Shafer's Thoughts

freedom at last

2011-01-23T13:57:00.002+08:00

hello all,

Well here I am back on the old blog.

I will u se this one for a bit until I sort another system.

just came across a description of "freedom" which i need to pass on.

Being free is setting my own boundaries

Being free is being me

Being free is:

sleeping when I am sleepy
eating when I choose to
being separate when I want to
being with others when I want to
touching when I want to touch
being touched when it feels good
being touched where it feels good
doing work that I enjoy
taking the kind of vacation that I want
excercising when i want to
following my curiosity
loving
saying no as easily as saying yes
acknowledging my anger, sadness, fear, and joy
being funny, serious, excited, mellow, energetic, tired, vulnerable, needy, powerful, competent,responsible for my life, responsible for me, flowing with the present.

Being free is not ignoring others, taking without giving, being irresponsible, or being lonely.

being free is living according to who I am now, instead of who I was in the past or will be in the future.

may you all be well and happy.

peace gene

CFS 29 November...going going going gone?

2009-11-29T22:07:00.001+11:00

Hello Friends, Big changes in my life this past month. Read on.

For the past month I have been using a product from the US called StemEnhance which facilitates the proliferation and release of the body’s own stem cells. Stem cells are “master cells” which migrate from the bone marrow to replace any damaged, sick or worn out cells in the body. As we age, the number and quality of stem cells in our body, gradually decrease, leaving our body susceptible to injury and other age-related challenges.

StemEnhance is a naturally occurring blue/green algae that has been concentrated to contain higher amounts of 2 compounds which stimulate the migration of stem cells into the blood stream. There is also an increased amount of PEA (Phenyl ethylamine), the happy stuff in chocolate, which increases mental clarity and is a natural compound made by the brain whenever one feels content and happy. The migration of natural killer cells is also stimulated – these destroy cancerous and virally infected cells in the body. Within hours of taking two capsules, approx 3-5 million stem cells are circulating in the bloodstream.

I have been enjoying the influence of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome for about 11 months. While holding the bottle I felt a buzz of energy from the full un-opened bottle. 10 minutes after I took my first 2 Stem Enhance capsules (13:00 9 November 09), I was reading at the time, it felt like someone had shined a flashlight upon the book as my vision improved so much in that instant. I recorded the first two hours of sensations. The most prominent was a feeling of almost a “HIGH” or Euphoria. Also, at about 1 hour in I had the sense that my Aura had increased dramatically in size. I felt larger in presence / energy. I decided in my condition to increase the suggested dosage from 2 capsules a day to 6. I took 2 more at 9 PM with little result. I took 2 more at 01:00 (normal for CFS to have difficulty sleeping). Again I had the “bright” sensation in my closed eyes and the Auric surge. I slept great. The next day I again continued with 6 tablets. I started to notice that tense tight areas seemed to have an incredible increase of blood flow. At one point I noticed my ears as bring BEET RED with increased blood flow.

The thing with CFS is tiredness. I have learned that I can do about 2-3 hours of outside activity like driving etc before I crash and if I attempt to do more it may take me days to weeks to recover. On my third day (11-11-09) of Stem Enhance I got up at 8 (after getting to sleep at 02:00) and drove 80 k to the Theravada Buddhist Monastery in Serpentine WA to eat and visit a friend. I left there after 13:00 to go see my Ayurvedic practitioner. I left there at 15:00 and returned to home. Enroute I stopped at a friend’s home to drop off 2 bottles of Stem Enhance. I had just enough time for a quick shower, quick meal and head out the door to another friends’ home for a going away party. I could not stay as I had a Meditation party for 11-11-2009 (11). I ought to have been wasted by now. I did the party and got home at 21:45, bed at 24:00. I woke the next morning to my alarm clock at 8 AM because I had an apt early. To me this was my test…..how would I feel after hammering my body the previous day. I FELT GREAT!!!! And a story within a story…. I arrived at the party with a very sore stiff neck. I took 2 tables just before the start of the meditation. About 20 minutes later I got a very HOT sensation up through my neck and shoulders (this must be the “approx 3-5 million stem cells are circulating in the bloodstream” mentioned above). My neck improved over the next hour to a point of no pain at all. I am very excited about this product.

Saturday, 14 November 09, again I woke feeling very good. Great energy. I started yesterday to stretch again after 3 months with not enough energy to do so. Today I rode my bike on its stand for 25 minutes lightly. I will know more as the day progresses. YEHAH!

Sunday, 15 November 09, was another just good day of energy. I didn’t do anything substantial to “test” my endurance. However, tomorrow is another story.

Monday, 16 November 09, the day was to be a simple drive back to a Doctor’s apt about 40 k away. It ended up being another Marathon day. 8AM start, phone call to NZ about Stem Enhance, 9:30 call to Atlanta GA talking with a friend there about Stem Enhance, I left the house at 10 to go 20 K out of my way to help a lady with a lift to see her numerous dogs, left there at 11 to head to the Doctor’s. That over past a friend for help with a computer problem, then home briefly and out to supper with another friend, who invited her sister for conversation about Stem Enhance (Sister signed up Fast Start), then home. Pretty much a normal day for normal people but not someone with CFS like lifestyle. Tuesday morning I did sleep in a bit, and woke with GREAT energy.

20 November 09, this week has been a steady slow improvement in my energy. I am not pushing it toooo much as I don’t wish a relapse to exhaustion again. CFS is a learning curve of watching what I can do versus what I want to do. As long as I pay close attention to what energy there is I will grow healthier. I think that the first week to 10 days were the biggest shift that I have felt and now I am into steady improvement. If that changes I will report more in this growing letter.

23 November 09. I pushed tooooo much finally. Friday night (20 November) I couldn’t sleep. Got to sleep at 04:00 and up at 06:00 to meet a friend for a cup of tea. Back to bed at 08:30 but could only sleep till 10:00 and no more. I was up the rest of the day and did a party that night. Bed at 20:30 till 08:00 the next morning. I felt a bit draggy all day. Sunday night another 12 hours of sleep and I felt remarkably better. Monday night I again slept 10 hours and feel recovered. Pre Stem Enhance….. I would expect to sleep 12+ hours a night for 2-3 weeks for recovery.

30 November 09, The past week has been calmer in many ways. No more the great noticeable changes in my body. Yet a grand calmness has come over me. I feel very at peace with life and the world in general, serenity.

The Company also produce a product called StemFlo which is a blend of herbs and special nutrients that supports optimal blood flow and delivers life sustaining nutrients and oxygen, while removing detrimental toxins. In clinical studies, StemFlo was shown to improve blood circulation and reduce oxidative stress within thirty minutes of consumption.

I waited for 3 weeks before starting the StemFlo. I had been instructed to take it on an empty stomach and I did that. Four hours later I was feeling quite sleepy and with CFS have learned to do what my body wants. I went to bed for 2 hours. During that rest period I could feel my body doing weird things. My feet felt expanded with blood and were pulsing. The sensation was not comfortable and felt very dream like. In my feet area I suffer a few problems. I have nerve tinglings, coldness, and numbness. Often one foot will be cold while the other is hot. I kept touching one foot against the other and that is what I noticed that the foot that is normally cold was hot and the other just the opposite. Later, I noticed that same sensation of being larger or a swelling in my calves. I have been on this product for a week now. I have not had any additional sensations with it at all. I will continue the use for some time.

StemEnhance and StemFlo retail for $60.00 (AU) each or $45.50 (AU) to members (membership fee is $31.50(AU)). If you are wishing to try this product, you can email or call me, or alternatively go to www.bodyshine.stemtechbiz.com (click on Australia or your own country) and purchase direct from the website. Each country has its own pricing through the web site. The best package to start with is the Fast Start listed on the 3rd window of the web page. Also, if you know anyone who is suffering with any kind of ill health, please be kind enough to pass this on as it may give them their life back. Best if you join first and have some income too.

In the meantime, be happy and well and please feel free to call or email me with any queries.

Peace,

Gene

http://www.bodyshine.stemtechbiz.com

CFS 15 November 09

2009-11-15T15:02:00.002+11:00

Hello All,

Well, I arrived in Australia 10 years ago this date. Ten years of time gone so fast. So much done and yet so little too.

I went from weak and poor to some strength and some income to hit bottom with CFS, Govt dole, Govt housing, no energy, no direction, no ideas. And yet here at my lowest, I feel that I have yet to come into my full power of being. That there is still an awesome me to be presented to the world. It is some inate knowing as I certainly cannot explain it from my past experiences.

I have just come across a product that is helping me recover from the CFS. I have only been on it for 6 days and they have each been filled with more energy than I have had in months if not years. I am able to exercise again and this after the last weekend hardly able to get out of bed. I am being very cautious as I do not want a relapse of course. There is a business opportunity with this product as well. you can check it out at http://www.bodyshine.stemtechbiz.com

Can someone tell me why sometimes when I type a URL it comes up blue and will direct people automatically and other times it doesn't?

So, my current sense of direction is to build a business out of this product, write some ebooks for sale, get my energy and health back and ride around Australia on a bike (preferably at greenspeed trike) running the business from my laptop and mobile telly.

Hope that all of you are doing well.

peace

gene

CFS 6 November

2009-11-06T16:40:00.002+11:00

Hello All,

Been feeling pretty good. Slow steady incline to health. Been a few stress hits but none that took me down. Felt confident that I was on a positive shift out of this interesting syndrome of life.

Till this morning. I woke really late just before noon with an 85 pulse. Barely able to get out of bed and dress. Not even hungry and that is not a good thing. Still up now not even two hours later and feel more wasted than I ever have. I desire to walk down town like I do every day. currently not sure that I will be able to. and I was going to take a workshop this weekend. If I wake with this energy tomorrow I will not be able to.

Pisser is that I cannot even begin to see what has tripped me this low. I didn't have a late night with friends. I had an early night with friends. came home watched the regular TV went to bed and sleep like a log waking thus. difficult to see the light at the end of the tunnel when this happens.

Hope that all of you are well out there.

peace

gene

Life's many shifts

2009-11-05T10:29:00.002+11:00

Hello All,

Hopefully some of you that take the time to read this blog are also going through an ascension process.

To me an ascension process is all about raising the vibration that I am vibrating at. Everything that you know, see, touch has a vibration as it is energy. We as humans also have a vibration. Hopefully this is not new information to you.

Over the last several months you have observed my trials and tribulations with life and the energy to keep going and often the frustrations that go with that.

Fortunately several months back I was guided to live my life by this statement from Spirit, "Learn to live comfortably with who you are as you are now without striving to become healthier, wealthier or look for a partner." The more that I have done that, the healthier I have become. The improvements are incredible slow and small, yet I am improving. My measuring tool is that when I have an energy hit now, I do not drop lower that the lowest ever before. This past 3 weeks I seem to have had a hit on my energy every 3-4 days for 3 weeks. Yet, I am stronger than I was 3 months ago. Very weak yet, yes, but my recovery from each day of exhaustion happens in one or two days. And if I push for 2 days in a row, I am not knocked out for 2-3 weeks as before.

Another great advantage that I had was someone sending me to a beneficial web site that described much of what I was going through http://www.emergingearthangels.com

The Author has been documenting the changes of people going through this ascension process for a few years and has quite the archive worth checking out.

1 November I received a phone call from a friend suggesting that I get into a MLM with her. I have joined that and am looking forward to using my limited energy to grow financially stronger as well as using the product to grow healthier too.

4 November I started to receive my SS checks from the states. This will allow me to advance my health easier too as now I will be able to afford to eat better and buy some vitamins. Also, I was able to pay off some old debts that I have let slide for a while.

Also on 4 November I received a Christmas book about creating wealth on the Internet.

Life is looking up again as I get excited about the possibilities even though my track record is dismal past on the financial side, I believe that the Ascension process will have shifted to allow me to grow into my power with ease and joy and happiness.

I have 2-3 thing goals for the next year. To get a http://www.greenspeed.com trike and to start riding around Australia with my laptop running my internet business and also in that time span to build up my Ity-Bity car into an electric car.

May you all be well and happy.

peace

gene

PS. I recently realized that I have lightly been asking Spirit for more energy in order to grow healthy. I have been asking for the wrong aspect of energy. What I needed was something to come into my life that would excite me. Excitement leads to creation of energy. As long as I am excited about life, life is great. May it be for you also.

g

Still Me

2009-10-06T16:47:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

A long time ago now, I got the message about "learn to be comfortable with who I am as I am without striving to be healthier, wealthier, or find a partner." I have been doing pretty good on that and can smile at my progress. yet of course as spring Springs into beauty and desire comes about, I am chaffing at my restricted lifestyle. Restricted into a fairly perfect life style, yet restricted none the less. There are many things that I can do.....but of course that which I can do I don't want to do, ha ha ha. And there are things that I would like to do, that I don't dare because I do not want an energy relapse.

All the Runes I pull are all about constraint, and/or that I am doing extremely well as I rebuild that which is me into the new format of existence.

OK, Spirit, God, The Golden Ball all think I am doing GREAT, he he he, I am human so of course I want different. Yet as I write this I smile and know that I may whinge, but will stay within the parameters of existing safely rather than take the chance of a major set back. I took a slight hit over the weekend and for once didn't drop lower than I have been before. So, overall physically I know that I am better than were I was, but I still know also that I have a way to go.

Hope that all of you are doing well out there.

peace

gene

a long day

2009-10-02T10:12:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, actually it is just another day. I am up earlier than normal. I have a dead spot of what to do from about 6:30 when I am waking for no reason till about 10 when I seem to know what to do with my day. This morning I got up at 7:15. It is now 10:15 and I have done all my stuff that I normally would do already, done, did, what now, lost.

I am feeling energy....yet not wanting to apply it. Not into Meditation, cleaning, sewing, washing the car, reading a book, walking, sleeping or much of any thing between. Not even in conversation with anyone, not interested in receiving a call nor in talking, yet know that is probably what I need to do. Took me 5 minutes to decide to call a friend for a quick chat to see it that would motivate me. The conversation was stilted as she was just starting a project and felt cranky. Hmmmm me too...that helped.

Then decided to write here to list how I am feeling as I am feeling it. Nothing on TV tonight so nothing to look forward too either. May have to get a DVD from the library.

I have another gap of what to do between 5ish to 8:30 when most of the better movies come on line. Antique Roadshow is good at 5 and current affairs are at 6:30.

Is this all my life is about now? What is next on TV? YUCK!!! Yet, yet I know that I am on my path exactly where I am needing to be right now. I don't have enough energy to do anything like normal work, I am still recovering my energy and do not want to blow what I have gained. The weather is beautiful and yesterday I went for a longish walk. I was exhausted last night after it too. Yet it wasn't a really long walk. I walked a round about path into town and wisely rode the bus home. I am not ready for a bike ride physically and know that too.

My right hand and foot are COLD too. Been wearing a glove on the right side to compensate for the coldness on that side. Weird.

I am hungry for different foods, but don't want to spend the money to get different. Been hungry for sweets lately again too. And something crunchy.

What now....nothing more to write about.... go eat something I guess.

bye

gene

Earth Dance WA 2009

2009-09-30T11:32:00.001+08:00

30 9 9

Last day of September. My birthday was good. I was out in Bencubbin WA for Earth Dance WA 2009. Thumpa Thumpa Thumpa Thumpa music playing all day and a lot of the night. It actually is pretty easy to sleep with. Great people walking around, dancing, talking, sharing, dancing, having fun, hula-hooping, dancing, talking, dancing, sharing, having fun….ha ha ha. Had my medicinal beer for my Birthday too.

The last night wasn’t quite as good for sleeping though. I had relocated my tent to be nearer to the healers rather than around the mountain from the music. The music stopped playing on Sunday around 4. The location near me that was labelled “Playground” had their own sound system, and generator. They cranked theirs up LOUD at 6 and played till around 2 AM. I was vibrating in my tent. Mentally, I relaxed into the sound. There was no sense in trying to fight it. I could either pack up my tent and relocate or stay put and sleep as well as I could. I chose to relinquish control and sleep. Still I could tell the next morning that I was more tired than I had been subsequent nights.

After packing up my tent, and doing breakfast I started to loosen the Healing dome. I didn’t want to do all the work so that was my contribution. The healing dome was a pentagon structure. Don’t know who designed it but it was done economically for sure. Looked like PVC pipe about a meter and a half maybe less connected with black plastic joiners that were flat between pieces. We took 5 sets of 5 lengths and laid them out in a pentagon with their centre sections. At the flat laps there is a bolt hole already drilled. The bolt had two large wooden washers about 3 inches across. Once these were bolted in place then the next layer out had two length sections connecting into a 6 directional section created. Then the middle was lifted which brought the 6 star next to its links to be connected with the bold combination also. Then the bottom which was maybe 10 lengths long was connected at the start of the door and to each strand down from the 6 star above. Very rapidly with many hands and little knowledge we had a hut that in the middle was shy of 8 feet and could hold 3 massage tables and one chair massage.

I left around 9 or 10 I think. I was not in a hurry, but still felt it was time to ease my way toward Perth. I stopped a few times for pee breaks and to stretch. My plans were to stop in and visit friend Jane Fitzgerald in Chidlow at her new home grounds on my return. Somehow I missed a turn around Moolooroo I think and was on the Great Eastern Highway sooner than planned. I had planned on staying north of this on secondary highways due to my slow movement in Ity-Bity, but that was not Ity-Bity’s plan I guess. I drove straight to the correct spot of Jane’s place but put in a call to be sure. Dirt driveway UP a hill that disappeared over the top. I am guessing the driveway to be near a kilo in length. I was expecting a house….NOT. They bought 85 acres of pasture land, and a camper van and supporting tents for STUFF. The big tent is probably 8X20 meters and is the “living room” for Jane, Shawn and two kids. The property already has incredible energy and will be growing more with Jane in attendance. I stayed the night and since they live off a generator, eventually pulled out my camp stove to cook breaky for Jane and the Kids. Shawn was already off to work.

At just after 12 I headed home. Home by 1, car unloaded, shower and bed by 2, I woke at 5 for a quick trip to town and managed to stay up till 10ish. Slept great again. It is colder here in Perth than it was at the Wheat Belt. About 150 k north makes a huge diff in temperature. A friend of mine and I are putting our heads together about a trip to Ningaloo in October. Temps will be getting hotter but it would be good to get away again. I have been trapped by my unwillingness to travel and health for too long. I may not have much money, but it doesn’t cost too much to travel a bit out of Perth and camp free.

One thing that sort of shocked me when I travelled out on Wednesday last week was how acoustomed I had become to living in the city with buildings stopping the view of distance. As I drove and the landscape opened up it was amazing as I could feel my energy expand as well. It was a good feeling and one that I plan on doing more often even if it means HOT travel in the summer time. Or I can go south to Denmark as long as Ity-Bity is willing to travel a bit more of distance and slowly too.

Enough.

Peace

gene

CFS 4 Sept 09 NOT

2009-09-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

I am going to do something a bit different in this blog. I will be contacting my Spirit Guides for some information as well as telling how life has been of late.

Did another trip to my Ayurvedic Practitioner Ronlyn Powell in Jarrahdale.
08 9525 5456 mobile 0427 777 453 ronlynpowell@hotmail.com I urge all those that read this that are in or around Perth that the trip is worth it.

I got some very interesting herbs to help me sleep that worked awesome and I woke alert and ready for the day.

I did Conscious Living Expo today. I was some worried about my energy levels and the energy of the place. It was a bit daunting however I survived well. Best of all was a healing in the Yurt of Caiseal Mor Author, Idiot Savant, and all around great guy. You can get in contact with him by goggling him or go to his partner, Helen Wells' web site. www.helenwells.com.au/ Helen is just an awesome painter and is the perfect match for Caiseal.

The healing was the only one that I was interested in accepting of those offered by others that wanted to "fix" me. So many of the healers of today can only think of doing this fixing without accepting that a person is a journey that may not fit their own ideal of what life might be. Caiseal's healing was drumming and music and is natural and not "done by him" which is so important these days in this interesting energy that is surrounding all of us as we approach 2012.

Now, back to that idea of my needing to be "fixed". I am not broken. I am not sick. I do not have CFS. I do have CFS like symptoms. I am incredible tired. I have very low energy. My body is constantly in a vibration feeling much like shivering.

What I am doing is not easily put into words. I will use some that might be close to what is going on. I am Transmuting, transforming, changing my individual cells to a different basic format. Also, I am doing all of that for a few people around me as well as a huge portion of earth. Obviously that area is here in Fremantle.

Here is a web site that will explain what I am going through better than any that I have seen around any where else. http://www.emergingearthangels.com paste that into your browser and have a read.

One day you will be going through this too. however, it won't be as strong for you as it has been for me and millions of others around the world. That is because we went first. We will be around to help you and to explain what you are going through and be able to help you understand. And in the understanding if you take the opportunity to believe, your transition will be easier. I know mine would have been easier and quicker if I would have fully understood the time, the necessity, the urgency, the need sooner.

it is important that everyone that is to be alive approaching 2012 and beyond will be transmuted into the new energies. Most Children being born now are already through this process. They are ready. I am helping them to take control when they are ready.

The children of today are the as makes sense the leaders of tomorrow. The government, the monetary systems, the health systems will all be different shortly.

I have heard from several sources that there will be a huge financial crash the first two weeks of October. I am not telling you this to work on getting you scarred. It is to let you know and to relax into the transitions when they come. Enough of world stuff.

I am interested in asking questions of my guides this blog. Spirit? Friends? I feel quite different today after the healing from Caiseal. I suspect that you were present more than normal. What happened? I suspect that Caiseal always has been more than he seems but...

Hello Gene, You are more aware of those around you that can help you than you allow yourself to believe. We would ask you to go again to this show and feel the energies of those that are there to guide them. Perhaps you will meet a few important people again.

As for Caiseal, yes we used him today, or we used the opportunity of your fully trusting him and relaxing enough that we could do work that we have not been able to do here at home. There is much trust that you put into this Lair as you call your home, but.....you still keep a guard up here. Even here you watch your back so to speak. You are learning how to put up much stronger protections than you have in the past. And it is wise where you are living to do so. You do have some good neighbors that are Angels of lower vibrations...they help others at that level. It is the others that target their venom and you are cautious of that and that is good. Your Lair will be a very safe haven for you for a while.

Now, back to the healing. You trust Caiseal very deeply due to having been with him on many journeys in life. And with Helen too. In that arena you allowed all your walls to lower. You know that you still didn't fully let go as he suggested and allow your soul to travel. Yet, it was enough to allow much needed work. Your sojourn of transmutation is about over as mentioned by Caiseal. And that date that you have set up is an important one to be away from town as you are doing.

You have learned much in this transition period. It is now important that you write your own version of what has happened and how people need to live their lives to get through it.

And, as Caiseal mentioned, it is time to start that book. We will help you write if of course and it will be important information.

That is enough for tonight. WE love you for the work that you are doing for all the world for all the time.

Thank you for this information. i could feel much of it, but in your words it makes more sense.

Peace to all

gene

CFS 22 August Another shift lower

2009-08-22T19:09:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Understanding the parameters that we all live within helps us all to live our routine lives. What happens when the parameters are severely controlled by outside measures? An unexpected car crash messes our bodies up or the lives of those crushed. Or a tidal wave comes along and the whole world looks at sunning on the beach differently.

Those are outside parameter changes. Then there are the internal changes. Getting a severe flu. Out for 2-3 weeks then recover and on you go. Having a cold without medicine and you are out for 10 days. Get a broken leg depending on how bad can slow you down for a week to several. having the Big C will change your life for years.

So will Chronic Fatigue. I am still in the first stages of having symptoms similar to CFS. I am still learning what I can or cannot do. And what is scary is that no matter at what level I know that I need to be very careful with my energy.....I still rate my ability to do, higher than what is realistic.

Last week, I was feeling stronger every day. I was getting up on time (07:15am). I was riding my bicycle trainer for 20 minutes very low gear fairly slowly every day. Then I upped it to starting the 5 Tibetans. I couldn't do all the 21 suggested iterations of each, but did what my body could do easily carefully, then a light stretch of the ham strings and meditation for an hour. Every day I felt better. I don't even know what was different on Sunday but on Monday I was very dizzy after the meditation. I cut back on all points on Tuesday to no avail. From Wednesday on, I have done nothing. Not even able to do the meditation. Now I know that I did too much too quickly. Hindsight etc.

Then on Friday I got many people to help me shift a washing machine. I did less than a 10 year old could have done to help (I know because I used to do this as a 10 year old) Friday evening I was very tired. Saturday morning I was exhausted. Saturday arvo I was having difficulty getting off the couch without falling back to the couch.

The other thing that I have noticed about this interesting lifestyle of CFS is that no matter how my energy increases like over the previous 4-5 weeks....each hit takes me lower than I was before. And that scares me. So, now, after nearly 5 weeks of growth, I am lower than I was 2 months ago.

I know of CFS people that cannot get out of bed without help. I do not want to go that low. That means that I need to look very carefully at what I do. what I think that I want to do and discount that by about a 1000%. Also, I know at some level that I don't actually have CFS. However, HOWEVER it may look and act like CFS. It really is a Spiritual transmutation of my body to a new level of being. Meanwhile, it looks like, acts like and Spirit tells me to treat it like CFS. OK.

I am doing the Ayurvedic herbal recommendations from a Ayurvedic Practitioner in Jarrahdale WA. They were working great over those 5 weeks. I believe strongly that they will continue to work wonders over time. My responsibility is to NOT DO ANYTHING THAT IS DETRIMENTAL TO MY CONSTITUTION AT ALL!!!!

That "at all" means doing less than I was doing at my weakest this week until I get back to a safe level of being again. I think that I am still OK with the 20 min bike ride. I started that 3 weeks ago and it has helped. I think that I can do that and no more for a very long time. I had just started going to 25 minutes in the same low gear. I need to be very very careful of increasing amounts and I need to find some verifiable way to determine when I can start again and when i can increase.

Another part of the recovery of course is eating and vitamins. I am on an oh so tight budget that it is amazing that I get by sometimes. I still have a few things to sell and am doing so. I managed to stay on budget for only a month before going over drastically. Thanks to the many friends that are helping me through these interesting times. I am getting by with a little help from my friends as I believe the Beatles had a say about.

Be well

peace

gene

CFS 16 Aug 09

2009-08-16T14:14:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since I have been writing here or anywhere. Been keeping notes at the food diary lightly though.

I have been doing ayurvedic medicine for just over 3 weeks now and the results are good as far as I can tell. My stool has improved to a more or less normal state of being. One poo a day and that feels fine.

At 10 days I had a presence of feeling ‘good’ about me again. It was more a mental/spiritual awareness than anything else. Physically I would say that I have been rather stabile for the 3 weeks. I have had a couple of hits to less than zero, but I would return to the stabile feeling fairly quickly. Though all three are worth mentioning. Being Vata I am to eat warm small meals. I ate a warm LARGE greasy, floury meal with friends. 20 minutes later I needed to sit on the sidewalk to keep from hitting the ground. That arvo was some scary driving to say the least as all mental function went awry. I got so turned around trying to find a place that I had to pull out the street directory 3 times in 2 blocks to sort out North/south, East/West. I had a short rest at the grocery where I was headed (Asian) and the one across the street (Indian). The drive home was cautious but safe.

The other two times were eating cold meals even though they were organic I got very weak very rapidly.

Even here at home I often eat too much at one time and get quite weak from that. I need to break down what I am eating into sooner and later rather than all at once.

Last week, I started to get the sense that I need to observe how I have acquired this wonderful home that I am living in and the income and the CFS and many other things. And to then start to apply that sequencing to acquire what is coming in my future. And to observe what I am saying to not create a poorer me in the future. I have noticed some statements that are not good and need to find alternatives to say the same thing in a positive way.

Friday’s Astrology was in tune with my current thoughts:

Though you are feeling that life is presently a pleasant affair, under the surface there is the slight sense that you are in the waiting room, rather than in the adventure itself. Here is where you need the patience to feel out your needs. Don't be indolent in the gap.

Dictionary of indolent: –adjective

1. having or showing a disposition to avoid exertion; slothful: an indolent person.
2. Pathology. causing little or no pain; inactive or relatively benign: an indolent ulcer that is not painful and is slow to heal.

In that sense I am striving now as I write this to get in contact with Spirit to learn what next. Also, friend Shane is coming over on Monday and I am going to ask his help in this too. I may be less than patient in this, but I feel that it is time to stir a bit from the couch of life. I will continue to be very cautious with my energy as it does disappear rapidly at times yet and I know this.

Be well

Peace

gene

CFS 4 Aug 09 diet exhaustion

2009-08-04T19:25:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

A new surprise for me today. I have felt really good for two days. Started on Sunday arvo. Just all of a sudden I really felt good for the first time in a long time. I know to not trust these feelings but to enjoy them while they last.

Today I went to a friend's to get my taxes done. Just after we went out to eat, their treat. It was a buffet of Asian dishes. I had a bit more than I probably ought to have as I was hungry. Great conversation, good food, good time. After we walked to an Asian bakery and bought some small cakes to take with us. Next to an Asian grocery where my friends buy personal supplies. There I started to get weak.

I immediately knew what had happened. I had eaten too big of a meal and all the blood of my body was rushing to my gut. I got dizzy enough that I excused myself and went out to sit on the sidewalk rather than falling in the store. My friend has had CFS for over 20 years and has successfully accomplished the rigors of bicycling to become one of Australia's World Champions in the Master division. She understands the condition and understands the immediacy of needing to sit quickly.

