cfs 4 July 09a

4 7 09 b

I am in trouble. 16:08. I have just walked down to town to get some glycogen for my breakfast. I ran out yesterday and forgot to replace it.

This morning I did a piece of toast and two hardboiled eggs. Thought that would do it. Then only nibbled through the day after a cuppa coffee with George this morn at 7. Had a quantity of 85% dark choc lindt. Broken up hard to determine how much, but probably a hand full. And a banana. After watching a movie I walked into town. Just missed the bus.

Did OK, going in. Found a short cut that saved me probably 200 meters and found another on my return probably saved me another 200. But 400 meters from home, I was staggering exhausted. Body all shaky and minus energy. My internal resources were seeking energy from everywhere within. I walked across the John Curtain Playing field. Sun felt good and at the far end laid down in the sun. There was cloud cover but a good portion of sun with no wind felt really nice. I must have slept for over an hour. When I woke, the sky was clear and it was 15:45. I considered going to the beach, but knew that I would not have much time to make what little sun was left. I got up after a bit and found that I was just as exhausted now as I was when I laid down. That surprised me. I had figured that I would recover some in the Sun. NOT. I really had difficulty getting across the short fence and up the slope to cross the road and get home. This is getting scary now. If I were to drop out there, I would have had to stay there all night and in my present condition probably would not have made it.

I can call emergency and get an ambulance, but that is VERY costly. I have heard that you can make a donation and get ambo service. Need to check that out.

I came home and did a glyco drink and hope to see some energy in a bit.

I realized while I was laying out on the grass that every time I have had a blow to my energy over the last 2-3 months I have not ever recovered to what I was energetically prior to the blow. I get to feeling better after, but not stronger. Always always lower. So, as I have mentioned before, I have not bottomed out. And if I have not bottomed out then just what is the bottom and how long will I need to be there and what will it take to not bottom out and maintain what little I have?

Oh, Lord help me please. Guide me to at least a maintenance level.

Peace

gene