming. Next was a Culture Festival in Hyde Park as there was little else for me to do in life. I walked around for a bit, watched some Brazilians doing Samba music and their folk kungfu dance routines. Then headed for home. Once here I did manage to walk across the street to look for some figs….then returned and attempted to meditate. I feel asleep. I made it to bed without undressing for near 3 hours sleep. Then up and stirred for a bit and of course now I cannot sleep, ha ha ha.

So, that is a good excuse to write some catch up blog and notes.

I go for a healing with Nilanthi in Chidlow on Tuesday. We agreed to the time on Thursday I think. During the conversation I started to yawn. I feel that a big part of the exhaustion now is more healing that I am getting from Nilanthi’s connections. Prior to that I had a healing from a friend of Richard Yiap doing Holographic Kenitics. It was supposed to do the super clean out of blockages for getting income flowing, stiff neck fixed, more energy, and anger. He chose the anger one.

Well, the results for nearly one week on. No more income showing up. Neck is still quite sore, and you already read about the lack of energy. Anger has not been an issue with me for months. Cost $150. However, during the healing, I did feel and energetic body of mine lifting free and dispersing. It was like an energetic imprint of my body that was acting as a filter going away from me. Have yet to see what the results of that are to be.

My meditations have been getting …………..hmmmmm. Stronger isn’t the correct word, nor is deeper, nor more sublime, nor more blissfull. What would sum it up. I am taking ORMUS just prior to doing my meditations. It seems to help me focus more completely and faster. So, the answer for above would be that there seems to be more focus in the meditations. Focus toward singularity. Little side talk/chatter going on. It still is but the sensation is more like white noise would be to the ears.

Speaking of white noise to the ears. I noticed the other night while walking through the house that when I looked down the hall way toward the back door seeing the moon light showing through that if I looked directly at it ………it was dim. However, if I looked to one side, I could see it more clearly. Now I have been complaining that my vision has something going on with it for over 3-4 years to the different eye docs when getting glasses. Of course this bunch isn’t real eye doctors but dispensing doctors. It seemed the other night that the difference was only the right eye which has been the one that has not been obeying the rules of sight, ha ha ha.

I mentioned the phenomena to Robert of www.progurt.com.au He mentioned that it is macular degeneration and that all I need to do is to have the side of the neck opposite to the problem massaged DEEPLY and it will clear up over a bit of time. I mentioned back to him that the left side of my neck has been giving me fits for 6 months to a year.

I have gotten into the wire less world of communication now. I am with 3 network for my time in the city. When I go bush I will use Telstra. I have not yet bought that modem but will probably this week.

So, in summary, the body is fluctuating once more. I am here at Sara’s for 3 more days. Then I go to the Buddhist Monastery for 2 weeks. After that I do not currently know where I will be living as everything seems to have fallen apart. I have mentioned the need to Spirit and they have possibly found a solution. I am to have an interview with Homes West on Wednesday to see if I can get emergency shelter. Not sure what that will be for now, but am open to see as 1 April would see me living out of my car which I have been creating toward that possibility. I do have my thermarest, cooking, sleeping bag, stove all ready. Just recently realized that I packed all my pans and utensils though.

Best wishes to all

Peace

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