I was quite foggy, though still conversational as we walked to the car. When we got home, I nibbled a bit of the cake then needed to leave as I still needed to drive into the city to buy some needed ingredients for my larder. Just as I was leaving I received a phone call from a friend that I hoped to meet up with in the city. She was talking so fast that it was just a blur and then I realized just how tired I was. I had to ask her to slow down as I could not understand her at all. I felt much like I have heard people with a stroke that think they are talking coherently while talking mumbles. I knew where I was. I knew where I needed to go but not how to get there. And with my friend's rapid conversation I was so disoriented that I pulled over and stopped the car. Even though I have driven into the area that I was going to before, I couldn't coordinate my brain to recognize the directions from my friend over the phone. We agreed to meet near the grocery that I was going to.

Later I got a message saying that she had decided to go home as she was tired also. Enroute, I missed my turn and drove 10-15 kilometers around the area trying to understand the map, the direction I was going, where I was. I arrived, bought my stuff and headed home. Also, I arrived safely.

I actually got better as time went on as the food digested from my stomach.

Lesson learned. When eating out with CFS, do not let the eyes do the talking of how much to eat. This life is such a careful balance of all nuances of every breathe all the time. How I mix with friends, what I think, what I say, how I feel everything.

Friends, I sit in amazement of the levels of exhaustion that can be visited by a human. I am healthy, I take my vitamins, my blood is good, blood sugar levels are good, all is well......except that I am running way below the empty line of energy in too many situations. I have thought about writing a book to describe to healthy people of exhaustion. As I sit here now at my computer I am relatively fine. And, I sit here in near disbelief of how I felt earlier today. And though I have attempted a few times to describe to my friends just how low I am feeling, I know that they cannot comprehend it. And, my energy is GREAT to most people with CFS. How they cope, they that cannot even get out of bed is beyond me. I am so blessed to be so healthy as I am even now.

My Cyclist friend is a story in herself. She was diagnosed with CFS and Fibro Myalgia at the age or around 45. Her old time doctor told her as told to me, "Dear, you can go home an lay on your couch the rest of your life or get on a bicycle and start riding." She started to ride. She has told me how some nights to ride 100 meters up the road and back was agony. 15 years later, she just won the World Jersey in 5 different events. Her TV wall is covered with racks to hold all the medals and trophies that she has won. In a picture case resides the jersey.

Now, though she says that she is tired and doesn't desire to ride so much. The last ride she did with the men they had a 30k average for the day. That is better than my friend and I ever did in all the days of our riding. She is still WOW to me.

Best wishes to all of you that read this. Love to hear from you sometime.

bodyshine@iinet.net.au

If you are healthy and reading this..... I urge you to not over do anything any time in your life. Keep up the vitamins always. Eat really well. that is not eating LOTS but eating good food properly cooked to get the most nutrients.

If you have CFS and are reading this.... write to me. I am on a program that seems to be helping. I have not got it all worked out yet, but I feel better than I did a month ago.

peace

gene

CFS 23 July, Ayurvedic intervention

2009-07-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Just yesterday though I went for an Ayurvedic appointment. Ayurvedic has been around for 10-15,000 years in India. It deals with 3 major body types called Doshas. The three types are Vata, Pitta, and Kapha. I am mostly Vata with a fair bit of Pitta thrown in. Vata's are usually very slim, bony nubs at wrists and ankles that other people just don't have. Deep set yes, and lots more details. You can type Ayurvedic into the google and come up with programs that will help you to determine what you are.

It is suggested that you take the test once with how you remember being while you felt really strong and again with how you may currently be. this helps to show where you are 'out of balance' in your dosha.

I am extremely out of balance from Vata. who can be very scattered and does better with a routine. Who will push to beyond exhaustion and needs to not do so or face the possibility of burn out (like I have).

At the appointment the lady asked me some leading questions and we did general chat. With this she determined what area I wanted to work on most. ENERGY. So, I bought two teas, and she donated the herbal mixture. Already today I feel better after two cups of tea and two doses of the herbal mix. Still it will take time. The idea is to bring the digestion system into alignment. From proper digestion we get proper balance health.

Ronlyn also pointed out that I do not have true CFS. I don't have their problems of the inability to sleep but be exhausted at the same time. CFSers may fall asleep but wake up as they are too exhausted to relax into sleep. Also, I have appetite which a lot of them do not.

So, this looks like a great avenue to trod down for a while.

I will keep letting you know more as I learn more.

be well (it is easier than getting well)

peace

gene

CFS 14 July Ayurvedic

2009-07-14T10:04:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, the finances are restrictive. However, I am under budget for the first time in a long time. Actually have little choice in that matter as the savings are running out.

Found a book at the library last week about Ayurvedic Health. Been very interesting reading it. I already knew from other sources that I was Vata. There are three 'Doshas' Vata, Pitta, Kapha. Vata doesn't like winter cold weather. Pitta and Kapha don't like the heat of summer.

I see these people walking around this winter still in a T-shirt and I am bundled up with many layers and gloves too.

I am carefully trying different avenues to get my health stable and up too possibly. Number one is to pay attention to what the body wants and give in to it without a fight.

My Guides gave me a message about 6 weeks ago maybe even 8 weeks ago to learn to sit comfortable with who I am as I am without trying to improve my health, wealth, finances anything. Learn to just be me as I am NOW. It was quite difficult to allow my self to not struggle to get ahead. And most of my friends couldn't understand attempting to do nothing. I can tell you that to truly do nothing is hard work. To truly sit with the feelings of the body and listen closely and to pay attention and then to actually DO little or nothing.

I went through many iterations of doing less. And truly thought that I was doing the nothing as requested, comfortably. NOT. I nearly collapsed a couple of times when I really thought that I had plenty of energy. Where I thought that I would do what I was doing and get low on energy, and that I was sitting at 50% in the tank I was already at 5%. I have now applied for an Ambulance Insurance Policy just in case I collapse somewhere and need the rescue of my situation. Like if I collapse in Coles shopping for groceries, the people would automatically call an ambulance. They are expensive running about $500 per trip. That would wipe me out financially completely. It is money well spent as far as I can tell now. As insurance I hope that I never need it.

The study of the Ayurvedic has me changing my diet and/or reinforcing the changes that I had already made from my own understanding of what was working for me and what was not. Like now I eat 4-5 times per day small meals. I am not digesting food really well and there is little hydracloric acid in my gut or so it seems. I am doing two different things to increase the acid but they seem slow to react and I don't always remember to do them either.

One big improvement has been to add CoQ10 to my diet. I am only taking one tablet per day (all that I can afford for now) but it seems to help my energy levels a lot.

I had a pretty good week going last week until the neighbor decided to start a party at 12 midnight. His loud talking to his friends out side his door....beside my door woke me. Then more friends showed up about 20 minutes later. Then he decided to nail something into the concrete walls at 01:00. Then everyone left loudly at 01:30. After all those wakeups I couldn't get back to sleep until after 02:00.

I have started a Vata balancing tea: Cardemon, Cinnamon, Ginger, and Licorice. The licorice taste comes through the strongest for now. Also, I found some sesame oil that is supposed to be the bee's knees for the Vata in winter. After my nightly shower to heat the body (suggested for Vata in winter) I massage in liberal amount of the sesame.

the last two nights have been very cold here < 3 c. So, the showers and oil massage have helped me have a great night of sleep. Also, I am to put the warm oil on the bottom of my feet prior to putting on my socks to go to bed.

Today is the last day of sunshine for another week. I have been getting out in the sunshine at the beach every day for the last 4 and plan on doing so again today.

Overall this week and last I would say that my energy has been stable. Trouble is in defining stable. If as a healthy person one thinks of themselves as tired and could put a percentage to it....it might be like running at 75% or so. I mean for a healthy person from 100% to 75% is huge. I am way down the ladder. When I have been really weak I feel more like .001%. And fortunately I double in energy nearly every day. So, .001 becomes .002, .004, .008, .016, etc. Well after two pretty good weeks, I am feeling safely around 1-2% of what I used to feel like.

I feel that I might be stable just now. But, as you can see, if you are only at 1-2% it doesn't take much to floor you or me. It also leads to great care in paying attention to all the needs of the body. Water, Tea, food, Sleep, rest, slow slow walks, sunshine etc.

I know that I created this challenge and I know that I am learning a lot from it. And I will have energy again one day.

peace to all of you

Oh, I have one thing to add. Be aware of your energy. When you are tried, rest, cut back, say NO, sleep, eat good for you foods.

peace

gene

CFS 6 July

2009-07-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Had a good nights sleep. very important for this episode of my life. Got into my regular routine of Protein, Vit C, and Glycogen drink. Back to bed for a couple more hours then up ready to head to the Beach. SUNNY day here for the first time in about a week. No wind, AWESOME.

I spent 2.5 hours there. Did 3 short walks testing my energy. And/or I know that I have to do some exercise every day or I will loose dramatically even faster than I have been.

Back to Freo, parked the car near the bus stop so I wouldn't have to walk up the hill home after going for Vits. I learned a valuable lesson. I parked the car, then got to worrying that the bus would come and I wouldn't catch it. I started stressing, hurrying to much to get across the street to catch the bus. As it was I had a longish wait but still better than doing another long walk and getting more exhausted. While I waited, I noticed that my energy was not good at all. Really bad actually. Nearly as bad as on Friday when I collapsed on the way home. I tried in my mind to sort out why? Because at the beach I was doing really really great. Then it hit me. The URGENCY at the car to get to the bus stop. STRESSED out for nothing really. But stressing none the less. I am so fragile that the situation is really scary for me now.

I very patiently waited for the bus. When it came it was full and I couldn't sit down till only about 300 meters left to go. I sorted my way through the markets that were packed as carefully as I could. My destination was a discount chemist with great products sold by Natropaths. I shop here fairly regularly and they have a 20% discount on every product bought and a 50% after buying 10 products. I was after CoQ10 and Mg. My guidance was saying to up the quality of the Mg and to get some of the CoQ10. The lady that helped me, Jackie was well versed on her products and helped me get the best price for the best product for me. I got much smaller quantity of Mg than normal, but Guidance says that it is the best product for me so, hopefully I can afford it for a while.

that is one problem that I am noticing about CFS. Or two sides of one problem. Or? No energy, means little or no work which means no money. Unless you get a bit from the Government as I do. then the products are quite expensive that are needed to revitalize the CFS sufferer to health. Catch-22.

On the way home I uncapped the CoQ10 and had one.

This evening around 8ish, I was noticing that I have more energy than I would normally have at this time of day. The only difference in the routine is the CoQ10. Hopefully it will have a similar affect tomorrow. Jackie suggested taking it late morning to have energy later as it takes about 3 hours to take affect. hhhhhmmmmmmmm.

After 22:00 now, time for bed shortly.

peace

gene

cfs 4 July 09a

2009-07-04T16:20:00.002+08:00

4 7 09 b

I am in trouble. 16:08. I have just walked down to town to get some glycogen for my breakfast. I ran out yesterday and forgot to replace it.

This morning I did a piece of toast and two hardboiled eggs. Thought that would do it. Then only nibbled through the day after a cuppa coffee with George this morn at 7. Had a quantity of 85% dark choc lindt. Broken up hard to determine how much, but probably a hand full. And a banana. After watching a movie I walked into town. Just missed the bus.

Did OK, going in. Found a short cut that saved me probably 200 meters and found another on my return probably saved me another 200. But 400 meters from home, I was staggering exhausted. Body all shaky and minus energy. My internal resources were seeking energy from everywhere within. I walked across the John Curtain Playing field. Sun felt good and at the far end laid down in the sun. There was cloud cover but a good portion of sun with no wind felt really nice. I must have slept for over an hour. When I woke, the sky was clear and it was 15:45. I considered going to the beach, but knew that I would not have much time to make what little sun was left. I got up after a bit and found that I was just as exhausted now as I was when I laid down. That surprised me. I had figured that I would recover some in the Sun. NOT. I really had difficulty getting across the short fence and up the slope to cross the road and get home. This is getting scary now. If I were to drop out there, I would have had to stay there all night and in my present condition probably would not have made it.

I can call emergency and get an ambulance, but that is VERY costly. I have heard that you can make a donation and get ambo service. Need to check that out.

I came home and did a glyco drink and hope to see some energy in a bit.

I realized while I was laying out on the grass that every time I have had a blow to my energy over the last 2-3 months I have not ever recovered to what I was energetically prior to the blow. I get to feeling better after, but not stronger. Always always lower. So, as I have mentioned before, I have not bottomed out. And if I have not bottomed out then just what is the bottom and how long will I need to be there and what will it take to not bottom out and maintain what little I have?

Oh, Lord help me please. Guide me to at least a maintenance level.

Peace

gene

CFS 4 July 09

2009-07-04T08:09:00.000+08:00

4 7 9

Happy 4 July, yehah. I am flat as a pancake this morning. Up early to be with friend George for a cuppa. My alarm went off at 6, I forgot and got up at 6:30. I am out of my regular breaky of glycogen, vit c and protein powder. Did a couple of hard boiled eggs instead.

Drove the 1.5 k to the coffee shop. Realized when I walked to the car that the body felt like it was on serious empty. Very shaky inside. Worse yet when I walked the 100 meters to the coffee shop.

Had a cuppa and not much conversation as we both read our newspapers comparing interesting stories. George got cold early and needed to leave at about 1/2 hour. Normally we go an hour or more. I ought to have reciprocated with a cuppa but didn’t’ as the one that I had had made me feel very off. I was not sure that when I went to stand that I could without falling over.

I was sad that George needed to leave so soon. I was sad that I didn’t feel well enough neither financially nor physically to buy another round of drinks. And I felt elated that I could stand and make my way to the car and home without falling over.

I had a realization last night as I laid down to sleep. I started dreaming before sleep of walking into some shop that needed help and going for the position. Then I visualized what it would be. On one level I didn’t care as long as I had some more income. Sweeping floors, washing tables, windows dishes etc would be fine. Then I had my realization. It was the fact that I just don’t want to work at all. Especially for a time for now. Especially hard labour work. I would prefer to be on nearly sustenance wages and get along with what I have then to be working for a good wage. I am more exhausted than I thought. The body is exhausted but somehow also the minds idea of wanting more for living is not wanting to come up with the energy to do……anything.

I set up my budget last week so that I can do well with the wage that I do get from the Govt. I have all my expenses for the month come out bi-weekly just as I am paid. So, my elec, phone, computer connections are all going to be paid or mostly paid by the end of the month when the bills come due. What is left over from each pay check is mine for food, vitamins and unexpected expenses. Like RAC that is looming due now. And my razor blade for my elec shaver needing to be replaced for $40. with care I will be well able to live with this income. It is close and I will need to be very careful for a very long time to rebuild my coffers, it is doable though.

And, somehow I feel that making this doable is part of my journey for now. I have been asked to join in with Moira and live out bush on her property and help manifest its creation. My concern is that if I did that now, that I wouldn’t have much to bring except major exhaustion. And that if I came now, that I might attempt to do what I have done in the past and that would be to “rise” to the occasion and run on extreme empty to fit in at others expectations of my abilities. That has got to stop. I have to do what I do for me and not to get the acceptance of others.

I still feel/see how I reach out to others to make me feel strong, loved, wanted, even just to be.

This new me needs to find its own strength and become just what I am already and nothing more. Sharing is good, but it / me needs to come to the party with what I have to bring, not what I can conjure up as energy to run the body on where I am borrowing the energy and actually feeling almost like a thief to stealing the energy to do what needs to be done. The energy needs to come from allowing Chi in, food energy to develop wellness and life force created from within rather than a feeling of, “please help me do this”, victim weakness.

The body this morning is shaky, tired, scared of what might yet be in front of me. Will I be able to stabilize at this level of energy weakness? Or will I continue to get weaker even as I think that I am getting a handle on the situation? Unfortunately, I can envision a weaker me. I would not like it. I can survive at this level of finances, not at a situation where I need to pay for more support. That is scarier than where I am just now.

Enough.

Peace

gene

Tired two

2009-06-27T18:28:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Just flipping through my bookmarks and ended up over here.

another slow day in the life of Gene. Just not used to this way of living. Been a work too hard too long doer for well, too long, ha ha ha.

Living the life of ease and joy. Have a home, have a support payment that just might be enough, nothing to do, how can it get better than that. Wow, what a list I could make of that one.

I didn't and I doubt that anyone else does either when they think about ideas like, "wow if I had some income and a home and nothing to do like that would be just great." Unhuh, until it happens. Then I learned that with nothing to do there is little reason to get up in the morning. Or to go to bed at night. Or to shower, or shave or to do anything. It literally takes away the reason to live. What am I living for? Another breath? gotta be more to supported life than that.

I am working on creating some sort of structure of activities in my daily life. However, with little income and zero energy that is difficult. I am more in the moment living my life than ever. Especially for the energy that isn't around. I am very careful and wary of any hugs, handshakes, walking from point a to point b, the weather and the amount of energy keeping warm will take. Even conversation while I am standing can take a load of my ability to get home safely.

The other day I was grocery shopping. All of a sudden I knew I had to sit or else I was going to the floor. Luckily there was a stool that short people use to reach the top shelves. I sat on it for 30 minutes to stabilize my energy before moving on. it is a feeling similar to running out of glycogen when cycling or running. Nearly hitting the wall. Trouble is that even eating some quick energy bar still takes just a bit of energy to digest. And a bigger less "quick" meal can be really devastating.

If anyone reading this has had CFS or been a carer for someone and knows of a few tricks to help survive I would love to hear from you. I am learning a few. Like always travel anywhere every time with quick energy food. And to eat often. the Insulin system in me is considered to be OK. But, it still uses energy to create more energy as I mentioned.

Well, I pray that all of you are in good energy and may be well.

peace

gene

CFS, more tired, Exhausted and a swollen eye

2009-06-26T23:04:00.000+08:00

Hello all of you all,

Well, what a day. Lost two icons of celebrity status. Michael Jackson, and Farah Fawcett. May they be well where ever they are.

On to living life. Some of you know that I have had an interesting eye swelling problem since the morning of 31 May. By Tuesday with incredible pain I presented my body to the Emergency Dept here in Fremantle WA.

The eye itself proved to be very healthy. The swelling......well......no one knew for sure what was going on. They suggested pain medication and turned me loose. I was back on Thursday with even more pain and the eye fully swollen shut. Well, yesterday, 25 June, I returned to the Ophthalmologist at Fremantle Hospital. This was a different Doctor that the two previous times. He wanted an immediate Cat Scan which was accomplished within the hour. He then wanted me to return today, Friday to review the CT and be inspected by a senior Doctor.

Below is the CT explained by a professional Doctor.

Findings:

Internal fixation is demonstrated at the antero-inferior right orbital margin and further wire overlaying the right frontal bone superiorly at the site of previous internal fixation. A little post-surgical deformity persists to the antero-inferior right orbital margin. The right frontal sinus is opaque, large with sclerotic marginal remodeling, except at its antero-inferior aspect where it bulgesinto the superior aspect of the right eye. Here it abuts the globe and superior rectus. There is some sclerotic deformity to the superior nasal bone. A single focus of left anterior ethmoid air cell opacification is shown but the remaining paranasal sinuses are patent.

Now I am sure that everyone knows exactly what happened right?..... OK, the area in the inner side of my right eye there is a sinus. Basically all sinus have a way in and a way out for fluids. My way out apparently is blocked. What ever the pump is that was pushing in pushed hard enough to push previously broken bone bits (my face was crushed about 30 years ago) out of where they have been resting since the accident....on top of my eye. If anyone looks at my face, my right eye orbit area looks swollen. Also, if I hold my head level, the right eye is being depressed from above. Currently the eye is healthy. The doctors are not overly concerned at this time. Hoping that the swelling will go away. They were pushing for a repeat CT in 6 months. I got a strong push from my guides to request one at 3 months. That is where we left it for now. there will be a CT in 3 months.

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On another note. I saw my hormone specialist doctor this week also. I have been very tired for the last 3-8 months. I was hoping for something not so right in the blood profile. However, my iron levels are OK, thyroid is OK, Liver is OK, Electrolytes are OK, B12 is OK, I am healthy. that means then that I have Chronic Fatigue.

There is stuff that I can do to help my body recover a bit faster like taking some super vitamins and supplements etc. Unfortunately, they are expensive and my finances are on a diet. A strict, severe diet, ha ha ha. So, for now, I have to monitor my activity very very carefully. There are days where I actually have a bit of energy and I am able to easily do shopping etc. There are other days that the same activity completely exhausts me.

I am budgeting carefully and I am taking some vitamins and supplements. One, Acai Berry has kept me from having any colds or flu for over a year now. At a tsp a day, it is good money well spent. The ones that I really need......well, I am putting in for a Lotto win or help from friends.

I have my bike on a trainer stand and am able to ride it for about 20 minutes 2-3 times per week. At least one of you receiving this email I know has had CFS and recovered to race very well again. Any suggestions that worked for any of you that have had CFS I would appreciate hearing.

On a Spiritual Note.....I accept that I created this situation to learn many lessons from it. Now I have it. I am learning. And I will get beyond it and be healthy again to one day ride all the way around Australia on a bicycle.

Thank you all for putting up with my letters. I would love to hear from any and all of you please.

Also, if anyone here in Australia has a way to purchase vitamins and/or supplements at cost and would be willing to allow me to purchase through them I would appreciate it.

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

CFS, Exhausted, wasted, pooped

2009-06-22T13:29:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Have not written over here in a very long time. I will not say that I have not been depressed. I won't say that I have been either. let's just say that it comes and it goes and I get confidence that it will continue to do so because it always does, ha ha ha.

Had a Trip to Cervantes with friends. It was great. Had a swollen shut eye during the time and still do have.

This past weekend including Friday I have been so exhausted that the closest that I can give you and idea of would be the feeling that you have the first day after a major round of the Flu where you get up and go for a walk of a 100 meters and realize that you are getting better but you are also still exhausted. It has been difficult to lift my arms at times. I continue to move a bit just to keep the juices flowing, however, there just isn't much energy around.

Have gotten my blood work back. Iron is up by a point. Didn't get the B12 checked but have been doing self injectable B12 for a month so I am sure that it is up. Salt is up as is the Blood pressure. Still pooped.

Have a doctor apt soon. Hope that we can learn something of value and that I can afford what it takes to help

Keep you all posted.

You are always welcome to email me.

peace

gene

coming to grips

2009-05-14T17:37:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, when push comes to shove and there isn't any more denying the facts....what is next. Acceptance? I feel that I am betraying my belief system. Believing that I create my own reality....they why create exhaustion? To get a rest? I thought that I was sluffing through life as it was. Now I need more sleep, rest, vitamins, support, help?

I have known a few people with CFS. They always look so healthy....when you see them. Trouble is of course that you don't see them often nor for very long. and I never really could fathom the idea of not having enough energy to lift a fork of food to your mouth....unless with the flu. No flu, no diarhea, no vomiting, just no energy.

And I am not talking about just body energy. The mind needs a fair bit of that energy too. The thinking is slim. The typing the pits. I rode my bike into Freo today. It is mostly all downhill. 1.5 k. Was exhausted by the time I got there. Even the mental aspect of thought to control balance, watch cars, dodge pedestrians, get to where I was going and remember why I was going there is too much.

I attempted to meditate today. Kept falling asleep and this is just 2 hours after getting up.

Its a slippery slope folks. My message....pay attention to your health while you got it and don't use all your energy all the time. Cause when you really really get depleted it takes a really really long time to replenish.

be well

peace

gene

catch up

2009-05-11T14:38:00.002+08:00

Hello all,

Just a brief catch up on information of life. (me brief???)

Really not many changes. Just had the full moon up at Moira's home with 13 energy centres available to help one and all shift with the rapidly changing energies of life at this time. It was perhaps the most restful time that I have had in months. I had no agenda, no idea of what to do, let the mind go, and sat in a lot of nothingness once again.

I did come away knowing that I need to sit in comfort with my current energies for a time. In comfort means without striving to change the situation as I have been doing. ie trying to find a way to get my energy back....so that I can get a job....so that I have more income to live life better....so that....I might have the energy to find a partner, so that......and the list goes on and on and on.

I need to just sit here still quiet no agenda and let life be.

So, that is my goal for the next week to a month. This is a real challenge to me as I am the utmost of the doer. With no energy and no place to escape I would crawl to keep going, ha ha ha

May you all be well and happy where ever you are.

peace

gene

see it was short

life's entertaining

2009-05-03T12:06:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, I looked back a couple of Blogs to see what I have talked about lately. So, I guess I am on page 2 of the next book, ha ha ha. Well, it doesn't seem like much has happened since early April.

I am somewhat more settled in at my new digs. I have a few walls up to separate the space into segments that allow me a differentiation of room space. Then I added a 4x8 sheet of found plywood to the head of my bed and separated out an office area from the bedroom. Doesn't take much to sort out that energy from one area to another.

Just yesterday and today I have a new neighbor moving in. Fellow about mid 40's looks to have been around through some of the rougher times of life. Lots of self done tatoos etc. I don't mind a well paid for designed set of body tatoos, but the people that get the cheap ones and do them themselves hmmmmmm are a bit of the tougher society that I am not comfortable with.

Well, by coming to homes west I have certainly moved in with that crowd. So, time will play out what will happen. I am continuing to bless these wonderful surroundings as much better than being in a tent in the bush. Every night I go to sleep and every morning I wake, thank you thank you thank you. When the music is TOO LOUD I call the police. The cussing has not been too bad though some others complain more about that. I figure I could have been bush and still have the cussing so am much better off here.

Energetically with my health issues, I was starting to feel some better earlier last week. Just a modicum of a shift that I could notice. I worked carefully with George last weekend painting and doing volunteer work. rode around the river with him on Tuesday. had a doctor appointment on Thursday hoping for a Declaration of Medical needs....she wouldn't do it as she was not the one that had requested the blood work reports. Now I need to wait until I see Dr. Craig Turner for that. I have plenty of time, but sooner the better. There is a slight chance that I can get some supplemental support if I get the Dec Med completed.

There seems to be almost no jobs around....and if there were I still don't have the energy to do anything about them. I have volunteered at the Leeuwin for 2 days all up about 7 hours. Friday I came home and intended to go to the Buddhist Society for meditation and talk. By the time that I changed clothes/showered/ate, I was exhausted and have been ever since. I did ride some on Saturday (45 minutes) and worked at the Leeuwin, but have had a relapse of energy now and am flattened energetically.

The conversations with the new bloke outside make this place feel like I am living in a dorm with loud neighbors. Every one talks as if they are deaf. Hopefully it will all quieten down soon as they settle in. Upstairs Bev was asked by the new fella if the neighborhood was quiet...that is a good question for sure.

My astrology from Sudhir is my mantra I think for a few weeks:

It is nearly driving you nuts to have to hold your energy in check. You would love to bolt from the starting blocks minus any more lessons in preparedness. That which is holding you back is doing so for a reason.

Yep, I know that. When I was driving over to visit a new friend yesterday, I was so exhausted that I was falling asleep at the wheel at the lights. Luckily there was a lot of lights as I went through Subiaco. By the time I arrived I was still mostly dead, but could mostly hold a conversation.

Well, really not a lot to report today other than the drivel mentioned above. Wish all of you great health and happiness.

peace

gene

Shifting times shifting shit

2009-04-23T19:13:00.002+08:00

Wella wella wella, what interesting times that we all are living in.

Hello Everyone. Hope that life is not leading you by the balls (if you got 'em that is). The true hope is that you are not so caught up in the world's energy excitement and are able to sit back just a bit and observe everyone else going crazy.

Obviously this statement means that I would not be expecting the crazies to be reading this, ha ha ha. Or if you are caught up in the craziness, then the urge is that you step back and think about the idea that just because the world is crazy doesn't mean that you need to be crazy.

In the last 12 months I have managed to step on the toes of just about everyone that I know and alienate the relationship that I had with that person. The few remaining friends and I seem to operate at a different wave length than the rest of humanity. Please do not get from this that I think that I am better, or worse or anything but just plain old different. I have managed to almost always in this life time walk to the tune of a different drummer. It makes for a sometimes lonely time. But, since I created that loneliness, I do not complain (accept maybe to Spirit about "Why did I do this???" ha ha ha) to the people remaining around me as they are much the same.

So, what has caused this tirade of information about being different? I went to Oneness Blessing last week that is run by an old friend. We have had major problems for over a year and have patched broken and repatched many times. I was not going to give Oneness. I didn't know but she had decided at some point to charge Oneness Blessing Givers that didn't give...$20 to attend. I decided that I would leave. One of the other givers suggested that I ask her before doing so. She let me stay. I thanked her as I left and txted her later. No reply to the txt. (this story is not why I am writing this)

Tonight I went to another Giver's night. I arrived way too early. As I walk in I get a lecture about new rules to be applied to attendees. NO passing of wind, burping, talking about other than her stuff, dress code, etc etc etc. I left. What ever happened to Oneness? We are supposed to have gone through this training to help us all move to Oneness? Where has it gone? And both of these two have had what is called "deepening" sessions and are "improved" over us mere mortals that have only had the first level of training.

Something got lost in the translation me thinks.

Today earlier I was at Bullsbrook the place that I have been going to and getting peaceful mind blowing results of growth and learning. We were talking about how there are so many people setting themselves up as GURU's and that we felt that this was happening out of fear. And my feeling is that they are doing this because they are afraid of the losing income scenario that is playing out in the world. So, they are clutching supporting people to their own beliefs.

I also figured out that here in my homes west home, I am hiding from that weird and busy world that almost all else are caught up in. And that it has come about to save my own sanity and to show separation from the craziness that is abounding around me. I can sit here and observe that which is happening without getting caught up in the agendas of others. It is good.

Well, even writing this is tiring me and tomorrow I have a fairly busy day.

peace to all

May you be able to find your own sanity in these times.

