CFS 16 Aug 09

Been a long time since I have been writing here or anywhere. Been keeping notes at the food diary lightly though.

I have been doing ayurvedic medicine for just over 3 weeks now and the results are good as far as I can tell. My stool has improved to a more or less normal state of being. One poo a day and that feels fine.

At 10 days I had a presence of feeling ‘good’ about me again. It was more a mental/spiritual awareness than anything else. Physically I would say that I have been rather stabile for the 3 weeks. I have had a couple of hits to less than zero, but I would return to the stabile feeling fairly quickly. Though all three are worth mentioning. Being Vata I am to eat warm small meals. I ate a warm LARGE greasy, floury meal with friends. 20 minutes later I needed to sit on the sidewalk to keep from hitting the ground. That arvo was some scary driving to say the least as all mental function went awry. I got so turned around trying to find a place that I had to pull out the street directory 3 times in 2 blocks to sort out North/south, East/West. I had a short rest at the grocery where I was headed (Asian) and the one across the street (Indian). The drive home was cautious but safe.

The other two times were eating cold meals even though they were organic I got very weak very rapidly.

Even here at home I often eat too much at one time and get quite weak from that. I need to break down what I am eating into sooner and later rather than all at once.

Last week, I started to get the sense that I need to observe how I have acquired this wonderful home that I am living in and the income and the CFS and many other things. And to then start to apply that sequencing to acquire what is coming in my future. And to observe what I am saying to not create a poorer me in the future. I have noticed some statements that are not good and need to find alternatives to say the same thing in a positive way.

Friday’s Astrology was in tune with my current thoughts:

Though you are feeling that life is presently a pleasant affair, under the surface there is the slight sense that you are in the waiting room, rather than in the adventure itself. Here is where you need the patience to feel out your needs. Don't be indolent in the gap.

Dictionary of indolent: –adjective

1. having or showing a disposition to avoid exertion; slothful: an indolent person.
2. Pathology. causing little or no pain; inactive or relatively benign: an indolent ulcer that is not painful and is slow to heal.

In that sense I am striving now as I write this to get in contact with Spirit to learn what next. Also, friend Shane is coming over on Monday and I am going to ask his help in this too. I may be less than patient in this, but I feel that it is time to stir a bit from the couch of life. I will continue to be very cautious with my energy as it does disappear rapidly at times yet and I know this.

Be well

Peace

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