coming to grips

Hello All,

Well, when push comes to shove and there isn't any more denying the facts....what is next. Acceptance? I feel that I am betraying my belief system. Believing that I create my own reality....they why create exhaustion? To get a rest? I thought that I was sluffing through life as it was. Now I need more sleep, rest, vitamins, support, help?

I have known a few people with CFS. They always look so healthy....when you see them. Trouble is of course that you don't see them often nor for very long. and I never really could fathom the idea of not having enough energy to lift a fork of food to your mouth....unless with the flu. No flu, no diarhea, no vomiting, just no energy.

And I am not talking about just body energy. The mind needs a fair bit of that energy too. The thinking is slim. The typing the pits. I rode my bike into Freo today. It is mostly all downhill. 1.5 k. Was exhausted by the time I got there. Even the mental aspect of thought to control balance, watch cars, dodge pedestrians, get to where I was going and remember why I was going there is too much.

I attempted to meditate today. Kept falling asleep and this is just 2 hours after getting up.

Its a slippery slope folks. My message....pay attention to your health while you got it and don't use all your energy all the time. Cause when you really really get depleted it takes a really really long time to replenish.

be well

peace

gene