Give me a call. I am always willing to listen.

peace

gene

book one closes

2009-04-13T19:37:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

I left the Buddhist Monastery at Serpentine on Friday arvo a day earlier than planned. It was a day of ceremony for the new Jhana Grove Meditation and retreat centre. Too many people for me.

As I was driving away I had a very clear knowing feeling that I was driving into a whole new way of life. Like reading a large book and you turn the page expecting the chapter to continue only to find the title, "BOOK 2".

There are so many ideas of directions of this new life in front of me that I cannot even find the words to write them. One big aspect of the new that I notice in opposition of what the old held.....I have a home that is mine thanks to the Australian Government Homes West program. I have been here near 10 years thinking all along that I would get ahead and on top of the program at some point. There have been many times I felt on top of the wave and in control only to get blown away again and again and again.

So, this port of a home is a solid basis to work from. It is not a bus and I have to admit I almost wish that it was due to the nostalgia of the last one, but it is a feeling of roots that I have not had since arriving here in OZ.

My health.....well, to look at me I am a picture of health. I am still as tall as I was when I hit 6'5" at 20 years of age. My weight is only 4 kilo heavier. Underlying that though I am no longer fit, nor what I would call healthy. I have some sort of a digestive disorder probably attributed mostly or greatly due to the Golden Staph cure of Vancomyacin in 1997. Vanco is the strongest antibiotic that is currently in wide use. It kills the super bug MRSA (golden staph). It also kills all the good bacteria in the gut. I have been weak ever since. And have never been able to be of strong physical health since. I did OK many times always to get knocked back at some point with some other bug.

I am working with Robert Beson of www.progurt.com.au who is the creator of a human strain bacteria for yoghurt. He is a fountain of knowledge of human health and has many years experience thinking out of the box. I got started on his product about 4 weeks ago with great expectations. Great expectations and no results. I called often for more instructions. Finally I got some blood work. LOW: Iron, B12, Vit D, Salt. It was a wonder that I am functioning as well as I have been. Low salt prevents the retention of water. Low B12 means that the hydracloric acid in the gut is insuficient to digest the food. Low Vit d and iron mean tired. All together.....pht.

Knowing what is wrong means I have a starting place to get the body back in shape again properly. A work in progress.

Spiritually, I know that as long as I don't think about not having employment, I do OK. I am on the Govt. dole. it is not enough to cover my expenses and I need influx of income asap. I have a few ideas and will work on them starting tomorrow. I have meetings later in the week with Centre Link to get their ideas too. There is a government program where they will send me to school for 3 months to learn how to operate a small business. Then I submit an idea and they will support me for a year more. I have an idea and we will see. I need to make at least $25,000 this physical year for tax purposes and that needs to be done between now and June 30.

I am excited about the possiblities of my future. I will as always keep all of you informed from this space.

Best wishes to all of you.

peace

gene

more on the move again

2009-03-19T07:58:00.000+08:00

18A 3 09

Hello All Friends, rellies, acquaintances and those that I have not caught up with for too long.

I am off to the monastery in Serpentine tomorrow for 2 weeks. For those local and so inclined I welcome you to come down for a visit.

From the City of Perth take the freeway south to Mundijong road. Take Mundijong East toward the Scarp. At the T turn left (south) on Southwest Hwy. About 10 kilometers is a turn off to the right on Kingsbury Dr. Just after the top of the hill is the entrance to Bodhiyana Monastery.

Please arrive close to 10 am. Dana (food offering to the monks) starts at 10:30. Please txt me an sms prior to your decision to come so I will be around to receive you. It is OK if you do not however as there are plenty of people around to guide you as to what to do.

Many of you knew of my housing situation and how it has dried up due to many factors. After the stay at the Monastery I was off to living in my car for a while as there just isn’t enough funds to pay for a place even to share for any length of time. Yes, all yea Spiritual people, I did create this. I will not go into why now.

I checked in with Homes West last Thursday. I was placed into a interview that took place 2 hours ago. They have offered me a place that they use for emergency over 55’s. I will need to stay in this place for at least 18 months before being able to trade to another location if I decide.

I will be living at 6/4 Vale St. Fremantle, 6160 It is a place where eating area, bedroom, living room are all one area with offset for kitchen and toilet/bath. It is simple. It is cheap ($60 / week) I accept. Thank you universe.

Also, the lady that I was caring for is moving to a furnished apt. I will be getting her ancient refrigerator, a table/chairs, possibly a couch, and an old cabinet/pie safe thingy. This all helps her and helps me too.

Now, most importantly are my feelings of all these changes, changes, changes, changes. First off, I know that these multitude of changes are just the tip of the iceberg and there will me a multitude of them this year.

In one of my emails/blogs last year I mentioned about feeling like a walk in to my own body. That feeling is even more so now that I have decided to keep on living in this body. I feel much like a clean slate, waiting to be written upon. I once was a massage therapist, healer, yank, labourer, carer, etc etc. Now, I am just this magnificent ME. I am GOD, Arch Angel, Ascendant Master, created by birth living this life NOW.

I am a bit stunned at getting the pad from Homes West, shocked even, elated too. I am feeling such a tumble of emotions, ideas, judgemental attitudes, ideas, thoughts, possibilities, directions that I am just spinning in all that.

I wish all of you peace and grace in these interesting times.

Peace

gene

life continues on

2009-03-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

15 March 09

In recent times it has begun to amaze me what a week of time or in this case 10 days of time does to ones life.

I left Gavin’s on Friday 6 march. Came back to Sara’s. Got many boxes and packed up this place. I am not to touch Sara’s clothes as many will go to the Salvo’s, nor Esther’s room nor the computer room of art stuff. It is 99.9% done.

Sara is still in the hospital with little progress. They keep getting her on stronger drugs the latest being Morphine.

For me my energy is all over the shop…..again. For the past week I have felt good, BUT, have zero energy. I get all dressed up to go for a bike ride and once on the seat can barely turn the pedals over.

This morning I rode out to meet friend George at the usual place. I did have to ride into a serious head wind, but the wind didn’t make the lack of energy. After we got to the local coffee shop and after two soy hot chocolates, I was almost too tired to ride home, uphill and into the wind. I did make it and did get undressed before sleeping for 4 hours. Then I was off to a conscious living festival that many people had encouraged me to attend. I felt that this was Spirit’s way of informing me that I had to meet someone. I went, saw many old friends, no one new that I will find again and came away after a Casiel More drumming. Next was a Culture Festival in Hyde Park as there was little else for me to do in life. I walked around for a bit, watched some Brazilians doing Samba music and their folk kungfu dance routines. Then headed for home. Once here I did manage to walk across the street to look for some figs….then returned and attempted to meditate. I feel asleep. I made it to bed without undressing for near 3 hours sleep. Then up and stirred for a bit and of course now I cannot sleep, ha ha ha.

So, that is a good excuse to write some catch up blog and notes.

I go for a healing with Nilanthi in Chidlow on Tuesday. We agreed to the time on Thursday I think. During the conversation I started to yawn. I feel that a big part of the exhaustion now is more healing that I am getting from Nilanthi’s connections. Prior to that I had a healing from a friend of Richard Yiap doing Holographic Kenitics. It was supposed to do the super clean out of blockages for getting income flowing, stiff neck fixed, more energy, and anger. He chose the anger one.

Well, the results for nearly one week on. No more income showing up. Neck is still quite sore, and you already read about the lack of energy. Anger has not been an issue with me for months. Cost $150. However, during the healing, I did feel and energetic body of mine lifting free and dispersing. It was like an energetic imprint of my body that was acting as a filter going away from me. Have yet to see what the results of that are to be.

My meditations have been getting …………..hmmmmm. Stronger isn’t the correct word, nor is deeper, nor more sublime, nor more blissfull. What would sum it up. I am taking ORMUS just prior to doing my meditations. It seems to help me focus more completely and faster. So, the answer for above would be that there seems to be more focus in the meditations. Focus toward singularity. Little side talk/chatter going on. It still is but the sensation is more like white noise would be to the ears.

Speaking of white noise to the ears. I noticed the other night while walking through the house that when I looked down the hall way toward the back door seeing the moon light showing through that if I looked directly at it ………it was dim. However, if I looked to one side, I could see it more clearly. Now I have been complaining that my vision has something going on with it for over 3-4 years to the different eye docs when getting glasses. Of course this bunch isn’t real eye doctors but dispensing doctors. It seemed the other night that the difference was only the right eye which has been the one that has not been obeying the rules of sight, ha ha ha.

I mentioned the phenomena to Robert of www.progurt.com.au He mentioned that it is macular degeneration and that all I need to do is to have the side of the neck opposite to the problem massaged DEEPLY and it will clear up over a bit of time. I mentioned back to him that the left side of my neck has been giving me fits for 6 months to a year.

I have gotten into the wire less world of communication now. I am with 3 network for my time in the city. When I go bush I will use Telstra. I have not yet bought that modem but will probably this week.

So, in summary, the body is fluctuating once more. I am here at Sara’s for 3 more days. Then I go to the Buddhist Monastery for 2 weeks. After that I do not currently know where I will be living as everything seems to have fallen apart. I have mentioned the need to Spirit and they have possibly found a solution. I am to have an interview with Homes West on Wednesday to see if I can get emergency shelter. Not sure what that will be for now, but am open to see as 1 April would see me living out of my car which I have been creating toward that possibility. I do have my thermarest, cooking, sleeping bag, stove all ready. Just recently realized that I packed all my pans and utensils though.

Best wishes to all

Peace

gene

healing

2009-03-11T09:11:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Had an interesting day yesterday. Received a healing called Holigraphic Kenitics (spelling?) Goes in and sorts out the start of the programming that creates some of the not so pleasant current way of life stuff.

Like my ability to be financially solvent. Comes from several sources of this life time activities and attitudes with my parents. Also, some from previous lives.

I have been having a more stiff neck situation for about 6-10 months. That was possibly started from the many falls off of the horses, off of bicycles, motorcycles, out of trees, off the top of a semi-trailer, out of a hay mow and probably running my head into a lot of stuff through the ages. Healer person says that it is an attitude of needing to be accident prone (or some such....he talked so fast I had difficulty understanding him). This went back to early youth where I sort of got some aspects of life upside down and though I knew I needed to care for myself as my parents didn't seem to care, set myself up for major OUCH just to test the potential of support....never did come, ha ha ha.

Another area was anger, impotent fury, major frustration....again mostly youth mis-guided thoughts.

Another area worked on was the lack of energy that I have always had. The healer attempted to find a pattern of events and could not so just went into the psychi of the Spirit that I am and worked there.

my opinion: Well, I don't think I was his best client. I was not argumentative with him, but just didn't seem to be able to answer his questions in the way that he seemed to expect. Often I could not understand that he was talking to some aspect of me and wanting an answer. Did I drift off? Often he wanted "what is the first thing to come to your mind.....", nothing, blank, purple vision with some green swirling around. This didn't seem to please him, he was wanting, towns, buildings, things...all I got was this swirl.

Still, at one point I felt an energy hmmmmm how to describe...... If as I visualize that which is my body as layers of energy....ok, sort of like an onion....but not so singularily defined. So, yes layers but not that you have to peel the outer to get to say the third layer in... OK? So, as energy the layers can shift out of sequence into other sequences without disturbing the outer layers....got it? So, I felt this energy that felt like it might be a full on copy of my entire body, lift out of my body and disperse away from me. Like a filter being removed from the existence of my beingness. I do not remember which of the four areas being worked upon when this energy filter left me.... any would help. Also, I suspect that this happened each time of the four areas that he worked with. It was just that this one was the most significant in its strength of feeling upon my space and time at that time.

Results:

Well, this morning I am pretty much same as yesterday. Not much energy, no real direction yet, still with senseless fears about just stuff. I did attempt to get my sleepy butt out of bed earlier.....then had a strong message from Spirit to go back to bed. I willingly obliged. Up at my regular time of 7:30am.

I sure hope that something comes out of this healing as I feel that I am suffering from sitting squeezed by duality ideas. Want to work/don't want to work. Want to be cared for/want freedom. and others that I cannot formulate at this writing.

Well, today is Wed Lotto day with friends to see if we can energize results in our favor. Tell you more tomorrow or later.

peace

gene

holdin on

2009-03-09T19:50:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Well, life does have its twists and turns. I realized the other day that I may have been a bit psychotic in that I had this realization that I thought that life would calm down at some point in time, ha ha ha. YEHAH! Maybe the real realization is that my life is mostly chaos and I ought to just get used to it.

Trouble is the being Libran expects some quiet time to stabilize a bit before the next onslaught.

I have had many insights about life and the choices that I made many years ago. 1st choice was to not work at one place but to travel and see and do. 2nd choice which may have been Kharma was to not have kids. And I guess a 3rd choice was that the wife I was with and unhappy with could be improved upon. Always looking.

So, some of the realizations are that for a person that is 60 plus having grandkids keeps them busy and looking for things to do with the kids, keeps 'em active. having a partner to share with is good, really really good. And having traveled and spent my income as it came in, not that there was ever very much of it, leaves me now needing to keep on keepin' on whether I want to or not.

Also, I who makes friends everywhere I go seem to be short a few now when I am in crunch time. The ones that I do have.....have kids or a partner and are busy much of the time, ha ha ha. There are a few that don't. I attempt not to burden them to heavily by calling them too often. I value any and all time that I can get with any friend that I have.

I may be onto a place to stay this winter for 6 months as the people are friends and heading off to NZ for skiing this winter.

I was living at a friends home in north Perth. Friday past he left a note saying that he was expecting $150 rent / week. I left a note saying that if I had known he wanted rent I would not have come. I have since returned to the house that I was at with Sara the lady needing caring. She is in the Hospital yet. I am to box up her posessions ready for her to move to a flat in Mosman Park. Been boxing all day. Up to 55 boxes now. Plus 20 that I had done months ago to have my sleeping room.

Been HOT here today and hotter yet tomorrow. Makes for interesting sweaty boxing.

Well, all, I am feeling like I am just hanging in for what ever is next in life. Gotta be something special about my needing to be here at this place at this time for what ever is next.

Best wishes to all of you.

Thanks for meditation guidance to LKM. Thanks for support from many of the friends.

peace

gene

On the Move again, ha ha ha

2009-02-22T12:26:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

I just checked the last blog to see what was going on. WOW what 20 days can do to life. Victoria is burnt up, Queensland is second biggest floods in recorded history. Sara improved, failed, improved incredibly with learning that she doesn't have periphial neurophy.....but didn't buy into the proof of it nor the facts and has now gone on to be in a hospital so that they can find a way to subdue the pain. Did I ever mention that she has a degree in Drama. She is doing well.

Now, on to me. I knew that my time with Sara has always been iffy. While on the one hand I have had great opportunity to grow and develop what it is that I am going to be.... The other hand is not clear about that yet.

Hopefully I have blogged about my near death time and the growth up from then. And that new growth of my being has only been about 5 weeks in time. There are many aspects of this new growth. One recent one was the same as for Sara learning that she doesn't have nerve pain. What she has is severe dehydration and electrolyte imbalance. Me too. Robert Beson of www.progurt.com (02 9922 2188 Sydney AU) had Sara drink a 300 ml glass of warm water with 1 TBL of Salt and 1 TBL of honey. within 15 minutes all pain was gone completely from her body. Also, her vision improved. She was to start drinking 2 glasses a day of 2tsp and 1 honey. Her pain returned in spades and I kept telling her to drink more salt/honey. Robert told her the same to no avail.

However, the other great news is the product that Robert Sells. PROGURT. This is a human bacteria strain of yoghurt. Well, he sells the sachets to make the yoghurt not the actual yoghurt.

Almost all yoghurts on the market use animal strain of bacteria for their yoghurts. If you take yoghurt to improve your health after taking antibiotices..... all the good bacteria put in disapears within one week of stopping as it is a foreign bacteria and the human body kills it off. Not so with human strain bacteria. The body recognizes it and keeps it going. Though it does take 12-18 months of use to get it all up and going well.

It is expensive, BUT, what price do you put on your health when this product reverses, Type 2 diabetes, chronic fatigue, lupus, cancer, heart problems, nerve pain, increases energy, loose weight, skin improvement and the list goes on.

For me, I don't need to loose weight. My skin I am concerned about. And the sensation of nerve pain in my feet. My toes were pink as, and hurt like hell. Robert had me do a few simple tests to prove that it is a circulation problem not nerve damage. Seems as we age, the valves in the veins of the body that return the blood to the heart, get a little stiff and under react. So,for me I had difficulty in getting the blood to return to the heart out of my feet. This then causes the area to swell a bit and the nerves feel this and send out a big OUCH!

Initially I have started taking one sachet of progurt a day for a week to get the system up and going. I am taking this just in water (no taste) initially. Later when I get my own yoghurt making machine, I will do the yoghurt. And as I have won the Mundella yoghurt Robert says to eat both. Normally this would not be allowed, but the Mundella yoghurt is a very good product. most yoghurts are rubbish with very little probiotics in them.

OK, so that is one iron in the fire.

Since Sara is now in the hospital, and quitting the apartment, I no longer have a place to live. I knew this was coming sooner or later. Preferred later though. I am moving to friend Gavin Grieve's spare bedroom for a while. There is another fellow coming back in May expecting the room so it is temporary.

I have not lived with a bloke for ages. Gavin has been a mentor for me for a long time....yet, I am not feeling really great about this move. Time will tell.

Ity Bity and I are on the road again....

I am continuing to fix up Ity Bity my tiny car to survive in the bush. I have plans for an extra battery, battery run refrigerator, solar panel possibly, Sleeping tent out the back door and maybe more.

Work wise I am still attempting to get my Carer's allowance for back pay from 20 Dec to 20 Feb. Then I have to fess up to Centre Link that I am no longer doing this work. Then there is what am I going to do?

That is my unknown at this point in time. With my new me growth and being at Sara's I had time to develop the new me. Now I will be under crunch time with Centre Link to get a job. However, having not done much of any physical work in the last 6 months, my strength has waned. My non nerve pain feet are a problem, my neck is ..... wanting my attention frequently. There are other areas of concern.....

However, there is a strong possibility that the Progurt will reverse many of my problems. As well as the ORMUS products that I am taking. (do your own research on ORMUS) The ORMUS gets all the cells of the body communicating with each other. It is beneficial to high levels of meditations improvements that are sustainable. I feel that the ingesting of the Progurt and ORMES are all part of the New Growth of me that is taking place.

Also, the leaving from Sara, while difficult for me ...... I needed to get away from that situation as it was starting to drag me down. I do have some money on hand yet, and will have continued support from Centre Link.

There is a possibility that Centre Link can send me to school for 3 months to learn how to run a small business in Australia. I would get paid the entire time. Then I would write a review to create a new business and if approved, I would get support for 1 year with mentor's etc. Soooooo currently, that is the tentative plan.

When I sit in my nothingness meditation....it is great....and I am learning to integrate all aspects of outer Earth, Inner Earth and Middle Earth (current happenings of the world) I have been asking for guidance of direction as I see no where to go or to be at this time. Hence I will follow Centre Link's input for the time being.

The development of the world toward chaos as we approach 2012 is of interest. I feel that I am an integral part of that movement and still do not see where or how I fit in.

Also, there is a large bus on my vision board again. And a large win of the lotto to pay for it and get support to many people and ideas that I have that I don't currently have the funds for.

So, in summary, I am moving, changing, growing, nervous, bit scarred as I am uncomfortable being unattached to someone. I have no need to be attached, yet like the feel of someone out there closely caring about what I am doing. Someone to bounce ideas off of. Hmmmm, I do have 3-4 friends that I do this with often. Thanks to MR, LKM, GS, GG, ACH, RY.

Enough for now.

Love to hear from any and all of you. genemarktinshafer@gmail.com

peace

gene

YEHAH SUCCESS

2009-01-29T18:30:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, it might be momentary, BUT, Sara finally got it. She went off this arvo to a psychologist that she has been working with.

Some how, some thing said, one of the healings received today, or one of the conversations something got her around to the fact.....FACT that she creates most of her pain. The Psychologist got her to a place of no pain...then started asking her questions. Inside she felt her anger swell, "but you just don't get how much pain I am in!!!" and at the same time felt the tightness creeping up her neck and the pain in her back starting. Then he said something else and other areas of her body flared and calmed depending on what was said and her reaction to that.

Basically with his work she shifted dramatically into the realization of there is pain and there is that which I create to look like pain. YEHAH. she was radiant when she came home. Then I continued the work with some led meditation about going into the nothingness and for the first time she was able to feel inner earth come up to meet outter earth at the same time in her body. She looks 10 years younger than this morning.

Looks like we will be moving to a flat in Mosman Park soon. Yes, there is a place for me too. All sorts of changes.

peace to all.

gene

ahhhhh life

2009-01-29T10:56:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Well, I can tell you that the help from Moira has been tremendous in framing my life new. I am not fully programmed yet. However, I am happy sitting in this "nothing' state of being. I feel no desire to get up and get going, being busy and crazy as I used to be. I find no direction of energies and that too is OK. My only doing for now is caring for Sara as has been mentioned in most of the last blogs since 20 Dec. 5.5 weeks now.

Sara did a 7 month crash into a yuck way of life that none of us would ever wish to do. And now a 5.5 week bounce out of that yuck pain filled lonely, separate from the world being. Now she is withdrawing from one of the pain meds and often the reactions are worse that the worst was before I came along. Every morning is pure hell.

Even I have noticed that when I wake and take a summary of my body I tend to look for what and how bad are the pains this morning. I then am able to go YEHAH and find or start looking for what great new adventures are we going to have today. Unfortunately, with Sara she just goes off into the what if it gets worse and never gets better again and creates even greater awareness of more pain and more suffering, and more and more and more and more.

Now, enough of Sara. I am looking this day at what I get out of this relationship. Well, 1st off I easily recognise that I am greatly wanted/needed by Sara who often states that she doesnt' know what she would do without me as I am the only one that has stuck around for the duration.

So, how bad is my need to be needed? Is it enough that I belittle myself and my potential and stay here keeping someone alive that probabaly ought to be turned loose of to make them face up to the reality of what they have created for themselves? I do see a clinging of me to her. And I see also that by my clinging onto giving her reason to live keeps her not owning up to the idea that she created this. I help keep her willing at some level to not get well. Sure she says she wants the pain to go away, who wouldn't, BUT, she has yet to embrace the pain, the creation of this mess. So, my being here supports her not owning this mess....is this clear what I am attempting to get across?

2nd, would be a place to live and some financial support with food. When I stay in my bubble of nothingness, I do not worry about the future. However, that bubble is easily protected in this safe environment of living under the support of Sara and family. Now even there is the potential of moving to a GREAT unit in Mosman Park overlooking the Swan Foreshore. The unit probably is a million dollar home with a 10 million dollar view, ha ha ha. I am certainly moving up. But......there is the but. My only tenure is as this carer. What am I trading to have this?

Freedom to be doing other things. Yet, in my instance...I have no drive to do anything else. CAn I not just accept the bounty that has come my way? That I can have this time to recover my own energies and build stronger again. That God has blessed me with this position, this location, this family, this opportunity?

Am I thinking too much again? or just stating my case? Well, hopefully, I am just stating my case as I see it in this instant. This now.

Good day all.

peace

gene

life goes on

2009-01-26T10:32:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, after the hysterics of the Daughter coming home.....well there was just a lot of screaming going on for a few hours.

i was very concerned for Sara's health. I have been here just on 5 weeks and watched her grow considerably, then all come down around her knees. I was considering calling her sister in Adelaide or her mum and tell my worries. I bit my tongue and prayed for something better to happen.

Daughter decided to go to 2 - 18 year old parties on Friday night didn't bother calling home saying that she wasn't coming home that night. I was awakened at 7:45 am on Saturday with a teary S. in major pain. The day was ROUGH. Later that day she came good again.

On Sunday it was a near repeat as she had decided in the midst of all this stress to take one less of her pain medication down to zero. MAJOR pain the next day with much more weaping. She did an emergency call to a new lady we had heard about that heals nerve pain. We were able to leave immediately and S. was put on to a couple of different machines where the lady said nerve pain taken away is as simple as mowing the grass.

Well all and good, but it didn't happen. And now S. hopes were really really low. Still by the time we got home in early arvo she was coming good again. Strong enough to call the daughter and tell her that she couldn't come after her. The end result of this was that Sara went to her Sister's and they finally had a long sitdown talk to explain to the daughter where she was at with Doctor sister in attendance. Still mostly the talk was about finding why daughter didn't want to stay with her Aunty. Situation solved. She will move in with Aunty.

Sara again last night went with out the pain meds. a bit nervous this morning but getting stronger. I am a good person to have around again.

For me......I am working at staying in the nothing. I really don't know what/where/how is next. Many options. I have a little bit of money and could do many things BUT with the world economy the way that it is when I start thinking I get worried. When I stay in nothing, i am OK. And I am OK with that. I have a place, I have funds coming from the govt. There will be thousands more looking for funds soon as there have been many layoffs here in WA. Just need to chill and be very practical and work on my spirituality.

I woke this morning the first time in fear and wondering all the what if's. Then slept and woke into "stay in the nothingness" and have been doing well.

Peace to all of you.

May you be able to find a space in your life to sit in nothingness and find a way to not worry either.

gene

near death experience, Moving again

2009-01-23T20:22:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone,

Been way too long since I last wrote. Life got a bit too..... and I wrote emails only to a group of 10 to keep track of my passage of time at that time. Now well, it is time to let one and all have a clue as to what was happening.

Last I wrote I had moved to my friends home to care for her. Talking about big changes and getting rid of all my STUFF.

Well, in the process of "letting go" of my stuff, I was also letting go of all my identity with my stuff. See Eckert Tolle's new book called something "new earth".

In letting go of the identity and having shifted home, and having no real direction in life, and no connections to anyone, and being a master number 38/11 with no earth signs......it seems I was also letting go of living in my body. About 20 days ago I woke one morning to zero energy. Totally exhausted, pooped, wasted, wiped out. It was all I could do to dress, fix food for myself and help Sara a few hours a day. After about the 3 day, on a trip to the beach, I remember commeting to Sara that it feels like I am "out there" pointing to space and doing a lot of energy to pull enough from out there to be able to drive the car safely. That same day when we turned around on the other end of the beach walk, I made it 25 paces before I collapsed. I gave Sara the keys and had her meet me on the highway near where I was. It was a downwind walk and I felt capable of doing that. I sat meditation for 30 minutes very blissfully.

The next day I talked with a friend who told me that the same thing happened to him 2 years ago and that he knew many people that this had happened too and they were meeting this weekend on Sunday evening. I found out that Sara knew of this group meeting and convinced her to return to it as she was a founding member.

After the general conversation and the reading of several channeled messages the host/teacher read out a 5 page channel. It listed, extreme tiredness as happening to many, serious dietary changes of eating what ever came by ones mouth even if it was something that the person had never eaten before, weight gains, no energy from any foods, burning feet. All of these I had had over the last year at one time or another.

At the end, I asked if I could state what was going on for me. Let go Let go let go and trust. I explained how I had been directed to get rid of everything and how the STUFF felt like filth that I needed to rid myself of. At the end, I also mentioned the 38/11 no earth signs etc.

Two women picked up on parts of my talk and informed me that I was well on the way to dying as I was "letting go" of my body as well as my stuff. I introduced Sara to Moira as she is a healer of foot pain.

Wednesday 10 days ago Sara and I went to see Moira at her home in Bullsbrook. Moira talked with Sara and told her what was possible. Then she turned to me and said, "Gene, if you wish to die, I can help you to do that, if you wish to live, I can help you do that...." I told Moira, " I choose to live". I cannot tell you exactly what she did, I really don't remember. I did sit in her energy centre (vortex) and know....let me change that KNOW that the next morning when i drew a breath on waking, it was the first time in a long time where I felt that I had energy enter and that it was on the increase.

On Thursday I had set up that I would return to see Moira for work on me specifically. I have been brought out of darkness into a profound sense of NOTHING. no direction in life, no goals, no noise, no idle chatter, no desire...NOTHING. When Sara heard on Wed night that I was going up again, she decided to tag along. I reluctantly agreed. The whole morning to get there was like a nightmare. It was HELL. I finally found the only synonym that seems to fit. Imagine a 17 year old boy with many siblings who has finally managed to have a day to himself. he has it all planned and all is well until just as he is to step out the door, GOD says, take your 6 year old sister with you. Sara felt and acted like a 6 year old bratty snot of a sister the whole morning.

When we walked in the meeting room at Moira's Moira asked Sara, "How are you doing?" S said in a quiet, subdued voice, "i'm fine". Then as I came in she asked me, "Gene, how are you doing?" "I am frustrated and angry as hell!!!" Moira, says, "great I programed that into the both of you." grrrrrr.

Through the day, we worked through many details of our relationship. I was given verbal notification that if Sara really got mad with me I would have 3 weeks notice to leave. No more sexual requests of veiled nature that I felt very uncomfortable with because I though that I would get kicked out of the house etc.

As we left, I thanked Sara for coming on this day.

Since then I have returned to see Moira twice. more on that later

For now, one week after Sara's promise of giving me 3 weeks notice, it has been given, ha ha ha. And now two days after that, the bitch daughter has moved back in and most of the work that I have successfully done for Sara in getting her supported and stronger has gone down the drain. Sara is back to being a basket case and is in lots of pain and whinging all the time again. Ha ha ha. So is life.

The good side is that I had a place to be for my near demise and have moved most of my stuff out. And re outfitted myself ready to hit the road. Also, with Moira's help have established myself among the living with new agenda's, I will talk more about that in the next blog.

peace

gene

remember new email address

genemartinshafer@gmail.com

moved again

2008-12-28T17:05:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, hope that Christmas was good for everyone so concerned. And may you all have an incredible 2009. Which is shaping up to be pretty incredible as a lead up to the activities of 2012.

My own insights given to me by Spirit is that within the next 4-5 months to expect a major, make that MAJOR shift in consciousness of a small portion of the population. There are select few that are doing the advance shifting to be able to guide those that follow. I suspect that I might be one of those so selected.

Last I wrote (without checking) I was living in Busselton. I had back in October bought air tickets to go to the Mind Body Spirit expo in Melbourne for work with Conscious Living. That was also the day that i was due to have a home inspection. I wrote the rental agency that I was probably going to have break lease soon. I learned on my return that since I had entered a Break lease i would be able to leave my own lease on 26 December. YEHAH! done deal!!!!

At about the same time a dear friend in White Gum Valley was working through a process of extreme pain of nerve pain. This all started in May 08 after taking an antibiotic and had progressed where she was basically going crazy and was suicidal with the pain. When ever I would pop through I was very helpful for her. She begged me to please move in and take care of her. The last week before I did move in I was here 4 of 7 days.

This is a symbiotic relationship. I have a place to live and will be paid to be a carer. She receives a quailifed well trained house person.

Before I Left for Melbourne I applied to Centre Link for support. I am on the Australian Dole again. I was able to acquire work for 4 days during the Busselton Ironman event. Since then I have been working with S. full time. We are applying to Centre Link for their support of me in this work.

On the Spiritual front, I have been guided to rid myself of all of my STUFF. When I moved to Busselton it took a 6 meter long truck FULL for all my stuff. I returned in a 7' x 5' trailer and a station wagon. It was STUFFED to the gills but still 1/2 of what I took south. Since arriving here I am already down to about 1/10 of that. Some went to Jenny. Some to the trash, some is going tomorrow to the Salvos. Some just given away. I still am being asked to sell my good bicycle and Ity-Bity. I am finding that selling Ity-Bity the toughest.

Then yesterday I got a sort of mixed message from Spirit. Mixed in that it is different than what I have been getting regarding Ity-Bity. I went for a bicycle ride with Friend George on Friday Morning. I used my car keys to unlock the bicycle that unfortunately i am having to keep outside. Since then the keys are not to be found. I returned and dutifully locked the bike back to its post.

The mixed message was that I was just on Saturday attempting to advertise both the bike and the car in the local Quokka sales magazine. It didn't work and if it had, I couldn't unlock the bike to sell it nor the keys for the car to move it. hhhhmmmmmmm. I remembered that I had a spare key for the bike in my safe. YES. And there is a spare key for the door of the car under it. And, maybe Jenny while traveling may remember where she stored the imobilzer key that she had found just before she left...... else that needs to be redone.

So, all is unlockable.......however, what is the message regarding sales??? I suspect (though I have yet to check in) that I no longer need to sell those two items.

In S's home I have a small room at the rear. It is perfect. it is too small to hold much comfortably and still have a prayer to do a massage if the opportunity exists. And that may happen yet again. I have one fellow wishes to teach me some NLP for a trade of massage so I need to either set up here or go traveling with the table.

S. forgot to tell her 18 year old daughter that I was moving in. She went balistic. Has decided to move to her Aunties. Good! Nice enough girl, but totally overwelmed by her mum's pain and suffering. It is difficult to look at a person that moves, breathes, works, shops, does everything, but is in abject pain and realize just how much pain is taking place. Nearly all of S friends have stopped coming around. This is typical and I am not at all surprized. It is very difficult to keep seeing someone that is not getting better. Everyone wishes for the sick one betterness while not allowing them to just be where they are at in the moment. I have been on the sick end and understand that one well enough.

BUT, why have I continued to come around? Just because I understand this long drawn out process? Kharma? Spiritually Guided? Or something else? Probably all of this. I do understand this long drawn out process and the ache that one has for friendships that will go the distance when there is little medical prognosis of quick recovery. S will not die from this.... however, she may wish she could. She may get better per what the meds say or may not.

The Spiritually Guided part is the largest. I have been shown that S agreed to take on some special changes to her body for the events unfolding in the World leading up to 2012. She is an integral part of these coming times. She has to be rebuilt and ready to do her thing. It is now my job to get her mentally ready to be where we are supposed to be when we are supposed to be there. (4-5 months) So, from the perspective of Spirit this "disease" of nerve pain is only temporary. They are apologetic that it is hurting as much as it is, however they say that it is necessary. I am not allowed to "heal" away the pain. Won't happen. It is part of the process. If you are a channel....check it out for yourself and let us know.

OH..... email change genemartinshafer@gmail.com

Kharma. No doubt at all. Everyone that reads this is Kharmically linked with me. Most everyone that I meet is Kharmically linked with me. We have work to do. That is not late breaking news at all. So, let's get on with it!!!

OK, in summary:

Big changes are about to happen world wide. Some of us are transitioning into different realms of existence, ways of existing. One thing that they have told me is that what we are to become though being shown to us is meaningless as we have no reference of comparison so we just don't see it. Our name will be the same, little else. So, if you don't recognise me when I return, no worries.

I have heard that the stock market will be 1/2 of its current level by mid year. I would urge everyone to sell while they can. Second suggestion is to buy gold. if you are fortunate enough to be able to buy scrap gold do it as it is always the best way to get gold cheaply. Else buy the physical stuff asap.

Also, I was told that anything that I sell now I will be able to rebuy by June for a penny on the $10.00. That makes rebuying a $1500 bicycle pretty cheap.

Well, big changes for everyone that I have spoken with in the last few weeks, suspect the same for you too.

best wishes to all

Enjoy the changes that are coming

peace

gene

Shfiting Times like Shifting Sands

2008-12-13T15:12:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, It has once again been too long. I did notice that I usually write when things are tough, difficult, strange, weird or whatever.

Well, I was so used to that format that when I started to come out of it I didn't really believe that i was coming out. Just figured it would be another cycle just a bit longer. But it has continued to be an upward feeling for about a month now.

And, I had a channel or two explaining what I had been through.

Another energy shift. In the past I would experience ANGER out of nowhere and realize that I had shifted in energy again. This time I needed to experience all the emotions DEEPLY before moving on. And so it was.

Now it is time to put some of this all to use. And there have been many other changes as well.

1) I did move to Busselton

2) I never did improve on my sales with Conscious Living

3) Twas a dark and stormy journey

4) Out of money and forlorn got into Centre Link for support

5) Did a trip to Melb on little or nothing.

6) Still no sales and now it is mid Dec.

7) Did work for Iron Man here in Busselton

8) Officially no longer employeed by Conscious Living as of today. YEHAH!

Quite literally just seeing Patricia's email waiting to be read in my inbox sent me into shivers of yuck. She is reimbursing me for my flight to Melb and the last two months of mobile phone calls. YEHAH!

Word from Spirit is to let go of everything, Trust, and to let go of everything.

In that idea I am selling off all my possesions so that I can travel lite and quick. Officially I am selling off to do a bicycle trip around Australia in 6-9 months.

Before that, however, I am fulfilling a Kharmic debt to a dear friend. S. is going through her own growth agreement with Spirit in a very painful way. She is way beyond where I was in the darkest times and needs mental support to keep on keepin on for the agenda that Spirit has for what is coming next.

Word I get is that the next 5-6 months will be so life altering that I will not be able to recognize what I will become. That there is no knowledge in my experience of life this time to understand the transformations that are about to happen. And this is not just for me. It is not however for everyone either. it is for a select few that chose this path long before coming into this lifetime. I have identified a few of them and most are doing what I am doing. Selling off all possesions and getting ready for travel or what ever it is that we bought into to do. Even S. is part of this though she is having difficulty believing that she will be ready.

There is an agenda and it will be met!

If you who read this are feeling the urge to sell everything I would suggest getting started quickly. Another thing that I saw/felt is that the value to the things that we are selling today will be like worthless in 5 months time. That many will be selling at that time and if we wish to we can repurchase at that time a penny for $10.00 worth of things.

health wize I am mostly OK. My stint as the laborer for Ironman really hurt. I am still quite stove up with my hands hurting so much that I am not sure that I can do massage. Nor for that matter much of any kind of work.

I am hoping to quite Centre Link soon so that I do not have to report to them of income etc. And this will lower expectations of needing to "make money". I will be staying with S. and perhaps there will be some pay as well. Or doing light duties of handyman work around the area. Time will tell. Today there is no knowledge yet to say what I will be doing or when.

For all of you out there that take the time to read this....

Please learn to be as in the moment as you can be. Realize that when you are down that you do not stay down and that you do feel occasionally UP. Remember that sequence. No one stays down forever. No one stays up forever. It is a cycle.

Also, that what we are going through was planned long before your birth. You planned your part in it. And that Spirit continues to tell all that will listen, that all is going according to plan and that all is very well indeed.

Be in Peace

peace

gene

On a Mission

2008-11-23T20:57:00.002+08:00

Well, sort of, ha ha ha. Thx to Lynda, who helped me sort out parts of the brain. Asked me what of all the possible things to do I would most like to do.

Go Bicycle around Australia. hhmmmmmmm. Sounds really really good to me. So, concentrated thoughts and energy and feelings and ...... we will see. Current planning is to work at leaving in fall next year. need to re-establish a few things, Like get the bike that I want, trailer, panniers etc.

Also, sell stuff off. Like everything. Have already started today and have travel money now for Melbourne, YEHAH!

Anyone reading this that knows of what I have and has an interest in it.... let me know.

Bed Time.

Hey, if you have not tried to eat raw foods as your diet.... try it. The energy is awesome. Will probably go off for the next week due to traveling, but will hammer it when I return.

love to all of you.

gene

up UP UP down ha ha ha

2008-11-21T10:19:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, best I can say is that life is really really interesting with the changes leading up to 2012 and beyond.

I have seen quite a few interesting articles lately about the changes that are possibly coming and how differently idea based people might react to them. There is a great one coming up in the next Issue of Conscious Living. I have not read it all yet, but it is well documented and well written.

Basically, Mother Earth is changing. The energy that she vibrates at is increasing. This has been going on for millenia. From my Tesla work we had information that when tested at Hertz levels, in 1890 She was at 7.5. 1950 at 8. 2001, 16. and 2005 17.8. My dates are from memory and may not be perfectly but the Hertz numbers I remember clearly.

OK, as Gaia speeds up so do we as humans. If you look at the majority of people in the 1850's they were physically hard working people. Today's society is much more button pushers. We are ever moving toward doing less physically and much more mentally. There will be an even greater shift in this direction over the next few years.

The other direction of happenings will be that all humans will be moved toward peaceful co-existence. That doesn't seem remotely possible as we look around our world now. It is happening though at ever increasing numbers. There may well be a huge increase in violence caused by those that do not understand the forces that are working inside of them. The great mis-understanding of the SELF and EGO will cause much hardship for many.

My own blogs have shown my own journey through mostly my mental situation. I am not crazy. I am not paranoid. I am not in terror, I am not in euphoria either. I am not any of those emotions at all really. I am ....... a sounding board for them. They pass through me.... I observe them. This is easier said than done however. It is so easy to get caught up in the feeling of paranoia. Rather than to sit outside of the self and observe the self feeling that feeling.

I have just had 5 days of being UP. It was GREAT. There are more lessons to learn. This morning I am a bit down. Can't get started. Trying to sort out what it takes to stay UP. Yesterday I was laughing at my financial condition. Today also, that is not the problem. It is a concern, however at some level I just don't care. There is little more that I can figure out to do. So, I choose to be as happy as I can be under the circumstances, while knowing that all will be absolutely perfect no matter what happens.

I figure that if I am who what I think that I am.... physically fit, healthy, knowing that all will be well, mentally aware that I am on a passage through life, and working at staying in observation of the mental ups and downs........ and having difficulty with this passages..... most of the world is in utter turmoil by comparison.

Many have great financial situations. Many are in financial stress. And there will be more. Mentally, there are going to be many having difficulty reaching out for help..... hmm think I will call someone right now for a chat.... be back shortly.

Ahhh the pause with friends that gets the mind into happy spaces.

I would love to hear from any of you that are having interesting times to share. Sharing is growing. Sitting in your stuff is stifling. Reach out. I am here. bodyshine@iinet.net.au I am on skype too. just insert the email address and I will come up.

Best wishes to all.

Keep breathing. Take life one breath at a time if necessary.

peace

gene

weird thoughts good energy

2008-11-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

ha ha ha. Life is weird. So are my thoughts. i need to be asleep. Can't. Got a pittance of a check today from CL work. ought to have been 20% and was 10. Somehow that got me thinking I am broker than I am. I have been living without any income for a month and get 300 and go into weird thoughts.

Have to do a garage sale and sell any all that is left to sell. Book cases for $5. Where will I stack my books. Hmmm sell the books at a $1 each to get rid of them so that I can live out of my car. Sell the crystal cave for good money though. And the white Buddha statue.

Give back the rent to buy computer that I have no idea why i got. Sell the safe too. It is only worth about $20 and I have nothing left to put in it anyway. Sell the wind chimes, the queen size bed it certainly won't fit in the little car. Then the little bed eventually too and sleep on the thermarest.

Sooner or later have to give up this pad as it will bankrupt me the rest of the way. Need to take out my cash left in the bank so that ..... What ever.

Lose the email accounts, phone numbers, web site, loose it all.

YET, heck this is Australia mate. Centre Link support, Homes wEst to get a place to live. It might be rough but better than being in the states for sure. Still not a bad place to live off the land. Plenty of roo road kills to feed myself with.

Found a place today that feeds for a gold coin donation. Got two meals worth from them today.

Put in at Job place for work. Don't know why my mind has gone off dreaming of having NOTHING left. And the whole time that I am thinking these thoughts I actually have a smile on my face. Last week I would have been going crazier with these thoughts.

I guess if I cannot manifest wealth then I will imagine total wipe out.

Couldn't sleep as mentioned so had to get these thoughts down. Will have some income I hope next week if healing work comes through. Will see what happens.

I feel spun out happy that I am going completely broke again. Been what now at least 3-4 times in the last 3 years. Ought to be feeling fairly familiar with it all eh.

Well, main thing is that my head space is feeling really really great. If I am down and out financially and happy that is better than having some coin left and feeling like shit. Least ways it is for me.

Well, any of you that bother to read this. In this instant I am feeling GREAT. Yehah what in the world is going to happen next

Love all of you

peace

gene

I'm baaaacccccccckkkkkkk!!!

2008-11-18T17:42:00.004+08:00

Hello All,

Well, for all those supporters over the last few weeks, WOW thanks. Been a real battle getting through this last energy shift. And that is what it turned out to be. I didn't even ever think about that idea until I got to channeling after I felt "ALIVE" again.

Seems that in all the other shifts that I have taken over 35 years of exploring the Light side of life I always knew when I had gone through a shift because I would feel ANGRY again. Well, this time Spirit had something different in mind for me. Seems that with this latest shift I needed to feel many more emotions and of greater magnitude.

Now I have many friends that say it is no longer necessary to "feel" all this crap when we shift. Well for them I say good on you if you don't. I must have needed to. Least ways I did it, ha ha ha.

So, how does it feel to look at a friend that is in Terror for no reason. It is pretty scary just to watch. It is worse to be in it let me tell you. Or Paranoia, anxiety, depression, weird suicidal thoughts, sanity, insanity, euphoria, and all of it again and again.

No one thing that I did helped totally. One major tool was ..... well I was going to say one thing, but Spirit stuck in another thought. Time was the main tool. The rest were just toys that I was playing with until time had done its own course of life for me.

I will tell the tool that helped a lot anyway. I got if from Master EFT practitioner Peter Graham. He had gone through a similar episode a few weeks ago. He said to tap through all the points of EFT while saying, "I am waking from this" This statement worked well because the sensations were all trance like. A trance that I needed to wake from. Eventually I did.

Let me tell you some of the week past.

Monday 10 November (mum's birthday) Conscious Living closed on a big package deal with a customer. I really liked the two men doing the work. R. invited me to stay longer in the week for a full moon ceremony on Thursday night. I had planned on returning home late Wednesday or early Thursday. hmmmmm full moon with Crystal bowls singing to the moon. Yep can do.

Tuesday 11 Nov. Wholistic Business meeting with Tony Walton. Really great information. And Liana Virasinge doing Oneness Blessing. That too was GREAT.

Wed 12 Nov. Was Conscious Living's Symposium. PH was beside herself with energy. I was the scapegoat for a lot of her energy. It was not a good party.

However, I met a lady there that had taken Rich Si Windelov workshop in Subiaco. When we compared notes she and I had both been going through the same sort of Shit. It was just so awesome to find someone else that was concerned for their own sanity and others concerned too. We compared notes and it was really really good to be together for a bit.

I had not wanted to carry any stuff away from the Symposium because I lived South and was not planning on being back to the office till afternoon. They didn't have enough cars so I got volunteered. Seems that I picked up two boxes that were DESPARATELY needed at the office before 11. Got the messages about 12:30. Paybacks are hell.

Thurs 13 Nov. Was mostly an easy day. Then the Moon song. It was GREAT too. One lady there told the group that she had just quit her job of 6 months and was headed off in the morning to Melbourne on the back of a Motorcycle by way of the South West. When we had a chance I told her that they were welcome to stop in on the way through. Found out that R. was also with them for a few days. Three guests finally.

Friday 14 Nov. Twas a longish day after too many spent in Perth. Friends showed up about 7:30. Out for supper. Then to the beach. Skinny dipping in the ocean with a howling cold breeze to come out too. Then Oneness Blessing for my friends on the Beach. Close to midnight for bed. Now two nights spent out of doors with the Moon.

Saturday 15 Nov. Got up at 5:30 and off for a bike ride with the Busso crowd. Got home at 8 as C & C were up but R still asleep. We all ended up in the meditation room eating and talking and talking and talking and next thing was to do a rebirthing on two of the people. That was AWESOME. Finally around 1 we walked to the local groc for fixings and did a raw blended and salad lunch. then more talk in the meditation room. Obviously they were not leaving today. Saturday late arvo watched the Sun go down and the Moon come up. Later I did a Spiritually Guided Healing on C & C and R. Lady C. was gob smacked. We really went deep and transitional healings took place. It was a major rework. The other two had major work too, but not at that level.

Sunday 16. Around 10 they finally left. I was a little sad, but .... there will be more guests. I decided to blend me a meal. Got all the ingredients out and cut up and stuffed the blender and got it going. it lasted a bit. I did get some thick coursely ground fodder until the gear on the bottom of the blender shattered. Oh well, it has been on its way out for 4 years. Late Sunday I realized that "I was ALIVE" again. Energy had been good for 2 days in a row. Got a call from R. that he was coming back through Busso on way to Perth, OK to stay Monday night? Absolutely.

Mon 17 Nov. I got myself down to Centre Link and got signed up for some income. It has been a week and though we signed off on a major package I have yet to be paid by Conscious Living. it has been about a month now since I last had income. The reserves are thinning. I know that I will be paid, not when. Nor how much. Also took time to buy a new blender and chopper upper too. Gotta eat and I like this raw food energy and and and. We will report this as we go along.

R arrived around 5. off for a walk on the beach and talk until 10ish. I was really tired. Up at 4:30 for bike ride. Rode too HARD and came home exhausted at 6:55. After the shower slept for an hour. First time I have ridden that hard in years. Slept again later for another hour. R is gone now and I have been actually working for CL for the first time in weeks I have the energy to do so. it is weird to have not had any energy for so many weeks.

Now I have lots to catch up with. Gotta get the cash flow going again. Have a feeling that the trip over to Melbourne next week is very important for me and my future.

Well, from this frontier I can say that it is good to be alive, YEHAH!

Peace to All in these interesting times

gene

another day

2008-11-10T21:00:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Been up to my writing for a bit now eh. Had a big successful sale today wtih CL. Big booth, big ad. 4.5 hours of negotiations on top of about 15 hours before that.

got done around 7 and then PH wants me to enter data into the data base for a copule of hours. I started after cancelling my dinner engagement. Then decided resoundly within myself NO!!! By God I got some boundaries too. I told PH (the boss) NO, I have to leave. I had other appointments, I have my own needs, I have not eaten, my mind is going, I cannot concentrate, I am going.

It is amazing since my concussion after the bike accident 4-5 months ago, I get tired and it all comes back to haunt me. The ability for me to do mental calculations as simple as data entry (or typing without my glasses pardon the typos) goes out very quickly when tired, and especially hungry too.

I will attempt to get here again tomorrow or soon to type in the New World Vision of Conscious Living that I am to be selling now. I would rather be a part of it that its salesperson.

May all be well tonight. And may we all bless Barrack Obama and lets all vision him retiring a very old man ie not assinated as so many are feeling will happen.

Peace

gene

separate me from me

2008-11-10T12:27:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

Well, lots of life been happening lately and I am compelled to get the information listed somewhere and here is as good a place as any.

Work: the boss quit paying me my draw on commission 31 October. I am not fired, just not paid ahead of sales.... which were few and looking more dismal as time went on. I do not mind that she stopped paying me. I did mind that she didn't bother telling me. Also,admitedly I didn't even make as many calls in October as in September, but, they were two totally different styles of months. Sept was selling booth spaces for expo 09 mostly and October was selling advertising.

October was a mental month for me. I proceeded to go to some level of crazy. As in insane, paranoia, lost the plot, altered sense of reality, feeling very disconnected from the rest of the world sorts of things.

Last week was the worst. Luckily I had just written that blog about reaching out and followed my own advice and called many of you that do take the time to read what is going on in my head. Thanks to Lynda, Sabine, Jenny (even called the Ex),Marcia, Michelle, Tessa, Peter and a few neighbors in Busso that didn't even know they were saving my life, ha ha ha.

The Ex suggested that I take my dismal self to Centre Link and get signed up for going on the dole. I part the very action of doing that has helped a lot. To admit I need help to the Government did something. It was not a perfect something but it helped get me started not being mental again. And a thanks to Rich who suggested my buying the new Eckhart Tolle book, "The New Earth". Only read a little of it but found significance in that bit. Sounds a lot like reading about Oneness when reading about The New Earth.

Here is an important quote for me from the book: "To recogniseone's own insantity is,of course, the arising of sanity, the beginning of healing and transcendence." OK, I am not beginning to say that I am anything near clinical insanity. BUT, I had been making those statements, "I think I am going insane". So, close enough. And I also, will not claim " the arising of sanity" either. However, if I can be moving in the direction of, "beginningof healing and transcendence." That I will start to accept.

I am now sitting at friend Enrico's home in Perth. Drove up this morning EARLY. Enroute I had the very strong awareness when I woke up from a nap along the way that I as I sat in my little car was just a capsule of life along the path of that highway. No more or less than any tree, frog, bird or other passing car. I was nothing. I was everything. Also, though, I felt a very strong sense of that part that was sitting in the car being separate from all that is/was around me. So, there was the physical sense of my being in that car and the observer watching that me being in that car.

Anyone that has studied with any guru for any time will no that there is this and there is the observer of this. So there is you and there is the observer of you that is not you really either, ha ha ha. If this warps your head that is OK, one day you will understand it more clearly. I am just beginning too after years of hearing it told to me mostly by Lynda. Hearing it and knowing it is two very different places of beingness.

I am continuing to do this Breath Connection work Buteyko. This is very powerful body changing work. I certainly would never have thought that just by really carefully observing that I would only breath through my nose that I could pull old drugs out of my body. I was told last night by Steve Lumsdaine (Breath Connection) that it is quite possible that with carefull attention to the breath work and really really working at it would pull out the residue of the anti-depressants from my body. Now, some of you may know this, some not. Anti-depressants make you depressed. it is a controlled depression, but still depressing. that in part was what was happening last week. Some of you strongly urged me to stop what ever i was doing. Hmmmm stop breathing.... was that a hint, ha ha ha.

Peter gave me the most changing tip. Peter is the only Master of EFT in Australia. He really knows how this stuff works and how the mind plays the games. He said that he had recently also gone into this trancelike state of mind that I was now in. I readily agreed with him that it felt trance like rather than real depression or paranoia or or or. None of those states of mind lasted very long. He had read some work from John Bradshaw about this and gave me a statement to use and tap and tap and tap and tap and tap. He had tapped for 30 minutes before CLICK he was out of the trance.

The statement: " I am waking up from this. " Said with meaning while tapping the 14 points. I got right onto it. Did 17 minutes and had written a list of things that I just had to do on Friday. And therefore had to quit early. Still, where I had been at a level 10 (serious Yuck) I had come to about a 7. After being at 10, 7 feels like heaven.

All day Friday & Saturday I was good. Sunday AM, I was 9.55555. When I finally could get out of bed I got dressed and started to tap. I tapped for an hour. I gradually got from that 9.5555 to about an 8.

I had scheduled myself to drive to Bunbury. Did so, Hugged a great TALL Friend, twice and came home. on the way, I started talking to myself about all that I had to be grateful for. I started laughing. I came down then to about a 5.

Today, I am sitting yet around that 5. I keep working on it. I know that it (the sensations, emotions etc) are not me. Yet, it is like separateing the dirt from the velcro.... that separation is difficult to see as separate.

Well, I am a work in progress. Gotta go now to a meeting that might make me a bit of money.

Love all of you.

peace

gene

be aware

2008-11-03T20:37:00.003+08:00

Hello Friends,

I hope to write here more often than I have in the recent past. The energies of the Earth are changing. You have heard me say that recently. I would like to think as I am in an "up" state today, that I am open and aware of these changes.

Well, from an "up" state of mind that is easier than when one is down like in a feeling of depression that is not depression. When in that singular state of mind, the only thing in control is the mind. From the workshop that I took in Fiji the Oneness Process they talked about how the rumbling mind is not your mind. it is not my mind it is a universal mind chatter.

As we all are growing, evolving or as a friend of mine recently said that instead of Beingness, we are becomingness. Always in the state of transformation. Because we are in that state of becomingness all that is happening to us is always new. Because the mind's desire to be in some level of control, it compares the new to what it thinks it has known from the past.

Since the past has so little to do with the rapidly changing now, the mind is confused and goes off into the universal mind chatter to find relief. And when it goes it attempts to drag us with it. Even though in our strength we would not follow the wayward mind, the mind still attempts to drag us where it wants us to be. Comfortable in confusion. All of you that read these words have tools that you have learned to use to come away from mind confusion. Yet, when the mind has grabbed hold of your self, it can be very difficult to get out of its grasp.

Really if you can stay aware of the intent of the mind to drag you down and really really stay aware of the start of that drag, then you can grasp quickly at those tools that you know to use and fight that pull. I am mentioning this, because even I get drug down easily sometimes. Just a slight moment of inattention and bank I am as defeated as anyone that is defeated.

I have just had a glorious healing and clearing from my friend EC. I was near wit's end even on Sunday Morning as I was getting up I got hit by an anxiety attack. It was stupid stuff that I had gone over many times in the recent 2-3 days. I thought that it was gone and would stay gone so I didn't pay it any heed. by the end of the next hour it was all that I could do to get out of bed. Without my friend..... I would have been in continued turmoil.

And that is the main part of this message. We will be drug down occasionally. If we are fortunate and stop the dragging than that is great. Sometimes we cannot stop the process. Then we need to reach out to our friends and ask for a healing for support. For a kind word.

Please a favor from all of you. Please do not think that I am super strong out here to be able to give this advice without support from all of you. I desperately need your calls and emails to keep on keeping on. Now it is my moment or two to be up. I can once again give support. Trouble was that I was giving support when I was feeling like warmed over dog poo. It was a real struggle I had going for over a week.

Those of you who read this letter with regularity know that I give my all and then some to each of you. It is very very important now that we all work together often to keep the energies up for each of us. Kind words, supportive emails, digging questions to be sure that the other is not hiding their pain. Everyone that I know is going through some major transitions. Change is growth, yes, BUT no one ever said that growth was easy.

Support your friends both the close ones and those a bit farther away. Say your love to everyone. Saying Love speaks a wonderful vibration out to the world. Give gratitude every day to all the great things that are in your life. Do this everyday. The universe needs to know that we recognize the great wonderful goodness that is around us.

Ask for help from God, Goddess, Christ Energies, the Arch Angels, anyone or any spirit form that you like. Ask often for their support. They are waiting to help. And they will wait and wait and wait for you to ask for their help. They give it in many ways, however, the really big help comes when you ask for their help.

In the bible somewhere it says, I believe, Ask and ye shall receive. ASK.

One last thought on the title of this letter. Be aware. This is a lot different than the message you see assigned to words where there is a dog that may be grouchy. BEWARE means to scare you off just with the sign. Be Aware, means to use your own powers of discernment and decide the best path for yourself. Do not, please do not fear what is coming ahead. Just be in awareness of the changes that are taking place and realize that change is inevitable and we all have grown because of previous changes around us.

Love all of you

gene

Feeling is that everything is absolutely OK.

2008-10-29T10:32:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

Interesting times afloat now isn't there. World economy, personal economies, US elections, World strife, World worry, fear, love, LOVE, peace, mayhem, happiness. So much going on.

It is very easy to get caught up in the General feeling of what's happening. It is also very easy to get caught up in ones own thinking. Hopefully, many of you are wise enough to realize that "thinking" will cause you no end of trouble. Most of the problems that you have in life come from an over active thinking process. When you can stop that action....the action of thinking and just be in the moment life isn't bad, troubled, turmoil or anything. Life is just being what ever is happening.

The second thing that will help is to not make judgments about what you see happening. If you observe a car accident happening. Do not call it BAD. Observe it as energy moving, lives changing, situations being rearranged. An earth quake in the middle of wup wup that causes no building damage, or lives lost is easily thought of as the earth adjusting herself.

Just as easily one can choose to observe the car crashes as energies readjusting themselves. Lives being changed into the proper patterns for continuation of what is needed to be done. Yes there might be pain and suffering. All of which can be looked at as opportunities to learn from. Some will choose to be angry, hateful, desperate. Others will say this is what is going on in my life now and there are lessons to be learned, people to meet, adjustments of life to be on hand and aware of.

In my writing my thoughts to you and that you will be reading them is the hope that what you find here will reinforce your own commitment and understanding of how you are already attempting to lead your own life. Most of you that take the time to read these thoughts have been around with me for quite a while. You know me and the path of life that I choose to walk many years ago. Of taking each day as it comes and live it as well as I can. Many of you know that most of the time I do pretty good with that ideal. Some of you know that at times I too go through great turmoil over what is happening in my life. It is the part of me that is tied to the human condition of being like everyone else. Worrying, thinking, making judgment calls about what I see, buying into the misery around me causing me to feel like everyone else and responding in kind.

I have been through the mill a lot over the last 6-9 months. Ups and Downs. In peace and in turmoil. Through it all there has been a continuing thread that is my life line. It is the thread of information that I receive from my Guides and Arch Angel Michael, that everything is as it ought to be, that all of life is being lived as it is and that is fine. That I personally am doing OK in my own travels through time. That the amount of work that I put in, my caring, my distresses, my thoughts, my worries all balance out to perfections. Then the overall feeling is one of "everything will turn out absolutely OK".

That is why I suggest to observe life as it is around you. Please stay in your own head your own control of the thoughts that are swirling around you. Observe which are yours and which are foreign to you. The foreign ones......send them packing. Work really work at not being judgmental about what you observe. Just observe it and let it go.

As I am having these sensations that everything will be absolutely perfect I know to not look at my current life logically. Ha ha ha. When I do that I see utter chaos. When I start worrying about the chaos and how to get it all into peaceful existence I get caught up in the horror of "what if" and life becomes very painful. When I stay with my thread of information and just sit, do my best under the circumstances that I can..... I feel love all around me. I bless each and every person that I talk with that tells me NO at purchasing what it is that I am selling. They too need to know that all will work out perfectly.

When I channel Christ energy, to me it feels like those times when I have sat somewhere and been feeling lonely and chilled and that no one notices me or my condition. Then someone walks up and wraps me in a thick, warm, fuzzy blanket that they have warmed for me and it is filled with love. That same sensation is what I am feeling now as I write this letter to all of you. And, it is the same sensation that I hope each of you can feel as you read this letter. This letter is a gift to all of you from the Christ Energy that helped to write it. You are Loved. Greatly, by those Supreme Beings that are here with us at this time of existence of Earth. They all know the strife that is felt while Gaia adjusts her own energies. Like a big wet dog giving a hard shake, all of us will get a readjustment of our life if we lived on that dog. So it is here on Earth as Gaia is shaking her mental emotional and spiritual self (and sometimes the physical too)

I am always open to emails sent to me regarding these thoughts, or comments left here on line. Also, phone calls. I am starting a new group where we get together every couple of weeks to compare life's notes with each other for continuing support. It is a meeting to share and love each other as we are. You can join via email with me or calls.

Love to all of you

Please look for the Peace in everything that happens around you. It is there. Sometimes it take a lot to see it.

Peace

bodyshine@iinet.net.au

gene

updating the updates

2008-10-09T16:58:00.003+08:00

hello All,

Someone has read one of the old blogs and brought it up to me in an email. The one in August about losing a best friend and being shattered and not doing Oneness.

Well, as Oneness is the basis for changing the charge with issues..... the friend and I have gotten back together. I won't say that we are as close as we were. We are a different closeness. Probably more healthy for both of us. More respect between us for both of us. Before it was a bit too one sided.

As for Oneness and not doing it. That was then. I am not sure that I can do Oneness as we are told to do it. And I will have to tell you that there was very little telling of how to do it. Most we learned from the many of us who had questions at the question period at the end of the week. There really was no training what so ever.

My former idea (former to going to Fiji) was that I would come back and do a series of evenings around Perth. It didn't work. Maybe my timing was off? Costs? Locations? Days of the week? Or in part Oneness is about really doing the work of change. Those that received it mentioned that life was just too full on and they couldn't continue to come. Well, that is what the changes are that we need to look at. Yes you can bet on it that life will be full on if you receive a fair bit of Oneness Blessings.

So, now I have moved down to Busselton. My plans are to start up Oneness Blessings in my home. Costs are minimal and the energy created will be good. I have a vortex here and a Spirit living within it. The Spirit is excited about the new owner/renter and the energy work that is going on.

Oneness is about changing the way the brain works and the way we use our judgementalness to look at everything. Since working with Rich Windelov my method of Giving Oneness has evolved. I started off as everyone does by placing the hands upon the head of the receiver after a quiet approach to their front.

Next I would approach quietly from a distance and place one hand over my heart chakra and the other slightly above that over the Non-judgemental heart chakra. From holding these two chakras on myself, I would "feel" the client. Next I would do my hands in the prayer position. This was to acknowledge my intent to the client after getting a feeling of what was going on for them. Then I would place my hands upon their head. After a while I would come away with a hands up again, then hands over the heart centres and another hands up. The first hands up was thanks to Sri Amma Bhagavan. The second was acknowledgement to the client.

I really felt that the hands over the heart was the strongest part of the transmission. Often as in almost every time I did it that way I felt that I was wasting my time to "touch" the client. It was what is "expected" by the client and the other Givers. That doesn't make it the strongest nor the best way to transmit the Blessing. There are many ways talked about including eye to eye contact.

Now, the last time that I gave while still in Fremantle I quickly went through the crowd doing quick touches and long hearts giving. Then after I stood at the front of the room and asked the Golden Ball energy to come through me and allow me to transmit the pure Golden Ball energy to the crowd. Everything and everyone in the room turned Gold.

Sooooo now down here in Busso, what am i going to do for this crowd? Tell you when I get it done, ha ha ha

Love to all of you.

Anyone wanting distant healing from Oneness Please let me know.

peace

gene

moved south

2008-10-06T19:05:00.003+08:00

Hello All,

I cannot even begin to remember when i last wrote. Been a lot of water around the bridge since then. Probably sometime after Fiji. I remember that. that would have been mid May. Now we are at beginning of Oct 5 months on.

Mid June I got work with Conscious Living Expo selling booth space for the up coming Expo 4-7 Sept. I did really well with it and went on to become the Advertising Sales Manager for Conscious Living http://www.consciousliving.net.au

It has not been easy let me tell you. For some reason selling booth space at an expo that I had been a part of for 6 years was fairly easy. Not to say that there were not many times of stress.

Selling advertising has been greatly more difficult. I have been made out to be the only seller of advertising for this next issue. I have not sold a spot to anyone at all and selling ends before the end of October.

That is not what this blog is about. This blog is about how much my life has changed over the last 5 months. It has changed so much that I could write here for days and not encompass all of it. The people that I have met and worked with ..... the list is long.

Out of Oneness I came across E.C. He is one of the most esoterical people that know and have access to often. What all he is dabbling with energetically i do not know. I do know that he can change a person's DNA and I am a guinea pig for that. No, I have not grown any pig ears or a tail.

I mentioned probably some time back about meeting Rich Si Windelov. And how much I had changed with that meeting. Rich came back through Perth for the Expo and workshops after. I sat through 3 workshops. Rich basically sets up a connection with all the Arch Angels, the Ascended Masters, Christ and many many more. Then keeps us busy as we sit in that energy field. E.C. does similar work, however doesn't have as many years of experience as Rich. Now, I too can do the same thing. I have pulled in the conscious energy of Christ and healed with it. I have pulled in the conscious energy of Arch Angel Michael and healed with him. I have pulled in the conscious energy of others to 'feel' them.

What I lack for now is the knowing of where all this is taking me. My own personal energy is getting more refined. I am much more sensitive to "energy". What that means is that when I walk around town I can feel where I need to be. Or wisely not to be. I can feel energy in peoples homes and clear out yucky energy also.

You may remember me talking a long while back about the Auravedic Astrology chart that I had done. ON it were the date of 2 May 08 for a year of extreme Spiritual Growth. That particular day was the day we landed in Fiji to begin the Oneness training. The 5 months since then has often been topsy turvy. Tough as. Yet growth there was also. I know now that though depression may pass into my body or my mind, I do not have to own it. I can sit with it and let it go. OR here is a better example.

The other day very early in the morning I was reluctant to get out of bed. It was cold and nice in the bed. Finally I decided to flip the covers back and jump up. Just as I was to flip the covers I had a passing thought fly through. "No, I want to stay in here it is nice in here." As soon as it happened I turned to that part of my thinking and asked, "where did that thought come from, let's follow it" My next thought was being born. I was born breach. and the thoughts of life then were "I want to stay in here it is nice and safe in here." I thanked the child I was then that I had that birth for the character that it had helped me to develop throughout my life. However, I have worked on these issues many times and knew that the source of this instance was further before then. I asked to see a previous life where I had made the decision to "not come out". I was shown a scene where I was deep in a cave or cellar. I do not know how I was convinced that I had to come out, but I choose to knowing that the outcome could not be good. I walked to the surface and immediately had both knees smashed then drug off for further torture. hmmmm good reason to stay under.... I blessed the person that I was for going through that experience. Sent love, forgiveness, and gratitude. . . . then released the whole issue and got out of bed much more easily than I have in quite a while.

Just these past week or so I have been feeling terror. Mostly with regards to selling advertising ha ha ha. Today during my traeger massage, I mentioned this to my therapist. When she got to my sacral area she screamed and it was all terrifying. She asked about my childhood. No, I said there may have been times of it, but it was more in previous lives. She came up with being tortured and tortured and knowing that there would be more and waiting in terror for the next time. As she was saying this I was giving thanks to the body that I was then for having had to go through it and forgiveness to those that gave it to me. I could feel the "terror" going and going and going.

For about a month, 3 months ago I kept telling people that I needed to get out of the house that I was living in. That living there was no longer good. My landlady beat me to it and told me to leave, ha ha ha. I have just moved 220 kilometer south west from Perth. For those of you that will read this that are not familiar with WA, there is one road that heads south from Perth into the SW. Some of it is still two lane. Not that it matters much. When heading south years ago, the saying was that once your were over the Mandurah bridge, you were SOUTH. Well, Mandurah isn't quite a suburb of Perth but many drive to Perth to work from Mandurah (60 k). Now, when you are south of Bunbury or west of Bunbury, you are finally SOUTH. That is another 100 k. Partly it is due to the intensity of the need to get away from Perth. It is like all these crazy drivers are so fixated with getting south that the drive to Bunbury is like a race course.

When I get through Bunbury and 10 k out through Gelorup the energy in the car opens up to feeling like the car has doubled in width.

Well, enough for now. Tomorrow starts 2 weeks of intense selling of advertising some how. The boss has been on her own sabatical further south for about 5-6 days. She returns tomorrow to learn of my sales successes..... or the lack thereof.

With the terror gone and with a clear understanding of my Oneness with the Universe I no longer feel that I HAVE GOT TO HAVE THIS JOB WITH CONSCIOUS LIVING. If I get fired, I will do other things.

Anyone wanting my new address.... you have my email let me hear from you.

Love to all of you.

peace

gene

oh, I forgot to tell you of my home. a 3 bedroom, 2 bath, just off of the ocean, 200 meters walk. 250/wk. I have a spare master bedroom for now. Possibly to rent or to share. No one significant in my life as yet. Starting to feel a bit "alone" like I am ready to start dating.

g

Time

2008-08-02T20:56:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Again my apologies for not writing sooner. Those of you close to me know a lot of why. I vaguely remember writing before I left for Fiji that life was full on and super spun out. If I had known then what I learned after Fiji I probably would have given up and laid down and passed over, ha ha ha.

Not that what has transpired has been bad. It has not. It is just that there is just so much going on. It is now like a hurricane inside of a silo. Spinning, spinning spinning. Nothing to put a foot against to work towards stability. Well, I coined the phrase a long time ago and it is correct to restate it again here. The only stability that I know is the everything is not stably. Or at least not as it seems.

Most of my adult life I have been making the statements that "I absolutely create my life, the good, the bad, the bloody heads, the riches, the people around me everything."

Well, I am questioning that now. Back in January or February, Isha did a healing on me to relieve the painful connections that I had against saying God, using God, anything God related. I do not yet understand what happened but, from that day onward I have been very comfortable saying God and working with God and Jesus and many other names of the great Powers of our known time.

The timing was perfect as I was about to go to Fiji and learn how to pass on the Oneness blessings through SRi Amma Bhagavan who are living Gods. so, had to shift for sure, ha ha ha.

Since returning. . .

1) lost my job
NO worries on that it all worked out fine.

2) broke off with a person that I thought was my best friend ever
That journey has been incredibly shattering to me. And it is still not quite over, but we will never have that level of friendship that we had before I went to Fiji.

3) shifted my whole idea of needing to do Oneness Blessing
I had thought before I left that this was to be my lifes work. I don't know what is, but, it is not Oneness.

4) Found work as a sales rep for conscious Living
this work has got to be God sent. It is perfect for me. I love to talk, I love emailing and the pay is great.

5) Just this week, the landlady has decided to kick me out of this fine place in 4 weeks time
But, she cannot do that as the Govt here says the minimum is 60 days. It is all a blessing as I have been wanting to leave here. This is a " 7 " place and given over to much meditation. I have been doing that. It is now time for me to find better digs. Not a 7 either. maybe another 5. Yet, the perfection of it all says to just stay open and let it flow. Because I surely do not understand the over view that God has for this life of mine.

6) the day after the boost, i learned that I had won 4 kg of yogurt per week from a great yogurt manufacturer
Yes, really 8 kg delivered every 2 weeks. I plan on giving the extra away either to the monastery or to friends.

7) wealth responsibility
I have realized that as I come into greater sums of income, I must be reverent to Source. And responsible in my actions with the money as well as my actions with the people around me. Money can be a great responsibility or a large headache or an opportunity wasted. I pray that I am up to the challenge and will work with great sums of income wisely.

So, that sums up the easy bits pretty well. The deeper part I will have to write tomorrow or later as I am growing quite weary and will probably meditate now.

peace to all of you

gene

Fiji Oneness Chap three

2008-06-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Sorry for the delay in getting this writing finished. Been a lot of processing going on.

Let's see, I left off talking about the return trip.

I had hopes that I could get back to Nadi and change my flight details and get to Perth in time for Isha's Oneness Sunday workshop. Alas, many many complications. The flight out of Savu Savu didn't happen as planned we left 2 hours late. Ahhhh tis an island community, ha ha ha. Then when I got to Nadi it was of course a Saturday and the airlines office was closed. ahhhh tis an island community, ha ha ha.

So, I just let it go. And interestingly enough it was just let go. No harbouring of OH DARN office not being open. No anger in any way. The idea was over and that was it. YEHAH something showing of the Oneness already.

I waited till another group came through and we got a taxi to the hotel. Changed clothes and headed walking into Nadi looking for ???? I have no idea what.

found an opp shop and bought a 100% silk shirt for $5. And another one of cotton for a friend. I walked the length of Nadi then back to the Airport to get supper. Supper at the airport was $10 and at the hotel it was $35. And the airport food tasted better too. then again I waited for a group heading back to the hotel and we got the bus this time. I got back to learn that there was a planned excursion to dinner out somewhere. Sounds good to me even if I have ate at least for the company.

The Australian coordinator Lisa found this place called elsies. Well, as it turned out it was L.C's, ha ha ha. Chinese restaurant. It was great. Some people left because it was chinese. There mistake. I worked my way around the 2 huge round tables that we shared and gave everyone a neck and shoulder massage. then was invited to have a quine water yummy. ended up sharing in the meal as it was enough to feed 3 of me after I was finished.

All the return flights went smooth. I was picked up at the Airport in Perth by my visiting friend Lynda May, driving Ity Bity. I let her drive. I was a bit nackered and she was used to driving by then.

The next morning I got up early to go to work. Rode the bike in. Got all set up for the day and came around the corner to the break room when I met the leading hand. He says, "OH, Gene, ahhh we don't need you anymore, ahh you were fired last week, didn't anyone tell you?" I just cracked up laughing. If it had happened the week that I left with all the stress of having to buy my tickets again I would have gone to the funny farm.

I ended up getting two days work unloading a ship of armaments. Since then nothing with ReadyWorkforce. I have managed well though. Also, since I had company this allowed me time to visit and that was good. It allowed me time to visit, but not to process. Once Lynda headed out for the rest of her journey around the world the processing really started to take place.

also unknown to me at the time (only found out 2 days ago) Mercury had gone retrograde which means basically that Life sucks. The previous moon cycle had been about creation/manifestation and this one was about difficulties.

About five days ago realization hit me while I was listening to a CD of "The Secret" to take time to write down what I was thinking. "Life sucks, I am scrapping the bottom of the barrel of life, no money, no ideas, no direction, no passion, no inspiration, no motivation" hmmmm not good thoughts

then I wrote down what I was feeling which was pretty much the same. Hmmmmm not good thoughts.

then I wrote a list of all the friends that I have. Just as I finished it, one of them calls in tears and sobbing. I ask her," do you need to come for a visit?" blurmmm yes blurmmnn, ha ha ha.

By the time she got there I was well and truly pulling me up by the boot straps and getting wired.

I had figured out that I have spent the last 35 - 40 years working on taming the angry Gene into a nice, quiet, calm, peaceful being. Hmmmm one that has cob webs growing around him. hmmmmm too quiet for me.

So, I have decided to create a new Gene for the next 60 - 80 years that is WIRED, Highly Energized, Happy, filled with Joy, healthy beyond comparison, Financially stable to the extreme. YEHAH!

I got Traci energized then went to meet with another friend on the list. Both ended up at my place for supper. There were a few more tears, and uplifting of each other. We all are working on creating beings of happiness.

I have been working for about a week with Patricia Hamilton of Conscious Living Magazine and Expo selling booth spaces for the coming Expo. The first few days was cold calling. The after about 3 days calls started coming back in. I had sold 3 booths by the weekend. Today is Wednesday (late) and today alone I sold 4. I have yet to receive a check, however it will be a nice one.

So, the secret of, "the Secret" is that the information is grouped to just keep pounding you until you get it, get it, get it, get it, get it, get it, Got it? ha ha ha.

Well, I can tell you that I have not been all UP. There are still moments of yuck, yet I am catching myself and keep turning the energy in the better direction. I cannot say that I have any inspiration as to my direction in life yet, however, I can say that wiht my positive outlook on life, that I will probably be able to recognize is more easily.

Best wishes to all

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Fiji Oneness Chap two

2008-05-15T08:56:00.002+08:00

hello everyone,

Last night, Wednesday was my first public appearance with a largish group. Friend Isha has on going Wednesday evenings and I was able to Give Deeksha to over 20 people. It was great.

Now, to Fiji.

The days were full. This was not a vacation. If I got up at the crack of light I could get in about an hour or 2's worth of exercise. Else, there was not other time until 1 or 2 AM. Sunup was around 6:15. Our first meeting was at 8:30 usually though sometimes earlier. We would meet for a Kundalini Yoga with Guru Singh. This was really good. Then we would do breathing exercise/meditations with one of the Dasa's. Next was breakfast and meet again at 10:30. This session would often go until 4 - 5 - 6. then break for supper and lunch then return until 10 -11. When the Chef had beautiful meals waiting for us.

The Chef and many of the Fijian Staff were getting Deeksha every day. The food was AWESOME.

I cannot tell you every bit of every day. Only the gist of the program with some highlights.

Basically we came to see how and why we suffer. To exist is to Suffer. Straight out of Buddhism. If you got a body and it is breathing, you will have suffereing. Thing is that while we exisit and have suffering, most people are not suffering for what is. Most people will suffer regarding a perception of what is. There is what exists and then there is our perception of that. Say it is a rainy day. For some they will say, "wow isn't it great it is raining." Others, "Oh bugger it's raining". So the reality is only that the earth is wetting itself and the people have different perceptions of what is going on.

We have a different perception of every interaction with every person, every feeling, every thought, every belief, every emotion. Our whole world is a world of perceptions of what is. . . . not staying just with the "what is". So, to alter our suffering all we need to do is to alter our perception of a situation. The main thing with this is to not get caught up in the flow of how we have perceived things in the past. Take time to observe our own reactions to a situation and the other person's reactions to a situation. Do you like the present outcome? Then start working on changing the perceptions from your own point of view.

Realize that during all of this in any relationship with anyone, that generally speaking we all wish to "BE SOMEBODY" and we all wish, "TO WIN". Again, taking time in conversation to observe those needs in others and your own self will start your journey to shift your perceptions.

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The Ego cannot be pushed into submission. You cannot say, "My ego will be reduced now." Well, you can say it, however the ego only takes over and helps you to submit the ego all the while being the ego that is doing the submitting.

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Depending on the attitude of your parents at the time of your conception will show up in your life as whether or not you have "motivation" in your life. The time in the womb is how much of a struggle your life will hold. Birth is whether or not you have "hope or No Hope". The first week after birth will determine whether there is joy in success. Not if you have success or not only whether you have joy in that success or joy in life at all.

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Your relationship with your Mother and Father are the basis of your entire life. If you had/have difficulties with your Mother you will have difficulties in all personal relationships. If you had/have difficulties with your Father you will have difficulties with money/success.

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All of these difficulties can be lessened or removed with Oneness Blessing. The Oneness Blessings, take away the charge of the situation. I kept wondering what the heck is a "charge" when I first heard all this. It is easier to describe now after having had the process. Think of someone that you are having a difficult time with. . . . that feeling that swarms over your body is the charge. If you were to read in a book about some mundane situation that was going on and it had no affect on your body that is no charge. Now it is difficult if not impossible to imagine thinking of the first situation with the second's effect. Believe me as well as you can. Oneness Blessings with the intent that these situations are shifted will do just that.

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Prior to our receiving the Oneness Blessing that has the intention of allowing us to become Givers, the Dasa's have a Hoven (fire ceremony) to give. It lasts about an hour. The day was very very cloudy as were many of the days while we were in Fiji. This helped hold the temperature down and the humidity up. So, they had plan A was to hold the ceremony out on the grassy lawn in front of the Meditation Hall. They also had a Plan B. just in case.

After the morning session and lunch out of the way, about 20 of us went on a journey to a local water fall. It was great. 3 pools the first is the main water fall and while it was not deep enough for really swimming we were not there for swimming but to get under the water fall. Water falls energy is one of Negative Ions which are very cleanzing for the body. We didn't have much time and had to hurry, more the pity on that, ha ha ha. I did manage to escape the crowd and get into all three pools. The last is quite deep.

When we returned to the lodge it was fairly evident that we were going to have to go to Plan B. We were all escorted down to Namale which we learned is a World Class resort near the Oneness UniverCity Fiji Campus. they had an outdoor covered area that we could all sit in. Considering that there were around 50 of us it takes a bit of space. And the centre is for the Dasa's and all their kit. I took a cushion and sat near the edge of the platform with the jungle about 2 meters away. the rain started just after we all got there. Just a nice gentle soothing cleanzing rain. There was a bit of wind and there was some difficulty getting the fire started with the wind blowing.

The Lead Dasa started his chanting and during that another Dasa finally got a small fire going that was transferred to the main pot. The chants went on and on and were quite mesmerizing. Just as the Lead Dasa invoked the presence of Sri Amma Bhagavan the wind started HOWLING and the heavens opened up and it started POURING rain down HARD. For me it was a strong ommen of Sri Amma Bhagavan's prescence. It was truly an auspicious occurance and enjoyed by all, including the Dasa's who stated that they had never had that profound of an experience doing the Hoven.

There is more to tell, however, it is going to come out in bits and pieces.

There will be at least one more Blog for my return journey.

peace to all

gene

Fiji One, ha ha ha & Oneness

2008-05-14T17:21:00.002+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Well, here we go for another adventure. This time to Fiji for learning how to do the Oneness Blessing. I need to start on Monday of the week that I left. I had just returned from India and the Temple Opening if you remember.

On Monday evening I was talking with Lisa Cassetta our Australian liason for Oneness, when I discovered that my ticket to go to Sydney was for the wrong day. Seems that Flight Centre (read that &*^&%*%^) had rescheduled the trip and not told me specifically after specifically telling me when I could buy that ticket. Additional cost to reschedule the ticket: $204.

I was devastated, floored, flumaxed. i had a session with my friend Isha just after I got my ticket arranged. I think having been hit by a car would hurt less. Hmmmmm come to think of it I have been hit by a car. It was different and though the suffering from that lasted longer, this hurt more in many ways.

Tuesday Morning, I was talking with Jenny Bertram who was also going to Fiji with me only to learn that the return ticket also needed to be changed. Floored again only deeper as I was quickly running out of any funds that I had anywhere. Cost: $254. Now I knew that I could not eat any extra on the way to Savu Savu until I got there, and be extremely limited on being able to buy anything for anyone back here.

NOW, I need to jump to my return on Sunday 11 May for a few seconds only to take all of you to Monday Morning as I get ready to go to work. Rode to work like always. Clocked in, went hunting my work cart and it was moved. Finally found it. Then off with my water bottle to get water for the day. Met the boss along the way and he informed me, "Oh, Gene, we decided while you were gone that we no longer needed your services. So, you can leave NOW!" I got fired, ha ha ha, ain't it great.

Now, if that information would have been given to me before I left I would have probably gone over the edge. I found work that arvo with Friend Gavin who is a GRAND supporter of me. And ReadyWorkforce had a 2 day job starting on Tuesday.

OK Back to going to Fiji.

I was stressing quite a bit and feeling very unsure about the flights actually working as once I got to Sydney, I would be onto the Flight Centres program. And it just sucked so far! I took my thermarest with me and since I had a 7 hour lay over in Sydney went to sleep for 3 hours. then up and found the correct arrival desk and got myself on track again. The flight was good. Well fed we all arrived into Fiji in the arvo and were met and whisked off to the hotel. One of the Perth Ladies insisted that I eat and purchased supper for me. I am every thankful and am open to receiving, ha ha ha. My room mate took pity on me and left money behind for me to use for breakky. Thanks Terry.

Next Morning we are back at the airport and finally able to board our plane. It was a 9 seater and there were 10 of us. One got to sit in the co-piolets seat. The seat beside me the buckle to the seat belt would not latch and the plane was a float plane. We were going to land on the airport though. One hour flight got us into Savu Savu. The airport was smaller than my 2 car garage, ha ha ha. We were met by Staff from the Oneness University. Off we go. Our luggage was in the back of a ute. One interesting thing of note right off I noticed that painted in the middle of the highway was a huge car length arrow pointed out a curve ahead going to the left and sure enough 200 meters up the road here is a turn. I thought that this is much better placement than signs along the road.

Oneness U is on a fairly tall hill over looking the Pacific Ocean. Everything is brand spanking new. We were to be the first class through this resort. The meditation hall was pure Fijian tall and covered with Palm fronds. Anyone wishing pictures I will either send them or find a way to post them to a web site. The food hall was built along similar lines and though there were screens on the windows, the doors were always left open even when it rained. but, then again the buses here don't have side windows, just rolled up shade cloth. If it rains you get wet, then you dry and keep on going.

The dorm room were 2 twin beds to a room, with shower and toilet all nicely done. Porch out the back too. Everything was so fresh and new it was just awesome. There is a double swimming pool with the top pool cascading into the lower over a full length water fall.

Well, that is the campus. And though this is my first opportunity to write any information about the trip, tonight is Deeksha giving night and I have been up since 4:15 AM. I am off to take a nap for a bit.

Next will be bits and pieces of info about the workshop.

peace to all

gene

Devastated and Devastated again

2008-04-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

Hello All,

I was flying along happily in life over the weekend after returning from India. See previous 4 blogs (start from the beginning).

I was a bit concerned how my new feeling of touching into Oneness would be when I returned to work. Actually, it wasn't too bad. I was a bit tired yet work went smoothly.

Monday evening I called the Australian Coordinator for Oneness, Lisa to ask her about the venue. I do not know why we got onto what my tickets were for getting to Sydney, but it quickly came to light that I had a major problem. I was to arrive 24 hours after the rest of the crowd had departed Sydney.

The problem is based in many errors mostly in my opinion in working with and trusting Flight Centre. I was working with Mark Trim of Adelaide FC and had asked him specifically back in Late Feb or early March how soon I could buy my connecting flights from Perth to Sydney. He said the flight from Sydney would be in the arvo of 2 May so arrive earlly on 2 May would be fine.

I vaguely remember an email being put out saying something in the order of, "some people will need to change their schedule because of a plane change from Sydney to Nadi". I knew KNEW since I had been told directly by MT that I was not one of those, "some people". I didn't even pay it any attention.

I felt absolutely devastated, squashed, flattened all the abandonment issues of childhood came washing back in. Here I had paid nearly $5000 for a workshop that I was set to miss. Even as I write this and think about missing that plane I feel terror. And, the rough part would have been that I would have gotten there with not enough funds to even make it to Nadi on my own somehow. And, and and and and and and and. My stomach is sour even now as I write this.

Fortunately I had scheduled a session with Friend Isha and was able to get some body work and be received by a dear friend that really loves me. When I departed her home I departed with homemade soup and a couple of fruits as gifts.

I was very quiet at work on Tuesday. Tuesday evening I gave two massages to friends, and spirit energy started to rise as it will with friends. So, by bed time I was cruising along, hurt, but healthy. I was not attempting in any way to hide from my hurt. I was deeply feeling it as that is what we do in Oneness. To get to real Oneness we no longer hide from our pain, we feel it completely. It will go away.

So, flights changed and I told work that now I needed to leave on Wednesday evening rather than on Thursday evening.

Wednesday I am at work and again feeling a bit wired and excited. OH, I had an interesting conversation with Namrata a friend that is flying to Perth 8 May to stay here at my abode till I return and then some. We shared my pain for a bit then as is common Namrata told me that I could make that devastated feeling go away by tapping on it with EFT which she and I both do. I don't feel that I got my point across that in the new paridigm one doesn't hide from the pain of life. You live it deeply. If you are angry really feel that anger, In love, same really feel that love. In pain feel the pain, don't compartmentalize it like we usually do. Don't run from it, no hiding BE IT.

So, during morning break I called friend Jenny who is flying to Fiji tonight also. During the conversation it came out that the return trip was also &*()&*()_*(_) ed. We would not be able to come back to Perth in time for Isha's 11 May workshop. I now won't arrive until it is over. Flattened again.

I would like to write more. I have got to finish and pack and shower and get out of here.

Let's just say on one level . . . it is only money. I will be open to being invited for food when i return as the funds are greatly dimisihed now.

As for doing the Oneness . . . it works best when one can open up to their vunerableness. I am THERE in SPADES now, ha ha ha.

See you all for more updates when I return.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

India Chapter 4

2008-04-27T19:29:00.003+08:00

Please go to be beginning of this series, Chapter 1 down a bit.

This is odds and ends that I have remember since writing the other three chapters.

One thing that I am noticing is the perfection in all that has happened to me on my path to Fiji and the Oneness Blessing workshop. There is no accident that what took place in India worked out the way that it did. Because of my late decision to go, I had a cheaper fare than Isha and had to stay in a hotel. Because of staying in the Hotel, I was able to position myself into two Darshans. Also, then I had all the incredible trips back and forth from the Hotel. I was able to meet our Mr. Cool Monish that was our coordinator for getting people to/from the Deccan Plaza hotel. and our driver Deepak. I would work on looking them both up when I return. As well as Mohammad Moheesh the seller of the bowl that I bought.

And what of that incredible meeting of the Eagle eh?

Going through Singapore was interesting too. The last time I went I was at the Budget terminal and there is not much there. The main terminal is shaped much like the letter U. The base is terminal 1, the left is terminal 2 and the right is Terminal 3. In Terminal 2 are two huge Orchid gardens very well tended. My photos do not do them justice. In Terminal 3 you can buy a new Mac for a considerable discount. I could save close to $500 A by purchasing the next laptop as I pass through Singapore. I am just not sure that I can wait that long, ha ha ha. And anyone concerned about the plug being wrong needn't. The different country plugs slidi off of the main adapter and are interchangable with the main body.

There is a lounge at the corner of Terminal 1 and 2 where you can get a shower and a bed. The beds are not that great and there is a lot of noise in the surrounding area. Or, you can pay a fair bit more for a bed in a hotel for 4 hours of privacy.

Next time that I go through Singapore though I will attempt to contact a woman that I know through the Buddhist society that works for Singapore Airlines and see if I can get a tour of downtown. There is a free bus service and my layover was for 7 hours going up. Only about 3 returning and the nap time cut me close for getting on the plane.

Remember how I lightly mentioned about all the horn honking? On the rear of all the trucks, Tatas and many other vehicles it says in very large letters, "SOUND HORN". And of course everyone does. It is to indicate to the driver that someone wishes to pass. With all the noise I really don't know how anyone would hear the horn though. For me walking on the street, I found that after just 3 days, I paid little attention to the horns honking all over. There are just so many that it is an incesstant noise.

I was fortunate to observe some construction going on. Therre was a large stack of hand made bricks across from the hotel. I would guess that it was close to my height of 6'5" and covered about 2 meters square. There were two women that would approach the stack and a man would hand them a brick that they placed length ways on their head. Then they were handed two bricks that they then put cross ways on top of the previous one. Then two more and two more after that then one more that they could barely reach into place. Off they would then go walking with their hands at their sides, balancing this stack. When they moved bags of sand, same thing onto the head it went. Off they would go with a straight spine. The men would take the bags of sand and put them on one shoulder and walk off with spine all askew. Hmmmm me thinks that the women were onto something. Though I bet that they have been doing this for years and have quite the strong neck muscles.

Another interesting bit that I noticed and others commented on it too. Everyone that we saw was CLEAN and wearing very bright CLEAN clothes. With this population and water scarce even here I really don't know how they kept so clean.

Oh yeah. As we were leaving the Newman Camput I observed many people pointing their Digital cameras up into the night sky and taking pictures. I asked Moria what they were doing. Oh, you have not noticed? Noticed What? When you take a picture here you will get energy balls in the picture. Well, it took me a couple of settings before I found one that would work. Seems that there is so much energy in the area that taking a picture of the night sky you come up with what looks like water on the lens of the camera when you took the snapshot. Now having worked with Friend Gavin Grieve here in Perth and the Americana Leadership College, I also know that everyone has the Spirit beings around them that appear as white energy balls. Hmmm I must ask him what he thinks of this. My pictures once I got home were a dismal success. Isha says that she has a couple of shots that are great and will be emailing them to me to see if I can get them to print. Mine printed mostly black ink and a lot of it ha ha ha. Though one did show through.

One of the most moving times for me was just prior to going for the second Darshan when we were all crammed like sardines in a can at the gate. First off someone urged us to form 2 single lines, yeah right. Then they told us that we were not allowed to bring our shoes out of the gate, hmmmm. Ever tried to take off shoes when you cannot even see you feet due to the crush of people? With the help of a couple of others I got mine off and into my book bag. Then someone nearer to the front than I started the Moola mantra. It was quickly and quietly taken up by about 300 voices singing in quiet reverence prepatory to seeing Sri Amma Bhagavan. It was errie and awesome at the same time. Here it is in caps and broken down phonetically:

Ommmmmmmmmm

SAT CHIT ANANDA PARA BRAHMA

PURUSHO THAMA PARA MA TE MA

SRI BHAGAVATI SA ME THA

SRI BHAGAVATE NA MA HA

So the next question I will get is what does it all mean right?

Om - The primordial sound of the universe

Sat - Truth

Chit - Pure Consciousness

Ananda - Bliss

Parabrahama - The supreme creator

Purushothama - The energy which incarnates as an avatar to guide us.

Paramatma - The divinity present in every being

Sri Bhagavati - The female aspect of creation

Sametha - In communion with

Sri Bhagavate - The male aspect of creation

Namaha - Salutations

It is the opening mantra before the Oneness Givers start giving. It is also best used often before the Ananda or Dyana Meditations to really open up to the power of those two meditation mantras.

All day Saturday, when I was about doing my Saturday things of bike riding, getting food in for the week, cleaning the house etc. The Moola Mantra was humming through my head. I found it very difficult to push hard on the bike. My friend George will attest to that. I was willing to go about 10 kph slower than normal and not much else. George did most of the work as I was just unable to PUSH at all.

It is said of Oneness Blessing that it helps to stop the incessant chatter of the mind. My chatter has all gone for a while and is taken up by the Moola Mantra. I hope that stays that way for a very long time.

I have been very quiet this weekend. It has been good to allow me to process all that has happened. And there is so much more to happen just starting 5 nights from now as I go off to Fiji to learn the process. I feel much calmer than I was before I left and when I left I was doing calmness well, ha ha ha.

OH, for all that I ate in India, I have not gained any weight, yehah.

I will add more to this blog later. I had about 5 things that I wanted to say and have forgotten all of them, ha ha ha. Must be near bed time.

gene

India Chapter 3

2008-04-27T14:33:00.002+08:00

Please start from the beginning at Chapter 1

Wednesday morning I was up early for Breakky. The juice of the day was Papaya. I have since arriving home attempted to duplicate this awesome tasting juice with little success.

Everyone is still in some level of shock over the events of the previous day. Much of the information that I gave you was reported in the local newspaper.

I was hoping to find some souivener to bring home. I had walked the streets some, but felt uncomfortable going in and out of these small shops. There was a kiosk in the Hotel and I went in their to look at the shawls etc. My problem was that I didn't really need a shawl myself and could not think of who to buy one for. The Pashimina Shawls cost $10,000 R ($275 A) and the cheapest came to $5.56 A. Still, who to get one for. Finally I saw a singing bowl. I have been looking for one of these. He had two. He said that came from his family dating back 3-4 generations around 300 years old. Yeah right, I got a bridge to sell too.

I eventually purchased a 10 cm bowl that is about 4 mil thick. most all the bowls that I have ever seen tend to be fairly thin. This one is not and has a very nice sound to it too.

The word for today is that we are to go to Newman which is Sri Amma's Missionary school and Sri Amma Bhagavan are coming out from the Oneness University to let us sit with them for a bit.

Time of leaving has been changed to 14:00. I go back up to my room for some shuteye. When I wake I had left my window blinds open. . . I noticed movement and saw an Eagle sitting on the window sill. I had purchased a Digital camera before leaving Perth and the previous day played with it quite a bit. I eased up to the window and got many shots. finally since I could hear the bird Screeing, I decided to attempt the movie portion of the Digital ability. I got about 2 minutes of the Eagle calling out to something, somewhere. I can see a reflection of me in the window smiling ear to ear, ha ha ha.

Off we go to Newman. Once there we are fed into a medium sized room wtih 6 air cons running full tilt. We sit for about an hour waiting for what is next. I noticed a lady to my right not looking very well and encouraged her to lay down on the tile floor to rest. about 10 minutes later a group to the front starts chanting the Moola Mantra and everyone joins in. I have that recorded too. The recording is not as good as being there. Finally a Dasa comes in and gives us more info. Pretty much same as yesterday. Except that we weill be filed into another auditorium to meet wtih Sri Amma Bhagavan in 3 groups.

Eventually that happens. I am the last in of the third group. I had hoped to be the last in of group 2 and first in for group 3. Oh Well. As it turns out there were 3 more people latter than I. The last I encouraged to sit to my right where there was more room.

The curtains are opened and there they sat. Looking pretty much like they do in the many pictures that I have of them. Many people were moaning, giggling, swooning in their presence. I didn't feel that much I have to say.

After the curtains are closed, the last lady and I started to chat. Find out that she is from Burlington VT, fairly close to my friend up that way. I got her details to email to Elizabeth and Tara.

Out we go so that the next batch can come in. We westerners are much better behaved than the Indians of Yesterday. We stir for a while till our Guides find everyone and herd us off to the busses. Another interesting journey that I won't bore you with, ha ha ha. Back at the Hotel, I see Smitha the Asian lady that had gotten dizzy at Newman. I sit with her and a friend and they are wanting to know all that they can about my touch of Spiritually Guided Healing. They are off to a meeting and wish to give me a Deeksha. We could not find a good time, so decided to do it right then and there. Smitha's email address is 'iceheater' Her hands were so hot it was incredible. Her friend was no slouch either, ha ha ha. I had difficulty finishing supper before heading up to my room.

At Breakky on Friday morn, I met up with Kiwi Friend Kathleen. She tells me that a friend of hers on the Campus told her that all the Campus crowd was to be bussed to Newman today Friday. and that she and her friend Morea were heading out in a Taxi, did I wish to come??? YOU BETCHA!!!

Off to find out what time I need to check out, YIKES I have 15 minutes to pack and check out before we go. Whew! got it done. I stepped back into the Breakky room and saw Smitha. She told me that all at the table wished to have my healing. So, 6 quick healings then the restaurant people also wanted healing. I got another 4-5 of them before darting for the taxi.

Off we go in the Taxi. This fellow is much more cautious and it takes us quite a while to get there. As I am walking up the path I see Isha in front of me. I catch up with her for a few moments of conversation then head off with Kathleen and Morea to get near the gate as we have to leave asap after the Darshan. While waiting they decide to give Deeksha. I got 4 Deeksha before we got inside. It must have made a difference because this time when the Curtains were opened I had a real sense of the energy that Sri Bhagavan and Sri Amma were transmitting.

Afterwards I got 2 more Deeksha's. Later I was able to buy some photos of Sri Amma Bhagavan and a couple of books too. We got back to the hotel in time for Lunch and the crowd was mostly Indian now instead of mostly non-Indian. Later hanging out on the hotel lounges, the Koreans had returned from their tour and wished for more healing from me. After I requested Deeksha from them. I got 7 more Deeksha. We had been told here in Perth that a person ought to only recieve no more than 9 Deeksha in any one day.

Later at the Airport I received another 7 from the Chinese. I can say only that the trip home was unevenful and very peaceful for me, ha ha ha.

Well, there is my India trip in a nutshell. There is more, but, trivial and I may or may not add more later.

Best wishes to all of you.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

PS. I leave for Fiji and Level One of Oneness Blessing in this coming Thursday evening.

India Chapter 2

2008-04-27T14:01:00.004+08:00

Please do not read this blog before reading the Chapter 1.

The Dasa got up and took the mike. First off was to chant the Moola Mantra. (I will get it for you later)

Then he said: When we had discussed how many people were likely to show up for this Temple Opening we estimated there would be 200,000 people per day for 6 days for a total of 1.2 million people. We hired the largest crowd control company that we could get, not knowing ourselves how to deal with so many people.

The idea was that people would pass through the Temple and Sri Amma Bhagavan and all the people passing would place energy into the temple as the Golden Ball was placed into the Temple. Last night we had 45,000 gate crashers. (some of this information that I will relate now, I learned later) These people came through the fields, pushing through fences and disrupting the area greatly. They also, either climbed over our walls, or broke the walls down. Once at the Temple, doors were smashed in as well as windows.

This Tuesday Morning, we had a crowd of 500,000 people at the Temple. The first crowd into the Temple refused to leave easily. When they had gone the next also were refusing to leave. Outside, with 37 degree heat and water for 200,000 people were getting stressed. There was a stampede and 5 people were killed. The police and military were called in and they have taken over the Temple and are dragging people out of the Temple. We have put in a request that maybe tomorrow the people that have flown in from all over the world could be allowed into the Temple.

We were all shaken, crestfallen, saddened, in shock, disapointed, and many other terms. I sat in my sorrowness feeling very alone. I realized later that I could look at what was happening from two points of view. I could say that I had come up to see the temple and missed that the trip was stuffed. OR, I could view all of it that I had come to India for an adventure and the trip was Sensational. I choose to be in the attitude of the later.

One very important thing that happened while I was on the campus was the very clear knowingness of being separate from all these Oneness Givers. It was very clear to me that they were all "ONE" and that I was not one of them. There was nothing said ever by any of them about this separation as they felt me to be one with them. I however could not "FEEL" this same sensation as I have yet to go through the process. I was like the man walking in a white suit through the tar pit not getting dirty, or more appropriately, walking through Angel dust not getting dusty, ha ha ha. Mostly, I laid down on my ever trusty Thermarest and slept. The Deeksha energy flowing off all of these people was truly awesome. I could feel and sense that and being horizontal was the best option for me.

Then there was the return trip. I was happy to be in the same vehicle again. I trusted this driver. And, he had trusted me. Finally around 11:30 we are heading back. I was some tired, but not. Wired too. And, since it is night time trip back I choose to be very alert. One thing I realized quickly was that all the big trucks that I saw that night did NOT have any tail lights on. And that they drove fairly slowly like 30 - 40 kph. While we were attempting to get 60 80 or 100 kph. Also, that the on coming traffic never dimmed their headlights and ours were a bit off centre too. SO, the only way to "see" a lumbering truck was to look for a black hole. Now a Black hole in traffic is when you see headlights way up the road that disapear as you get closer. What caused the lights to disapear? Ahhh a big truck. And mostly they were not willing to give up the centre lane no matter how much a horn was laid upon. And they were smart not too. The outside lane could be blocked by something anywhere along the way. Many trucks were parked along the verge. However, too often a tired trucker not being able to find a spot to park, would just stop in the lane and park without any lights, signals, warning devises anything for oncoming traffic to be warned of his presence.

Another, device that made travel interesting was the police have these barricades that they would just put in the traffic flow slow traffic. Great, but they were not set up for being seen at night. ie not reflectors of any kind. The only way to see one was to notice traffic slowing, or if no traffic since we were first on site just really great awareness. And, through all of this everyone is jockying for best position. Most of the travellers would drive with one wheel well over the centre lane to be assured that if they needed to make a lane change that they already had their spot marked. And, there are still plenty of bicycles, ox carts, motorcycles, busses all going along dodging on both sides of the big trucks.

Somehow, somewhere, at some point that I was carefully observing we ended up in the oncomming lane of traffic. Next thing we are doing is facing all of these big trucks with blinding headlights, that are not willing to give up their lane. The driver started quicly flashing his headlights, high/low on/off to get thier attention. many people were coming at us passing other vehicles and had little space to go into themselves. It was quite Hairy for about 10 minutes. About 30 seconds into this part of the trip, I just calmly said to myself, " I give myself over to GOD. What ever happens, is God's will and I am OK with that."

Deepak the Driver, was very busy watching on comming traffic. I noticed the break in the concrete barrier and motioned to him that we could get through. He shouted back that he was ready and coming through. Yehah! we survived another heinous night of India traffic. When we got closer into the City of Chennai, I decided to count the trucks that we passed to see how many had tail lights. I saw one fuel tanker with a dim bulb way to the left side of the tank with no rear bumper. I saw 20 trucks without any tail lights. I did see one truck that passed us with lights and he was going so fast that he looked like a hot knife through butter.

We got back to the hotel around 1 am and supper was waiting for us. Me, I choose bed as I had found food at the Campus.

Enough for this day. Next chapter, next day.

peace

gene

India Chapter 1

2008-04-27T13:17:00.003+08:00

The lead up to my even going to India came about through the meeting of Sion Richard Windelov. He is now traveling through the US and I encourage everyone that can find him there to meet with him (www.sionone.com).

His journey started after a skiing accident in NZ where he came off of a 15 meter cliff and missed the snow landing in the rocks. His left knee crushed the left side of his face and L4 & L5 were crushed. He was in the Hospital for 2.5 months and could walk 10 paces by the time he left. The doctors told him that he would improve little.

Someone gave him a book about a young lad in South America who out walking alone fell and broke his arm. The lad noticed the energy shimmering off of the trees, animals and hills around him and asked that energy to please heal his arm. . . which happened intantly. Richard decided that he could do the same. He had helpers take him to the ocean and to the mountains. He did heal himself completely. Not only that time but he had three more major accidents before decideing that he didn't need to learn his lessons with pain.

He went on to become very Spiritual and has done many modalities. Read his web site for more info.

We met. When we hugged, there was a ball of electricity passing back and forth between us. I decided to take his workshop the next day Sunday. I cannot say that any one thing that he did during the workshop was highly powerful for me, yet, I was transformed in a way that I had not been prior to meeting with him.

I had a healing session with my friend Isha immediately after. When I walked in her door, she started laughing and giggling as she was able to see just how much I had shifted. For my part, laying on her massage table I was more relaxed than I had ever been in nearly 5 years of receiving massage from her. During the session, Isha just kept saying, "Gene, you have to go to India, you just have to go!" She said this again and again and again.

I was just starting to recover from purchasing my trip to Fiji to learn how to do the Oneness Blessing. So, I was pretty certain that there was no way that I could. I went home, called 2-3 friends to see if I could borrow some money. I ended up getting $500 from one friend and an offer of buying 8-10 massages off of me from another. I pulled it all together and by Wednesday had my ticket bought and my hotel paid for via CC.

I was on the same flight as two Deeksha givers, Hanns and Melinda. They were going up for the Temple opening and a Deeping following the ceremonies. It was good to have some one to visit with while hanging out in Singapore as we were there for 7 hours. I had checked the weather report and knew that India where we were going was running 25 degree nights and 35 - 38 day time temperatures with high humidity. When I left home in Perth it was 8.4 degrees. I took along wool socks and a thick vest for the trip to the airport, planes and return to home afterward.

Arrival in India was a wonderful rejuvinating 30 degrees and high humidity like home in Indiana in the dog days of August. This airport is definitely in a 3rd world country. It was much rougher than many that I had been in since last being in Russia in the mid 80's. All went well and we were met on our exit by the Travel One Group that would take us to our respective hotels. Every Hotel in Chennai was booked out for this event.

The only problem was that our driver didn't know where my hotel was located and that took a bit longer than I had hopped. The bed when I arrived was harder than my tile floor with my rug over it. Luckily I had brought along my Thermarest sleeping pad and chair frame. I put this under the bottom sheet and slept well.

The next morning schedule had us having breakky at 7-9 lunch at 11-12 and be gone by 13:00 hours heading for the Temple. Breakky consisted of many many many fine foods that I do not have the name for. I ate till I was stuffed of so many incredible flavors. Same thing for lunch except now were also added many salads and many many deserts.

During lunch the word was passed that we would be leaving at 15:00 hours instead of 13:00. We all knew something was up, just not what.

I was one of the first on this very nice bus with air-con. We watched others get onto much smaller busses that held about 15 people crowded in, and leave. We were having a mechanical difficulty. . . seems that our air compressor had decided to not be able to get up air and release the brakes. Two other vehicles were called. I eventually managed to get the shotgun seat up with the driver. This was great because it allowed me an awesome view to exprience India traffic.

I took a couple of videos and am still having difficulty figureing out how so many people are still alive after any daily venture onto Indian highways. There were lane divider lines, however, no one bothered paying much attention to these. On the 6 lane highway, our side having 3 lanes, often we would be 12 vehicles wide, with any combination of bicycles, scooter/motorcycles, 3 wheel tata's, 3 wheel bicyles carrying huge loads, huge busses both very new and ancient, semi-trucks, and people walking across, along, or against the flow anywhere in that flow. Also, occasionally there would be a cyclist coming against the flow on the inside lane, or a car/truch coming against the flow on the outside lane.

The driver, knowing that we were all running quite behind the rest of the crowd, was doing his level best to catch up. Everyone was weaving every which way possible to get ahead of everyone else. I started helping out by observing when the left of a vehicle was clear for a ways and would point for the driver to head that way. After a few times of warning him to not go or to go, he started to trust me. It was awesome great fun. I was just glad that he was driving not me.

Whenever we would come to a light, any crack, space, hole was instantly filled with something smaller than the cars, busses etc. Sort of like when you fill a jar with rocks, then smaller rocks, then sand, then water. The fill was men and women on bicycles, scooters, tata's, anything, everything. OH, I forgot the other two items of travel that I saw that could be anywhere along the way. People on horse back or an ox cart or carriage.

The previous night I had observed that most of the large trucks all kept to the inside lane and if we were to pass we would do so on the outside. The reason for this was that quite often the outside lane would be filled with something or someone and the trucks were just making it easier for themselves to get to their desinations.

The trip out was interesting seeing all the sights and sounds. For of course this is India not quiet Thailand. Everyone was honking their horns all the time. When any driver was physically himself past what ever they were passing they would immediately pull into the other persons lane. The only way to prevent an accident was then for that person to slow way down quickly and lay on their horn along with the passing driver laying on their horn too.

Have you ever walked through a busy mall when in a hurry? And how you get the gaps and flows as well as you can? This is driving in India only with many ton vehicles against people on bicycles and scooter etc. I don't know how it works so well, however, it did.

We had 3 stops on the way to the temple. 1) Driver check post 2) pay toll 3 ) cross the state line. Most everyone got out at this last one to wonder into the bushes to take a leak. This had been done many many times for many many years and the bushes were very well fertilized.

When we finally got to the turn off for the Temple, it was through another crowded town. Then down a badly rutted street that was also in the process of repair. when we got to the turn off for the Temple, we were waved away by the police and went on to the Oneness University Campus.

There we disembarked into the midst of all the rest of the travelers from all over the world. It was fully dark and the Temple could not be seen. There was a band stand and it was getting set up as we got there. The consensus was that soon there would be a message given to everyone from one of the Dasas (monks of Oneness University).

Finally one of the Dasas took the mike to let us know what was happening.

Well, good place to go for the next blog.

peace

gene

Off to the university

2008-03-02T17:59:00.003+08:00

Hello Friends,

Well, last evening I got off a quicky blog. Here is another.

After my return from Thailand I was without work for a few days. Supposedly there was this awesome position to be had that would be an easy bike ride towards the beach. Great pay etc etc etc. It never came through. I put out to Divine Grace that I start work on the following Wed. Back in early Feb. and ReadyWorkforce gave me a call for some interium work until this perfect job started.

I was to clear brush that had accumulated around this factory. The boss from over East was coming for a visit and they wanted to look pretty. Their groundsman had been put to work in the factory as they had gotten busier. so, I had 2 days to clean the place up. Well, it wasn't the hottest week we were to have for the month of Feb, but it was the hottest that we had had up to that point. I got permission to come to work at 6 am so to start the outside super in the Sun HOT jobs out of the way before it really got hot. Over all it still took 4 days to get the work done. At the end of the 4th day I went to see my friend Jon at ReadyWorkforce.

He bolted out of the office when he saw me coming through the window wanting to know what was wrong at the workplace???? I was startled and told him nothing was wrong, that the work was done and I was looking for more work. Well, lo and behold they decided that they liked my work style so much that they wished to hire me as a picker for the factory work and I would have on-going work at the same location. And a pay rise too.

So, now I am working almost exactly like I was at the IGA distribution, EXCEPT. I do everything at a snail's pace. No radio controlls, no seeing eye cameras watching my everymove. Friendly people that we actually take time to talk with one and the other. And, it is less than 2 k from my house. I ride to work every day. It take me about 6 minutes to get to/from work with the bike and about 10 minutes if I use the car.

I push a largish metal cart and pull orders for this company. It is Vinidex. They manufacture and re-sell all of everything regarding plastic PVC piping, telecommunications plastics tubing, joints, elbows and more stuff then I ever knew was available. Also, all of the everything that Telstra needs for their junction boxes (Ma Bell telephone of Australia). The biggest stuff I don't handle are some 45 Cm tubing that runs 20 meters long. I get the little stuff.

OK, so that is the work front. As some of you know, I am really getting into the Oneness Blessing movement. There is one evening per week that I attend, my massage therapist does Deeksha (Indian name for Oneness Blessing) and she also has every other weekend workshops. So, last week, from Thursday evening till Sunday evening I had had 14 times that I received the Oneness Blessing. Basically this shifts the individuals old patterns away from anger, emotional baggage, separateness from society. I have become a much calmer individual to say the least. I keep pointing people to look at the URL. Here it is again: http://www.onenessuniversity.org/oneness/cms/home/ You can learn much more here than anything that I can tell you at this time.

Though, I can tell you that I find it is my path for now.

About a year ago, Spirit channeled information to me that the path that I was on with the Spiritually Guided Healing was a great one and would really help out in my next life time Kharmically. Hmmm. I asked them what do you mean "next life time". They responded with the information that all the great Kharma that I was doing with this work though somewhat helpful for me now, would mostly be used in the next lifetimes. And that if I wished to work more toward the Buddhist concept of Enlightenment, that I needed to do different work.

So, I had already noticed that the healing was getting stronger, yet I was getting less clients and less people interested in learning how to do the work. Then life took an even more serious turn in that I truly felt . . . well there are several terms that come to mind: in an eddie (boating term), treading water, bidding my time, contemplating my navel, passing time, going nowhere . . . etc you get the idea. Life was on hold. So, again I asked Spirit, what's up.

Well, since you are so willing to do the work, and since you accomplished so much in this lifetime already there are a few other major things to work on. However, you got ahead of many of the people that you need to work with, so as you put it so nicely you are eddied out for a while. Sit quietly in this time, work, save money, sit quietly, meditate . . . the times are shifting for you to do something really great.

Well, over the last 2 years, I have been at 3 homes that have street numbers that add up to 7. This is for someone that needs to meditate, seeks quiet and studies. Well, after arriving at the third place, I have really restarted my meditation work. And since last November I got started in Oneness Blessing work. Around the first of the year, I felt that it was necessary for me to learn how to do the Oneness Blessing. I attempted to get into the last 21 day workshop in India, but never got a response from the emails that I sent. Then the program shifted to where now it is a 7 day process in Fiji. And, it costs less too. Before I left for India I sent off $450 for the application to go to Fiji and take the Oneness Blessing level one workshop. Just before I left I got the paperwork and filled out the app. And the day before I left I got the word that I was accepted. Then off to Thailand and somehow saving money too, ha ha ha. So, what did I do . . . ordered the new bike right, ha ha ha. Nothing like trusting the Universe to get me to Fiji.

The Oz Dollar to the US dollar was sluggish in early Feb. Last week we turned bullish and my friend Isha called and urged me to scrape the funds together and get my payment made. I called one client who had offered to forward me some funds if I needed help. On Tuesday he brought $200. I cleaned out my savings down to .91 cents, took all the cash I had on hand, and the borrowed and just was able to scrape the funds together to pay US $4395 for the workshop. Came all up to $4780 OZ. This is the largest payment I have ever made for something for personal growth. Afterwards I had $261 left in the checking account to live on for a week and rent yet to be made, ha ha ha. Wednesday evening a great friend/client came by and wanted 1 1/2 hour massage. That and some bits more cash made rent, yehah! (more on this meeting in the next blog)

Needless to say I still wished to continue with my weekly sessions with Isha so I pulled out a $100 to go with the few bits and bobs of cash that I had to get my session. When I got my reciept, something weird was going on, Bank said I only had $2.58 left though there is a balance of $158 showing. Oh well, another mystery for Monday to sort.

So, I have committed to my new path with virtually all the cash that I have to my name at this point. Oh of course the CC is near max. It has enough room left to pay for the airline ticket I hope, ha ha ha.

When I viualize my future as I do often, I have in the past always seen ideas just popping up everywhere and everywhich way. Now, there are ideas only for the short term. When I attempt to look long term all I sense is that I am sitting in a room that is farily bare of anything of note. Across the way there is an open door that I am approaching. The door is open and brilliant white light is showing through. What ever it is, it will start on 3 May when I get started into the Deeksha.

Many people leap into life with a life raft or some other safety net. It has never been my way. I can assure you that this life style has been stressful for all of my past wives and girlfriends. And, I suppose for my friends too.

Well, I am off to the Oneness University with no parachute.

YEHAH!!!!

Keep in touch

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

5 kilos lighter after Thailand and I am flying

2008-03-01T17:50:00.002+08:00

Hello friends,

I know its been a while. Much happening since I got back and I will hopefully write a bit over the next couple of days as we have a 3 day weekend here in Perth this weekend. Labour Day, YEHAH!

Thailand as most of you have read was a great excitement for me. I needed the rest after my last job which was a mind and matter bender of great import. The massages were awesome and the food . . . wow the food was so fresh and so cheap. Just walk out of the hotel where I was staying and walk up to the first street vendor and for less than or close to a dollar get a massive amount of fruit to eat and eat and eat. which is what I did every day. I did do some great fish meals too.

Now, the title to this blog says that I lost 5 kilos . . . well, that is a bit of a mis-nomer as it wasn't me that lost it, however, I no longer was carrying it either, ha ha ha. Before I left for Thailand I ordered a new bicycle. My first major purchase here in OZ, and the first new bike since about 1988. A lot has happened in that time. Shifting is well and truly off of the down tube, 10 speed cassets instead of 7 speeds. Smaller chain rings because of the tiny cassetts 11 tooth sprokets. And worst though was that I could no longer get my size bike. I ride a 66 x 58 and the closest that I could get was a 60 cm X around 58 cm. 3 inches smaller. Hubs have sealed bearings, Aluminium frame with carbon fibre forks and seat post.

So, the first ride was like coming out of a MACK truck into a Ferrari. The 5 kilos was the weight difference between my old steel frame hand me down from Jenny's Deceased Husband and the new bike.

So, the 5 kilos in and of themselves really helped. BUT, the weight diff in the tires and wheels make an awesome diff in going up hill or in a sprint. The shifting in my opinion can make a fast rider much faster and a poor rider a lot better. Where before I might shift once in 3-5 k over rolling terrain, now I am constantly shifting to get the optimal work out of the motor (me).

When my friend George saw the bike, he bemoaned the fact that now that I am lighter that he wouldn't be able to keep up. Well, neither of us are sure how, but the new bike has lifted both of our games a lot. We upped our average a full 2 kilometers for our Saturday morning rides. He is flying and that is truly awesome for a 75 year young man. We do have fun passing the young ones, he he he. Of course they often blow past us so fast we look like turtles spinning on the tops of their shells.

OK, this was just a quick one. More later this weekend. Off for an open house and free Oneness Blessings.

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

Bangkok 5

2008-02-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Another reason that I needed to delay the WHY of what I like about Thailand was that I needed to re-read the book and find the words, ha ha ha.

This information comes from the book, "Thailand Fever". The two words of Thai that I like are greeng-jai and naam-Jai. Greeng-jai is defined in the book as "the feeling of her parents" Though there is no material obligation in the Thai up-bringing, there is Kharmically. In Thailand, the parents come first. The family is a strong unit. Everyone thinks of what everyone else is up to and how they can help. I may be making this stronger than it is, however, believe me when I say that it is VERY strong. One of the major causes of breakup between Westerners and Thai is with the Westerner his parents are on their own and will stay that way. Hopefully, one of his siblings will come forth and do the dirty work to get Mum/Dad into a nursing home.

In Thailand, a girl may become a prostitute with appreciation from Mum/Dad in order to send most of her income home to Mum/Dad. Or a bar girl, or a massage therapist or or or any of lots of jobs depending on what education and opportunities have come her way. When Westerner meets the lovely Thai and the start the relationships in serious "we are getting married" no matter how much the lady says that she will not be sending money to her parents or that money is needed for her parents or someone else is taking care of her parents . . . . sooner or later, the Westerner ought to expect the Parents to move in with them and be cared for by the supposedly RICH westerner. Well, you can see that this could be a problem eh.

Now, 20 years ago if I would have been in that situation, well, I was the typical westerner. I lucked out in that my Father passed quickly, and my sister took the job of taking care of Mum. I was a coward in that department. And admitedly have not even given really great thanks to my sister for having done the work that she did. Hmmm soon. Probably right after I finish this blog.

Now, Naam-Jai is about flow. That all of life ought to flow . . . here is a paragraph from the book:

You could say everything starts with naam-jai, literally "juice of the heart" or "flow of the heart." While independence is at the core of a Westerner's self-esteem and image, Thais judge themselves and others in Thai society primarily based on the degree to which they show naam-jai. Naam-jai is "generosity" a desire to give one's time, resources, and attentiopn to othes just for the good feeling it generates in both. A person who shows naam-jai will not ask for money or any kind of payment in exchange for her generosity. The Thai will even feel uneasy accepting a payment that is offered for her generoxity, because this suggests that she did it for the payment in stead of good will. Thais also show naam-jai each time they show concern for another's welfare

When Thais show naam-jai, they will not expect a direct return from the person they have helped, but Thais do believe that generous thought will bring them a reward in the long run. This is partially influenced by Buddhism.

OK, where I saw Naam-Jai the most was in the how all the people of Thailand move around on the streets. They flow. Especially the cars. If car a is leaving a safety space in front of his vehicle someone else will WILL head for it. Everyone seems to be in a hurry, yet I never saw anyone stressed out because they couldn't get into some hole. Nor did I see anyone stressing if a hole was taken.

Someone explained it like this to me. "I am honoured to allow you into this space that is in front of my vehicle. I hope that it makes your day better. My reward will come later. I am not doing this looking for a reward however. I am not looking for anything except to help those around me have a better life. I am staying in awareness of how I affect everyone around me where ever I am"

Now, if everyone and I do mean, EVERYONE works through their day, through traffic, Congestion, walking, Grocery store shopping, EVERY instance of meeting anyone EVERYWHERE . . . all of life flows and there is no need of horn honking. Why would anyone ever need to honk if they were honoured to be able to make a space for the other person rather than demanding to have the space. AWESOME huh.

Steve, pointed out to me another interesting point. Thais live and breathe Buddhism (and Animism) They are not looking for conversations from Westerners about how Buddhist are they. It is imbued into their very cells. They don't know anything else. Ajhan Nannadhamo once told me that while he was a Monk in North East Thailand he was shown a Bible that was written in Thai for the purpose of converting Thai Buddhists to Christianity. In that book, Christ was the son of a King and was a Prince with lots of Wealth in his early years. Ahhhh Christianity ain't it great how they twist the truth to convert people. The reason for this was that the Buddha before becoming the Buddha was the son of a King etc.

OK. Well, not much more to say. I have exchanged address information with Yupaporn the Traditional Thai massage therapist. I am attempting now to get a letter translated. Then sent to see if we can mail back and forth. I will be advertising for a local tutor to is native Thai so that I can learn the language. Then we will see.

Currently the Big thing that is next is that I am off to Fiji to learn how to do the Oneness Blessing 2-10 May. Cost is over $6000 with air fare included. Airfares were cheaper, but timing was off. Our local cheapy airline ran 3 specials for Fiji starting in January for return flights for less than $700 with a few nights in Fiji. Well, now the flight will cost over $1000 by the looks of it. Oh well, ha ha ha.

I am doing, OK financially for this. However, I will be in the hole a few thousand and all saving wiped out. How important is this Oneness Blessing to me? Everything that I own and more. It is my future. It is my life.

After that. Then I will save up and return to Thailand to explore more. Both the land and by then I may be in conversation with Yupaporn and we will see what happens along those lines.

I will keep everyone informed as I have always done thorough this blog or in private emails.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Bangkok 4

2008-02-03T21:06:00.000+08:00

Hello Dear Ones,

The first day I arrived I had a snafu with the hotel. I had elected to come to Bangkok early in the morning and had told the Asiarooms.com that I wanted early check in which my receipt showed. Just because I had it on my receipt didn't mean that I could get the idea across to the hotel clerks. I slept for 4 hours on a 1 1/2 meter couch until I got my room. By that time I was no longer tired enough to really sleep. I went walk about around close to get toothpaste (remember they take away anything larger than 100 grms.) some drinking water, and food.

I chose a small clean looking, Thai restaurant that had a picture menu. Got some Basil fish rice combo. The servings are smaller and probably closer to the proper amount for anyone person to eat. I paid $4.30 (120 bht) for this incredibly delicious meal. Next when I returned to the hotel I saw that I could get Traditional Thai Massage in the hotel. I didn't really know if the price was fair for me or for the lady, but, preferred to get my first massage in the safety of the hotel. I scheduled it and returned to my room.

I suspect that some of you have had a TTM. It is a pressure and release massage with the client fully clothed or at least in some pajamas. What makes it very interesting is that the Massage Therapist uses their entire body to position the client or to work the client. First was a crossing of the toes and an attempt to push them to the floor. First the right foot over the left then the left over the right. Next was press and lift up the shin. then one leg is pushed out at a 45 degree angle with the lower leg tucked back in. The MT sits in this space and proceeds to work the inner thigh of the other leg. Taking particular attention to the tendon that is prominet when the other leg is also pushed out at a 45 degree angle. You can find this by just spreading your legs and finding this hard ridge of tendon running from your groin toward the knee.

At first it is press and let go with the heel of the hand. Then the elbow is used and is pressed very very firmly right up to the edge of the groin. Down about 4 inches and again down 4 inches and usually one more time and all repeated 3-4 times. Switch to the other leg same thing. then the MT with both legs spread like a frog on its belly, the MT presses and releases from the knee right up to the groin with less than an inch separating her hands.

Now you all know if you think about it that for us guys we have this wonderful dangly thingy hanging down the middle of the groin. it is getting more attention that it is used to. The cloth of the pj's are TIGHT and pressing TIGHTER. Now I have heard of one man bragging that he didn't get an erection. I really don't know how. However, please allow me to state that it is not a sexual erection. it is an energy erection. Happens quite frequently during massasges. Thing is to just relax and allow it to happen. ie, don't encourage it with your fantasies. And definitely don't attempt to grap the lady MT who probably is black belt something and anyway you go about it your are very exposed if she gets the least bit upset about a grab.

Every Thai Traditional massage therapist that I have ever had just smiles when the see the erection. It is very common. It comes and it goes and all is well.

From the inside of the leg they then get out of between your legs and take one leg and bend it from the hip across the other leg and proceed to work the outside of your leg with hands and elbows.

OH, forgot to mention. The touch is not light. It is like the are demons attempting to press all the goodness or yuckyness out of you, ha ha ha. I can take pretty deep massage and really enjoy it. However, about the 4 time that the MT presses on that groin tendon close to the crotch I am very ready for her to go somewhere else.

After the legs are the arms. hand presses and elbow. Elbow into the palm was awesome. Then your are turned over and pressed all up the calves, ham strings, buttocks, back and neck. Next you are turned over again. Asked to sit up and deep elbow work into the top of the traps and neck. Then the MT sits back against the wall, lays a pillow between her legs and you lay back against her where she can lay steaming hot towels on your forhead and later your neck. She washes the face and neck and proceeds to massage your face and neck while you are laying back comfortably. Then you sit up again and she does this thing where you lock your fingers behind your head, she lifts on your arms while standing with one foot on your quad and twists your body sideways. Another is to lift your arms over your head while putting her knees into your back. Then you are done, well done, truly done, YEHAH. 450 baht (I was getting 28 to 1)

Finally Steve and Nok show up the next day and STeve and I are off to his favorite place. 2 hours of reflexology, Traditional Thai, and some herbal ball pressed onto your body afterwards.

it wasn't good. The lady that I had was doing step for step what the lady that was working with Steve was doing. Like she was learning how with On Job Training.

The next day, Steve after a bit of prodding took me to another place that he had heard about. Owned by a Chinese lady. he found it by finding the one that did a bit of extra hanky panky work for extra pay and it was across the street. A huge dirty old looking building. I went in alone. NO one spoke english. Needed a sign on the door, English not spoken here!!! Still they know what I want. I am guided to take my shoes off and sit in a chair that looks like a shoe shine chair and put my feet into a wash basin. There a young lady has filled the basin with warm/cold water and uses a small scrubby brush to wash your feet. Next into some cloth slippers and guided to where the toilet is as a suggestion. Go in do my thing, come out and she is waiting. Guides me to a small room with a small single bed in it and a cloth curtain. There is a set of PJ's on the bed so I change and sit on the bed. A young girl walks in and hints that I am to lay down.

This one knew what she was doing and got me twisted up down, sideways, backwards and cleaned out really quick. I got her name as Goh, however, I needed to get her number to identify her for the next time. The next time was the next day and I thought that I got my message across to have work with Goh again. Nope. Who I thought looked like Goh I gave to STeve so that he could get a really great massage too. I took the sour looking angry woman that I ought to have said, "NO THANKS". I didn't quite get sick from her anger, but it was close. She would just leave and come back 5-10 minutes later and start up where she left off.

Meanwhile from STeve I hear yelps and yowls and conversations and we learn of the ladies number. . . 18. The next day I came in and got with #18. Then I had her for 7 more days. We developed a repoire. We have exchanged phone numbers, email addresses (though it is her sister's daughter that has the email) mail addresses. She has a desire to come to Australia. I told Steve 4-5 months ago to tell his lovely wife that under no circumstances do I want a Thai Wife!!!! Ha ha ha.

I will say at the time of this blog that Yupaporn I hope will become a friend. I have intention to communicate with her. I developed loads of respect for this woman and look forward to returning to Thailand for another massage or 10, ha ha ha.

During those 10 days of being in Bangkok, I was observing another interesting situation. We lived just off a 2 lane BUSY road. When I was dropped off on my first day from the airport traffic was virtually at a standstill. Other times it is roaring past and scooters and Dtut dtut's everywhere. This road lead to the 6 lane Sukumvit highway. I may have mentioned that the lane divider white lines are used casually as sort of guidelines???? sometimes the 3 lanes on our side of the divider was 4 vehicles wide not counting the scooters. Sometimes more then with scooters packed in between them. It looked like utter chaos. Yet it all flowed surprisingly smoothly. I attempted to take a movie picture of it with my phone from the back seat of a taxi. However my phone camera is only good for 30 seconds and you really need 3-4 mintues to get a real understanding of this incredible flow.

Now what was the most incredible is that in the 10 days that I was in Thail and I only heard two horns honk. Bangkok was LOUD compared to what I am used to, yet no horns anywhere, every. I hear that the rest of asia is not this way.

I couldn't figure out why until Steve pointed out a book to me called Thailand Fever. it is written by a Thai Woman and a Western man (not a couple) about the serious differences between the Thai and Western Cultures. It is a must for anyone that is considering going to Thailand. It is really great reading and will give all sorts of levels of understanding to anyone that is going there.

However, what I learned in that book I will tell you in the next blog. Tis late once more.

Peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Bangkok 3

2008-01-31T21:40:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,

Well, Nok and Steve finally got some sleep and we got a reasonably early start via Taxi for Wat Pho. Wat Pho is one of the more famous Wat's (Buddhist Temple/Hermitage) in Thailand for at least 2 reasons that I know of. It has the Laying Buddha that is . . . . I am guessing about 20 meters long and about 10 high. And it is the storage place of over a 1000 Buddhist Statues. And of these thousand I am not talking little bitty things that are an inch tall. Most that I saw were in the region of 5-6 feet tall and most are reported to be solid GOLD.

Entry was 100 Baht for Farrang's (Westerners). I just went to Wikpidia for verifications and found that my idea of the size was incorrect. 46 meters long and 15 tall. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wat_Pho There is a video that you can watch that does a bit of a walkabout.

The place is 80,000 sq meters. It is BIG. Do the video.

After we left Wat Pho, we were all hungry. So, we headed to the street vendors for some . . . what ever ones tastes allow. It is all available on the streets of Thailand. From eggs, fish, meat, vegies, fruit and many things that I didn't know what they were.

I did spy a vendor selling Coconuts for juice. I asked Steve if he had ever had fresh Coconut juice. His immediate Farrang statement was, "I don't like coconut.", I laughed and said we are not talking about eating dry old plastic packaged coconut here. We are talking about the vendor chopping off the top sticking in a straw and we get to drink the juice of the coconut that has not yet become milk. Then the best part is spooning out the innards. If the coconut is young enough this is a slimy opaque looking too much like runny snot that tastes absolutely awesome. My first taste was with Jenny in Honduras at the property that she owned there. I did get steve to try it. He was not duly impressed, however, he did try and that is really something for most Yanks to try something different.

Next was a noodle bar. I had had 2 coconuts and some fruit and am not impressed with the noodle bars. Steaming water, spices, a few vegies thrown in and meat that has been laying around a bit too long for my taste. Let alone that I had become vegetarian about 3 months ago. After we were all satisfied we had a long walk to the front entrance of the King's Palace. We had come out of Wat Pho at the back side of the Palace and needed to walk all the way around to the other side.

The King of Thailand is probably almost more revered that the Buddha. He has reigned for over 50 years. He has done well and the people of Thailand greatly love him and his wife. Nok said if the King declared that the following Tuesday everyone was to wear Yellow. Everyone would, in the entire country. Again go to the Wikipedia:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bhumibol_Adulyadej

Here we saw the Emerald Buddha. It may have been highly revered, however for me it was atop a huge dias and almost invisible to my naked jaded eye, ha ha ha. The building and the dias were greatly impressive. The buildings, temples within, many statues were all impressive.

For me the best part of the day was to be with my nephew, friend, brother Steve and his lovely wife Nok. Steve had once upon a time lived with me for a summer. at 19 he was a pain in my butt. 21 years on he is a lovely man, comfortable with who he is and his decision to marry into a different culture. We had many great conversations. Nok has considerable English picked up along the passage of her life. Sure there is the odd word that she needs to look up of figure out. Yet, Nok was very capable during a long disscussion that she and I had about Buddhist Monks in Thailand to get her point well and completely across to me. And to understand where I was coming from about Buddhist monks in Australia and hopefully the Forest Monks from Ajhan Mun's and Ajhan Cha's Forest Monastery traditions.

All of you that will read this as far as I know live in the Western 1st level countries, like Australia and USA. These countries have incredible support systems in place for those that choose to give their life over to meditation. The hospital system is in place to give them help when it is needed. Ambulances to carry them, safe conditions etc. In Thailand as far as I know there is no bottom line of support for the needy. Steve said that there were NO Ambulances. I saw a few very very few however.

So, in Thailand the Monks will accept money, cash, checks, gold, what ever for the Monastery and keep a cut for themselves. I felt pretty bad about this initially until I understood that there is no guarantee of any support from the public, the hospital system, the courts anything for that person that has chosen to become a monk. So, He/She needs to create some form of back up. I have yet to discuss this with Ajhan Bramvamso here in Perth and when I do I will pass on his thoughts and comments.

Until then. Gotta go to bed.

Next will be about Traditional Thai Massage

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

Bangkok 2

2008-01-28T11:28:00.000+08:00

Well, after a little sleep here at home, ready to write some more.

The trip from the NEW airport to the city I had been told takes about 1 hour. It is all 4 lane freeway. This was to be my first experience of transportation in Thailand. Everywhere in the world there are the lines on the highway. Well, in Thailand that are for mere guidance of an idea where a lane might ought to be.

I quickly noticed that there were hardly any old cars beyond maybe 10 - 15 years old. Mostly the cars were VERY new. So, I figured everyone would have some level of caution when driving, ha ha ha. then there are the millions of mopeds, scooters, motor cycles and later in the city 3 wheel thingys called tut tut I think or put puts. Someone will correct me I am sure.

Now as I mentioned this was a 4 lane freeway. then there is the shoulder, and most freeways lanes are much wider than needed right? Well all the freeway from lane wall to lane wall was in use. Not at high speeds, just at dead slow crawl speeds. Everyone working to find the hole that would get them further up the road sooner. I could go on and on about this, however, it is pointless. Imagine perhaps a very busy ant trail where the ants are crawling over each other to get to their destination . . . it felt like that at times. And the most amazing part was 1) no accidents 2) no horn honking 3) no anger or upsetness that a driver didn't get the "hole" they wanted. Much more on this concept several blogs from now as I finally learned why only the last 2-3 days of the trip.

When we dropped off the freeway it was to a very congested 6 lane highway Sukhumvit. Here it was crawling with buses belching smoke, trucks, cars, scooters, tut tuts, policement attempting to direct traffic and seemed utter chaos . . . yet it all flowed.

Finally to the hotel or at least as close as the driver could get. I had set it up for early arrival. Well, that is a mis-understood word in Thailand from what I learned later. After 4 hours of sleeping on a couch that was 1 1/2 meters long I was finally given a room. Seems that all rooms in the entire hotel have to be ready before any are made available. By then I couldn't sleep, or only fitfully.

I did a careful walk about to explore my immediate surroundings. Walking down the street and back the same way that I came. Shops everywhere, NOISE that already was driving me around the bend. The tut tut's seem to not have a muffler and the drivers cannot just let them idle having to rumpa rumpa the engine when ever they are stopped. Hundreds, thousands of people talking, luckily like I have mentioned no horns. I found a small store to buy some toothpaste and water. Later I ventured out to a restaurant that had a picture menue and ordered a nice meal for about $3.00.

I thought that Steve and Nok (rhyms with coke) where coming in 5 hours after me. Mixed communications. They came in around midnight.

I love to travel and see and do different things, yet I am a very cautious traveler. I needed Steve and Nok for guides to build my confidence. So, I stayed in my room mostly.

The next morning as I ventured out to see the world, I virtually bumped into Steve and Nok on the way to knock on my door.

Next adventure was the buffet breakfast. It was great. They didn't eat much, me, I had just paid $185 for a room, I ate all that I could. At the end, I observed Steve leaving a tip. I was shocked, what we gotta tip here. I have become Australian in that regard. It took me a while to be comfortable with a bit of tipping in Thailand. When I finally figured out how little they make and on what narrow margins they survive compared to my relative wealth, tipping became OK.

The next few days became a bit of a blur. Walks to the train station and rides to MBK a HUGE HUGE department store mall factory. My guess is that this place is about 7 stores tall, about 1/2 kilometer wide, and maybe a kilometer long. And unlike a western mall this one is CRAMMED with mini stalls sometimes not even 4 meter square. Selling everything that can be imagined. Our first adventure was to buy Sim cards for Nok's and my mobile phone so that we could contact each other. My sim card and about 30 minutes cost 200 Baht (about $7.15 OZ) Later a 111 minute upgrade of time cost me 100 BHT or about $3.60 OZ.

When Steve and I ventured back on the train, we got the wrong one. There are many layers of this sky train and getting on the wrong level as everyone knows that uses trains takes you places unplanned. Fortuanately he realized the mistake early and we retraced our ride to get in the proper level and back to Sukhumvit Soi 22 area.

Steve and Nok were tired as anyone traveling 1/2 way around the world would be. They went to nap early and wished to get up late (when i normally am in bed) to travel, visit, eat whatever. Mostly I slept at night LATE and still got up reasonably early for me to do my exercizes. And go for longer and longer walks exploring as I got braver.

I carried a business card of the establishment where we were staying to be able to find a taxi and return home, ha ha ha. The place we stayed was where Nok had lived when she lived/worked in Bangkok. I had a 5 floor walkup with a small balcony, fridge, TV with 60 channels {5 in english}, shower, toilet for $600 Baht a night ($21.43 OZ) it was always quiet there and cleaned every couple of days. The foyer was a tin covered communal area with 3 tv's on different channels, heavy wooden tables and chairs, piles of old newspapers in at least two languages, Rambo the incredibly friendly Rottwieler, and Grumpy (my name until he got a massage from me, ha ha ha) an Australia Shepard cross).

There was a steel slide door across the front about 5 meters in length with a small door to get in in the evenings. it was/is a great place to stay and I plan on returning there when/if I return to Thailand.

Next up will be the visit to Wat Pho and the King's Palace

See you all

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

Return Home From Thailand

2008-01-28T01:33:00.001+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Well, I am back from Thailand and again a changed person.

Now to answer the exactness of that last part will to be fair take a few blogs. Rather than one that will take a week to write, ha ha ha.

First there is the trip up, arriving, the hotel, the massages, the new hotel, walking and walking, the food, the people, the trips, the food, the sleeping, late night partying, the book, "Thai Fever", and starting to get a glimpse of understaning it all, the return . . . see way too much for one blog.

I had determined from an adventure a couple of years ago that it is not good to arrive into a strange city after dark. So, I scheduled myself through asiarooms.com into the suggested motel "Regency Park". Unfortuanately I had not read the email or maybe a previous one correctly and booked my entire stay at this hotel. I was supposed to stay here one night only. Instead I booked the full 10 days here at US $59 per night.

So after a couple of emails back and forth with my Nephew Steve, I emailed Asia Rooms again and cancelled 9 days at a cost of $125. So, one night ended up costing me $184. I was sort of in shock at many of the up front expenses that kept adding up. Getting my Tetnaus Shot and Typhoid was around $160. Mosquito repellent $16., Electric adapter $20 and there were a few others that I have forgetten now. Well, like paying rent for 3 weeks while gone and one extra . . . it all adds up to quite a chunk.

Finally, the day arrives of my departure. To arrive early in Bangkok, means leaving Perth late. 22:35. It costs a fair bit to get a Airport service to take me to the airport. And since I was leaving on a Wednesday evening most of my friends would be occupied at another friends "Oneness Blessings" so I didn't wish to ask them to take me. I set it up with my land lady to take me. That however seemed to turn into a drama as her van needed servicing and she didn't feel comfortable traveling after dark. Next, friend Jacqueline wished to take me to the airport and go to Isha's gig. Well, that is what eventuated and I put in for a very early drop off so that Jacqui could make it. Also, I figured that my airline would be open, I could get checked in and pass time walking around the airport.

Wellllll, I was to fly Tiger Airways. It is a fairly new air company to Perth and it is a budget airlines. So, of course they don't show up for check in until 1 1/2 hours before the flight, ha ha ha. I was first in line so, no worries.

Did my wondering, did some buying, and suddenly realized that, "Oh my Buddha" I forgot to bring the Thai Baht money that I had exchanged from home, duh! I bought $50 at the airport, 1 for 22 same as in Fremantle. Also, about that time I realized that I had my toothpaste container with me and that it was too large for the less than 100 grams limit. It became a tosser.

Once inside the immigration, and security lines, I purchased 3 600 ml bottles of water (forgetting that I couldn't take them all the way to Bangkok, ha ha ha.) I did a walk about to see what was purchaseable.

One interesting thing that I learned is that since this was an international flight, i could buy GSTax free inside this area at up to $900 total value of return products and not have to pay GST on my return. This may be aplicable to many of you that read this and you could find a savings this way. Mostly all that was available was booze or perfumes. I did purchase an Australia T-Shirt to give to Steve. and I found a picture book of Perth. I flipped through the pages and recognised many things, Hay St Mall, Freo Mkts, The Indiana Tea House, the Cottesloe coast line, to name only a few. It brought me close to tears as I realized that I really loved WA and wanted right then to return to WA . . . and I had not even left yet, ha ha ha.

I do not remember why, yet for some weird reason I had booked my seat into the last row of the airplane against the window. Now this is a budget airlines and there was not enough room for me to get my long legs into the seat and actually sit down. With legs splayed sideways I was able to squeeze in very uncomfortably. Eventually I traded seats with the little girl in the aisle. Then I lost my head rest and couldn't lay my head to sleep for the 5 hour flight YIKES! It was rugged to say the least.

Other than that mistake, I had a good flight to Singapore. At Singapore, check through was a breeze. If I had anything to declare, I went through one line, if not another and walked right on through after the immigration stamp. I then walked next door to the departure terminal. Now for those of you that fly into Singapore through use of the regular airlines . . . I have heard of the glory of the main Singapore terminal. I as mentioned was flying a budget airlines and at Singapore that means we landed at the Budget terminal. it was a huge warehouse, well lit and well airconditioned with one place to eat and the baggage counter, that was all. Once through Immigration and security, there was more available. Free internet, coffee shops etc. I took the time to reposition my long skinny legs for my return flight to Perth out of the rear seat into an Exit Aisle seat, YEHAH!

The flight to Bangkok was uneventful. I managed to get a whole row to myself with a simple request. Unfortunately the front row seat dividers didn't fold out of the way, bummer.

At Bangkok, Immigration and security was fairly fast. Then entering the outter regions I was assailed by the masses. The first first first is a group of people in my face offering taxi rides into the city for $1000 Baht. I didn't know what was fair, but didn't a lot of Baht on hand and mentioned that I needed to go on for more. This was misunderstood and the price was immediately dropped to 850, hmmmm very negotiable. Well, I took that amount because I just didn't want to hassle as I was very tired after my near sleepless journey. I got a front seat of a nearly brand new van with me as the only passenger. It was rush hour. In my quest to be early in daylight I put myself into Bangkok at the worst possible time of the day. It is normally a one hour drive, took 1 1/2 hours.

Now this drive is worth talking about and the hotel check in in my normal long winded way, so I am cutting this letter off for two reasons. One is that this blog is long enough and it is 3:20 AM and I need to sleep some.

Love you all

Best wishes

Peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Finally . . . a phone

2008-01-14T16:39:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone,

I decided today, Monday that rather than wait for my internet provider to call me, I would be proactive and call them.

I had played with getting my Voip phone up and couldn't. Well, lo and behold, along with all the other snafus, iinet had also changed my phone number and never told me.

My REAL new phone number is now 08 6468 4936. Now there is supposed to be an answering machine service attached to that. I will attempt it later.

Life could be very frustrating if I was not doing the Oneness Blessings. Since I am doing them, I know that all the frustrations that I am feeling are being brought up by the blessings for me to look at how I deal with the world.

I may have mentioned in my last blog that my credit card got used by someone. Then promptly cancelled too. And I am leaving for Thailand . . . . so they overnight express mailed a new one to me . . . . a week ago. it has yet to arrive. No card in the mail box saying to pick it up at a Post office, nothing. Now as I have just moved I didn't know where to find the post office. Seems that it could be at any of 4 different post offices that I need to chase after before I leave.

Now to me the message is clear that on this trip that I use the debit card that I have and though I may come back broke, I won't be in debt too.

Best part of all this lead up to Thailand as of this writing is that I have only one more day of work as the Picker.

YEHAH!!!

So, not much news just now. Life is crazy and it is ever more a greater and greater adventure.

Love to all of you

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

peace in the midst of chaos

2008-01-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone,

Well, I may have mentioned some that I was moving. Many I have found didn't get the message. And to make matters worse the phone number didn't come across to the new address. And the internet has been &*()^%&%^ a bit of a problem.

I called late in November to let iinet know that I was moving. I was advised to call later and give a more exact date as to when to stop the old phone number. Also, the lady told me of the Naked DSL where I didn't need to have a land line phone number. AWESOME as I wouldn't have to pay for that service that I didn't need.

So, I was notified that I had to have someone here at the new place on 5 December so the Telstra man could do his thing. Well, it took him longer than he planned but he got the phone line in to the Studio Apartment that I live in behind my land ladies home.

The next day I got a SMS from iinet saying that I was operational. That night I tried it and AND, it didn't work. It took me a couple of days to find time to make my first call. Since I had no access to any land line I used my mobile. And waited for about 30 minutes before making contact. OH WE ARE SORRY do they re-scheduled the telstra fellows. Seems that Naked DSL is so new that most don't know how to do the job right the first time. It cannot be a standard phone line.

Well about a week later I get another SMS saying it is operational, and AND, it isn't. This is around Christmas time so time gets weird. Then and then and then and then till now it is 8 January and I still am getting the run around. Now supposedly I will have an iinet Tech out to my home on Friday to fix the problem.

The last person that I talked with suggested that I take my modem to a friend's home and try using it to make sure that it is OK. I did that on Tuesday evening. I got everything set up and then my brain went outside to play with itself. I plugged the power cord from the borrowed home into my modem. Of course they are different in power supplies and it blew my modem. ha ha ha.

Many of you know that I am working closely with my Massage Therapist Healer, Isha doing the Oneness Blessing work. I will send you to an URL to check the process out:

http://www.onenessuniversity.org/oneness/cms/home/onenessblessing/

The work for me is totally transforming what ever it was that I might have thought that I was/am into a new lighter, brighter wiser person.

One major area of muck for me has been with Mother Issues. The only one that might know about them if she reads this would be my sister. And her own issues would be different than mine.

With Isha, I have been working on these issues for probably the last 4 sessions which would relate to receiving about 12- 18 Oneness blessings. After every session, I could feel profound differences within my makeup. However, I would say of those changes that "the body has had a profound shift" After yesterday's session, and after messing up the computer I was standing in my friends driveway prior to going home. I thought to myself, "I feel completely at peace. I have shifted dramatically." then I realized what I had said to myself . . . "I have shifted" rather than, " the body has shifted". For me that is profound.

I urge everyone to go to the web site that I listed and play around and do a bit of searching. YOU can receive Oneness blessing in your home town or very near by. The Oneness Blessing practitioners are growing by leaps and bounds in all countries of the world.

I too am going to learn how to do this wonderful technique. I have just received information that the workshop costs are approximately $4000 - $4500 US, not counting airfares.

Anyone interested in supporting me in this endeavor would be greatly appreciated.

I have a workshop on 2-3 February to teach the Spiritually Guided Healing. It appears to be full. If that is so, I will have about 1/2 of the needed funds. The workshop isn't until 4-12 April so I have time.

Peace and Love to all of you

gene

New bud blossoming

2007-12-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

I am now receiving lots of Deeksha or for the westerners Oneness Blessing. For more info just type either into Google.

My life is shifting dramatically in the direction of much much more meditation as it is time to move the body that I have to a higher consciousness. Spiritually, I am doing fine. It is another bit of knowledge that I have that each of our bodies, Mental, Spiritual, and Physical moves separately toward higher consciousness. My mental and spiritual sides have been getting moved for quite a few years. The physical side was taking the brunt of the work load of being human and or being busy with being human. The biggest part of that was in the hussle for income. As most of you know I have been self-employed for nearly 30 years, well more really, probably more like 40 years at various times of my existence.

The biggest longest period of time was when I became the itinerant massage therapist in the states. That attitude extended for several years when I first came to Australia too. As being self-employed meant to me that I was always "ON". Always on the lookout for how to make the next dollar. There were few casual conversations that I had for many years where I wasn't some how, way, shape or form figuring out how to get the next dollar. Even when I was working as the Fortran Programmer at Vulcraft in South Carolina, I was then self-employed at a Massage Therapist, and MLM marketing too. Then more MLM and Itinerant massage. It all paid ok. I did many fine adventures that I would never wish to give up.

Now, however, it is time to move upward and onward. With employment easily acquired I now have a steady flow of income. I do not need to hussle looking for clients for massage, healing or workshops. I do still love to teach and there is another SGH workshop 2-3 February. It will be interesting as by then I will have been calmed greatly by the Deeksha from Isha and being vegetarian for nearly 3 months, and just returning from Thailand for 12 days.

The reason for this blog is that I was thinking back over the past week since receiving the first of Isha's Deeksha work. I have calmed considerably. What I noticed was that the stress of having to be "ON" all the time has left me. I am comfortable now as an employee. Oh, sure it has its drawbacks. Time being much more precious now than I noticed the last times that I was employeed. It is worth it for the calmness.

When I was sitting in Isha's kitchen just prior to our next session I felt like the bud of a flower that is just getting ready to open. I am not the tiny bud that has a week or two to go. I am the bud that is just starting to open its green outer shell to let my colours show. And, this bud is not one that lasts only a day or two. Or even a week. This is the kind of bud that lasts years and years and years.

I have known from my Spirit guides that what I was was ending. All of my self-employment has been decreasing forcing me physically to go hunt employment. (Spirits help I am sure) My phone has not rung for 5 days, not once, not even for spam callers, ha ha ha

What Spirit showed me during the last Conscious Living Expo here in Perth is that I was like the ever hungry cattepilar that was eating to prepare for crawling into and creaing the cocoon. I am going into the cocoon stage now. For how long? We will see. I will keep all of you posted.

I am still doing massages. I am still doing healing. I am not chasing after the work though.

For those of you in the Perth area. Isha is doing the Deeksha for the next 3 Wednesday evenings($20) at Yoga Now in O'Connor and a whole day on Saturday 15 December ($100).

Love to all of you.

peace

gene

YEHAH!!! Deeksha and more Oneness Blessing

2007-12-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Well, I heard from Friend Jess in Germany that she is reading the blog so I have to continue on now for sure. ha ha ha.

Well, plenty of changes have been happening and I think that I have listed most of them. I am now working at IGA Distribution wharehouse in CAnning Vale for $20.92 / Hour. I can work Saturday's too, have not yet. Started driving a pallet jack picking orders. Had to do in excess of 100% to get the pay raise to where I am now. Got it the first week so all is well. Now I am doing Forklift driving. It is an electric stacker going up about 10 meters sometimes with a ton of material. this thing can turn on a dime and give twelve cents change, ha ha ha. We sit sideways to the flow of how we are driving and that is interesting.

Have now moved home 95% at least. Computer is still here at the old place. No phone connection at the new for about 3 weeks as I mentioned to most all in my email. Very excited about the new place as it is in White Gum Valley which for some reason just has incredible awesome energy.

I have started meditating again in a serious endeavor. As in getting up earlier than the 3 am starts that I now do so that I can meditate. And meditate after my return from work nap. Now most incredibly is that Isha has returned from learning the Deeksha and has a program laid out for me to do over the next several weeks. One thing that I am to do at least 3 times a week is a breathing technique that is helpful to get the Kundalini to rise. It is POWERFUL. The energy created is awesome.

I have sent out emails to many of you telling you about Isha's workshops coming up over the next 3 weeks. The next 3 Wednesday evenings at Yoga Now on Hines Rd. O'connor will have 2 Deeksha presentations for each attendee for only $20. Starts at 7:30 till 9. BE HERE OR REMAIN SQUARE!

The Oneness Blessing is a tool to help all of us to work toward better communication with our Spiritual Self.

The new place that I am moving to is about the size of a large 2 car garage. I have not all of my stuff there yet and it is quite a mess. It will shape up and lots will be tossed or Flea marketed.

OK, new address: 16 Sweetman St., White Gum Valley, Western Australia 6162, Australia new phone is 08 6262 5065. Mobile will work until the other starts 0427 989 895

Peace to all of you

gene

Life keeps

2007-11-11T10:50:00.000+08:00

Wow, I really did wish to say what life keeps, however, there were so many different ideas flying through my head that I just had to let it alone.

Hello Everyone,

Well, last you heard was the news about the Van was depressing. I spoke with the tire man and he will allow me to return the tires. So that is one option. Another is to take it to Dove Campers and see if they want it for the cost of tires, tags and rego. So, I stripped poor Sunshine and took her to David at Dove Campers. I left her there while David decides if it is worth the time and effort for him. That was on Friday early arvo.

Friday evening I picked up Jenny and we set off to Dhammloka Buddhist Society. Enroute many ideas were tossed around. Neither of us wishes to see the demise of Sunshine. Yet, I cannot see spending 3 -5000 dollars on
re-creating an old van (1978). Even if she is in good nick inside. Also, my real goal is to have a real upstanding bus rather than a bend over campervan.

Jenny is putting the word out to her email list to see if anyone is interested in doing the re-creation work. Currently Sunshine is sitting at David's.

Also, earlier on Friday I stopped here in Fremantle at Manna's Organic foods. I am working seriously on upgrading my diet. I saw on the notice board a 'Garden Studio To Let $140/ week'. I called on Saturday morning after my ride around the river with friend George. I set up to come and see the place at 4 Sat arvo. This woman is looking for a person of distinct qualities. "Mature Age (am I mature at 60???) Non-Smoking, meditative, AWARE person" YEHAH fits me to a T.

The place is quite small probably at one time a two car garage that has been tastefully converted. Largest Bath Tub that I have ever seen. Furnished but, I can switch some of my stuff in easily and rid myself of other stuff not needed. Short story of a normally windy person . . . . GOT IT! And, I don't need to take it until 1 Dec which is good because this place is rented until 12 December. Allows clean up at both places with Ease and Joy and Glory.

I am excited. And, with this I know that I am back where Spirit wishes me to be. Small place, Easy to take care of and not yet into a Bus. Also, really really interesting is that this will be my 3rd place in a row that the street number totals a 7.

7 = the residents seek solitude. Entertaining is an occasional planned event. Surprise visits are discouraged (not true). The interest is self-realization, knowledge accumulation, and spsiritual growth. even though it attracts loners, the house will be happy only if more than one person calls it home.

Well, into my 3rd place and still no partner on the horizon. And, I am not looking. Well, not seriously anyway.

Peace to all.

I will let you know what is up next.

Oh, Start a new job on Monday as a forky again at IGA warehouse.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

And the next 5 seconds will create what?

2007-11-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone.

Well, I probably ought to have started writing the spin of life about a week ago. So much has happened in the last 8 days.

Monday Evening I got fired off of the evening shift at Industrial Galvainzers.
Tuesday I started day shift and had many many people welcoming me to the day shift including the General Manager
Wednesday evening I got a call from my ReadyWorkforce boss, Jon who asked about work at IG. Then he tells me that the GM has called and requested that I not return at all. Fired again ha ha ha.

I had put in for 4 days off to do the Conscious Living Expo here in Perth a month ago. The GM didn't like that.

The Expo was extremely low customer turn out. Sunday was OK and I paid for the booth.

Monday Jenny brings by the Camper Van that I have inheritied as it got tagged by the Police as needing much repair.

Monday arvo the Dove Camper man said that it was worth repairing. I got Tires, windshield washer, points, plugs, tune up light.

Tuesday I ran it across the pits and I already knew that I would be knocked back as it wasn't ready yet. I got a 21 day extension and a warning that the ball joint was ready to go.

Thursday I just had a phone call to the Mechanic for the ball joint. Might be able to get one out of Japan in 6-8 weeks else none are available. The carburator is shot and we have had it rebuilt before $300. The engine is pissing oil $300 - $500. The Transmission is leaking too and rebuild is about $900. The brakes are shot and need complete everything $800. The LP needs to be certified and that is another $600. And at the end all that I would have is an old van.

Bugger it is depressing.

Well, my savings are still entact and I can go and buy a newer version from the Dove Camper man ha ha ha. Hmmm might be able to put the tires of the old onto the new one

Well, this is a short one.

blessing to all

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

Feelin good

2007-10-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Maybe, just maybe the tide is starting to turn. I have been working with a TCM Acupuncturist trained in China for 3 weeks. I went to him due to my continuing aches and pains since the broken fingers, the cold this winter, frustrations at work, life etc.

I told him that I knew in my heart that he could help me, however, he needed to tell me to come back until I was healthy. Not wait for me to leave for a month thinking that what he did for me didn't do any good. Well, after 3 weeks of once a week visits, I am starting to have some real changes happening. Friday back week I had taken 5 Panadeine 15 for one shift of work. I saw Dr. Lim on the following Saturday. that Monday I used only one for the shift and one to get to sleep. All week I only used a max of 2 per day.

Tuesday when I went to work I actually almost ran down the steps. Prior I had achingly stepped slowly from one to the next. I was amazed at the difference. I was even singing feeling really really lite and light.

Then late in the shift I allowed the radio controller for the Over Head Crane to slip from my fingers and go into the Hydrochloric Acid. Well, it floated. It died too. $3000 gone for the company. I was bereft.

Well, I didn't get fired. Wednesday though I was slower than on Tuesday. Thursday I felt powerful again. Friday is weird in that normally I leave home for work at about 12:45 and get home about 10:30 pm. Fridays I have to start at 11 and get off at 4:45. Then on Saturday I have to get up at 3:45 to get to work at 5 off at 11. So, to have any energy by Saturday noon is really something. I laid down for a nap and only slept for 30 minutes.

Then off to Fremantle to do some shopping and another appointment with Dr. Lim. Well, the Blood Pressure is up from 90/50 to 100/60 and like I said I am feeling pretty good. Oh, sure there are still plenty of aches and pains, but the energy is rising. Actually I am noticing old aches and pains that had been covered or masked by the more recent ones. I had a client coming over for a massage at 4 so had to hustle back to the car. Stopped in at the grocery and found my favorite Soy milk (Lush Chocolate) on sale for 1.99. bought 19 of them. And some new SAKATA rice crakers of whole meal without wheat still on sale (ends 4-11). quickly I head home.

As I am driving I am noticing that I feel really really great. That was when I started to wonder if the tide is finally turning on my life and my energy too.

And this is what else has been happening . . . I sent this to a friend and will repeat it here:

Well, the biggy right now is that I have figured out that I am an idealist. Probably sort of already knew that, just didn't admit to it. I believe that it is possible to set high standards of living my life and living in life and that others CAN do simple ethical, morally correct way of living and we can all work and live together happily. And be helping the environment at the same time. Here is an example.

At work we go through a lot of wire. Heavy wire big as pencil led in a wooden pencil. I mean we go through TONS of it per week. I don't mean tons as in just a lot. I mean tons as in 2-3 tons of steel wire every week. We have a special bin to place used wire, steel bands from loads and other steel tossed after a job. There are many wire bins around the property. Not many trash bins however. So, the lads though told weekly to not use the wire bins for trash have done so repeatedly to the point that the recycling company that used to pay us $90 / ton for wire has refused to take any more wire off of us due to the amount of trash that is in the bin.

Last weekend I spent 6 hours for an income of $198 to clean out the large storage bin used for wire. It was emptied this weekend to another recycler that will not pay us anything. This arvo I looked at the bin. It has been filled from all the small bins around the property. It is full I mean FULL of trash. Gloves, plastic shrink wrap, plastic strapping, cardboard boxes etc. What is wrong with these idiots?????

I could go on and on and on about the asinine behavior at work. WHY am I there? I wonder. OK OK I do have a few good reasons.

I am 2 weeks away from getting full time with a real company employment. I think that will give me immediate paid holidays, paid vacations, sick leave etc. Also, I have been accepted for a different position that will be clean, daytime, similar pay, nicer hours. 45 hours during the week with weekends and evenings free. It has been put off and put off and put off. Meanwhile I am continuing as the Pickler. I don't hate it. I am getting tired of it. And currently I am saving about $250 a week towards a goal of buying a camper van and living in it. Then I would have available over $500 a week toward the payments, upkeep, and creating more.

Do you remember my Moldavite? Lost it between forklift driving and taking this job. Remember the beautiful Labradorite? Lost it this week. Both of these stones cause major shifts in a persons life. Well life is settling down I must say.

SO, back to the now of writing this blog.

When I got home from the grocery I received a phone call from Patricia Hamilton owner/creator of Conscious Living Expo and Magazine. Whose show I will be at most of next week. http://woocomcampaigner.woocom.com.au/em/mail/view.php?id=387780462&k=bf7f319 Patricia advised me that she had shifted some space around at the show and gave me another booth so that now I have a 4 meter X 2 meter rather than the single that I was going to have this year.

Also, last evening my ex called wanting the phone number of the mechanic for her Camper van. Then she told me that after driving all the way around Australia and only 75 k from home the police pulled her over and inspected the van. Knocked it back as unsafe and she has to do major repairs to get in passed again all within two weeks. She is thinking it may have reached the end of its life. Hmmmmm I am thinking. If I could but it cheap from her, I could use the frig for the rig that I wish to create. And the stove and????? Then I started thinking that in reality I could fix it up perhaps and live in it this summer alone and save several thousand before winter hits again. So, I have sent off an email to her just in case of this possibility.

Therefore you now see the reason that I am wondering if the tide has turned. the thoughts came before Patricia called, so, we will see.

OH, and about 2 weeks ago while I was sleeping in one morning a lady called that I had taught SGH too 2 years ago requesing my address so that she could send me the balance of what she owed. YEHAH!!!! $265.

Best wishes to all

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Change is growth. What happens when the fuel runs out?

2007-10-24T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone,

I feel that my whole life has been based in change. When Jen and I first got together, one of the reasons that we did so from her part was my willingness to change what ever I was to what ever I might be. Jen and my life together was nearly constant awareness of change. Traveling the US, Traveling to Honduras, coming back to the states selling everything that I owned and coming to Australia.

Then once here about 3 years ago I saw a stone pendant that I purchase. Labradorite. It caused change in a person and or the situations around that person. Then about 18 months ago I bought some Moldavite. This stone exponentiates change. The two working together is like change on steroids and rocket fuel together. Well, the last couple of years have been major change again for me. Separation from Jen. Healing business slowing down down down. Fell through the roof at the last place and damaged my left wrist. 1 Feb this year off the bike and broke two fingers. Gone to work as a laborer and much more.

As I left the previous work place where I drove the forklift, I lost the Moldavite. I had had messages from Spirit to quit wearing it. I didn't listen. I lost it and understood.

Some time since Sunday past I have lost the Labradorite too. Again, I had messages from Spirit to stop wearing it, again I didn't listen.

So, now I am sitting in realization that these two stones that exponentiate change are gone. On the one hand I am devastated. On the other I can say that they were beautiful to wear and enjoyable to partake of while I was in their presence. Now they are gone and on with life. My assumption at this point is that I am sort of like a rocket that has run out of fuel. Exponentiated Change has stopped. Now I am gliding on empty. At some point in time I will normalze to what ever would be a balanced level of change for me.

I am open to that too.

Wait and see.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

its about time

2007-10-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmm, interesting thought as I wrote that header for this blog. I meant that it is about time that I got in gear and wrote another blog. Then again it is about time as I have just had a birthday too, ha ha ha.

Hello everyone, Hope that all of you are having a really awesome time where ever you may be.

Well, the lead up to my birthday was tremendous. I was so excited as it was to be a big one. One of those decade things. Can any of you that really have known me for a while imagine me, my beingness being 60. What an awesome number. So many years and years of living. All the places that I have been, the massages that I have done, the friends that I have met. When I had my last major accident near Atlanta and had the broken leg, if anyone would have said that I was to move to Australia I probably would have died laughing.

For this birthday I took the day off of work (-165.60), went to the Buddhist Monastery, with two friends, at Serpentine to give Dana (food and other offerings) to the monks (aprox 200). Enroute to the Monastery, I received a phone call and a very dear friend Siobhan called and sang me happy birthday WOW. I had been stockpiling food and things to take for about a month. I baked 6 pumpkin pies ($30) for my birthday. Two for work, Two for the monastery, One for my singing class, 1/2 made it to my good friend and incredible support person Gavin. I ate the other half ha ha ha. I didn't stay to hear happy birthday sung to me as I needed to get to work. Later that day I sent off the application for my divorce from Jenny ($405). Then that evening went to see the Cirque Du Soleil Veraki ($106.95) Again two friends opted to go to the Cirque with me. Two of us were sitting about 10 rows back right in the middle of the stage with an aisle leading up to us. The other had bought tickets later and was one row back and to the left. It was like the most perfect position for all of us for the whole show. it was an expensive day and well worth it. I mean how many times does anyone turn 60 in a life time? ha ha ha.

I had had other hopes and goals that just didn't manifest so this was the best that I could do. My sister turns 60 next year. . . . hmmmm maybe a visit is in order. Don't hold your breathe though.

An assessment is due. My weight on my birthday was 72 kilos. I am still standing the height that I was when I finally stopped growing at mid 20's of 6'5" (194.5 I think). I ride my bike on its trainer stand every morning for 30 minutes and stretch for another 30. I can bend at the waist and put my fists on the floor between my feet. I can still twist around and put my big toe of either foot against my forehead. That has slipped a bit as I used to able to chew on my toes till I was in my late forties.

In my run up to being 60 I have had a fair few accidents. I had a horse when i was a child. Purchased when I was 6 and he was 6. I lost count of being thrown off of him after 30 times. That is a lot of bruising. And that doesn't count the times that I almost got thrown or stomped or kicked, or bitten. I can see my sister reading this and smiling remembering old Charlie. She probably got tossed a few times too. He was a mean old fiesty fart, but did live to being 30 years old. Then there have been a few bicycle crashes. And the trees that fell on me when i was about 35, and the car that hit me in '97, and probably a few other incidents best forgotten, ohhh like falling out of the hay mow at a friends home, and off the top of the hay wagon, and out of a few trees, and a few punchups. Well, heck life is meant to be lived right? However, they don't tell the young ones that all those aches and pains come home to roost 30 - 40 -50 years later, OUCH.

So, yes as I have turned 60 there are a few aches and pains. Now a big part of the recipent list of this blog are my students of Spiritually Guided Healing. Well, guys and gals let me tell you. 1) the healing that you all sent when I got that lung crud this past winter was almost unbelievable even to me. I litterally could feel my bodies cells and energy changing minute by minute as all of you came on line to help out. I went from unable to move to thinking I could run a marathon in about 4 hours. Thank You Thank You Thank You.

As most of you know the last "accident" was my falling off the bicycle and breaking two fingers of my right hand. Well that is still a problem. I am typing this with both hands so that is a vast improvment. I work using my hands and there is some dexterity. However, when I wake in the morning my hand is a stiff claw. As I am riding my trainer I work it vigorously and get it all going for the day. An hour later when I move my hand it feels like every joint is filled with acid crystals. I am getting used to it. I seldome need pain medicine for it.

However, when at work I need my hand much more vigorously then simple typing. I have this **&^&%^%$$# control for the Over head Crane that take much button pressing to keep working. Seems that the wet environment is not conducive to a happy control. Sometimes I have to press the on switch 5-10 times then the "both" control switch 5-10 times then one of the single switches 5-10 times before checking to see if the thing will raise. If it does that is great. it usually doesn't and I have to go through the whole process again, and again, and again, and again and well you get the point. Sometimes I do this 10-15 times before it will work. Then it is good for one command and I have to do the whole thing again. This absolutely KILLS my hand. For this I take pain medication, and Salmon Oil, and Full Motion (GNLD), and Green Lip Mussle Extract, and and and it is quite the mouth full. And I get healing, and massages. It is slow to heal.

OK, finally 2) I have already mentioned that lifes falls and pit falls accumulate. Yeah that they do. My sister mailed me the PERFECT birthday card. Shows a dorky kid in front of a scary looking house. He says, "Getting older is like living in a haunted house." Before I opened it I already had an answer, "yeah, you never know what or where some weird unexplained pain is going to jump out of your body at you" Inside it said, "lots of noises and smells you just can't explain." Noises, yep got those. Well, I can't smell so don't know about them yet. no one is complaining, hmm there isn't anyone around to complain either ha ha ha

So, what I have unwillingly accepted is that at any awakening prior to starting the day, there is no guarantee of the amount of energy that I will actually have at the time that it is needed. And/or what amount of pain medicine I will need to take to accomplish any event that I still choose to do. Believe me, if you take a couple of Panadeine 15 prior to a bike ride you (or I) will fly, YEHAH. That and cup of coffee, wow I am young again, he he he. Then it take me a couple of days recovery. That is the pisser the recovery time. I can still keep up with the young ones at work, but, they are ready to do it all again the next day. me, I want a day off ha ha ha.

Also, I no longer help people move. I show up after the move with the meal. That is just as much appreciated believe me. I don't do hard labour either. I don't work fast, I work steady. I walk slower and enjoy the trip more. though I can move fast if I need too, however I feel stiff when I have to run. that was what bicycles were invented for.

Well, enough of my stuff. Hope to hear from some of you. I always love your letters and feedback. Some of you statesideres that get this email that know "the ol' man" remind him that he is younger than me, he he.

Come to think of it, the ol' man ought to write a book. This guy was by his own words to me many years ago, smoking 3-4 packs of cigaretts a day and a couch potatoe. The movie, "Breaking Away" comes out, he loves it, get a bicycle and wins the nationals like a year later. Proceeds to kick ass all up and down the East Coast of the states for YEARS. I always loved it when he raced as it was always a good show. Go David GO!!!!

Peace to all of you

gene

may you all be well and happy

Life changes and a dream

2007-09-16T20:14:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,

I have not been here for quite a while. I have my reasons. 1) I don't know if anyone is taking the time to read it as I have not heard from anyone, so why bother 2) I have been really busy 3) Twice now it has just diseapeared 4)It just feels like I am writing to empty space rather than too anyone 5) look at 3

I have had contact with a couple of friends that were confused by the fact that they thought that I was driving a forklift only to learn that I was controlling an over head crane.

The forklift job ended. I am now working for Industrial Galvanizers Corp at the Perth division. This is also a huge company from all over the world.

The first day I was pulling "bolts" from a stack and placing them into a rack that would hold them separately called a 'Pigeon Hole'. If you were to drill a hole to hang a picture, then plug in that little plastic bit prior to the screw, the part that is plastic these guys call the "bolt". Why I don't know. They are 2.4 meters long and weigh 2.5 kilos each. There are 150 to a stack and a normal night has at least 10 stacks to be galvanized. What they are used for is in the mining industry. A hole is drilled in the ceiling at least 2.4 meters deep. Then these "bolts" are driving into place and a "jap rod" is screwed into place.

After our lunch break I was asked by the boss to help him. I followed him on the forklift over to the "jigging" area. Here we work on a steel frame work that is suspended just over 2 meters up on steel frames. We use wire that is about the size of a pencil lead and wire off pieces of steel to it. Now these pieces can be 2" X 2" (the smallest I have seen" up to things that are well over 6 meters in length and only 1 or 2 are hung from the frame.

After the first night ( I am working second shift) I was exhausted. I walked into the hire agency that I work through the next morning and told Jon the hire man that I could not do this work as it was just tooooooo hard for me.

Well, as you may remember at the last job I was driving a forklift for 7.5 hours of an 8 hour shift. At this new one I drove for about 15 minutes the first day.

I asked him to find me something where as a forklift driver the worker was the forklift!!!! I also said that I would work out the week.

At the bell to start work I asked my boss, Rob, if I was to go back to the bolts. No, he said, I was going to be put on the tanks. Hmmmm, I thought do I really want to do this work? Is it beneficial for me to do this work? I quickly checked in with Spirit and was told firmly YES! ok, I will surrender to it.

In Galvanizing it is necessary to remove all the oil, rust and dirt prior to the actual galvanizing. That steel jig that I had worked with the night before is brought around to the end of a row of tanks. There it is picked off of the forklift by an over head crane and taken through the series prior to being dipped in the hot Zinc.

I was shown the system by Bill the leading hand. The crane is operated by a remote control that is wireless. It goes in three directions, East/West, North/South and up/down. It can actually do all 3 at once. So, the crane hooks are lowered to the jig and somehow manipulated into the hook openings. This can be a challenge as the hook openings can be 3 + meters in the air. Bill was quite adept and could use the control to position the hook into the eye. I just have hardly ever been successful at this method. I use a long iron "stick" to guide the hook once I get it close to the eye, and up switch it into place. Then the crane drags the jig off of the forks of the forklift and positions the jib above the tank of Caustic Soda. It is lowered into this tank and left to cook for a while. Meanwhile I am off with the crane to pull another jig and check to see if it is ready to come out of the Hydrochloric Acid. If it is I pick it up and move it to the tank of mostly water to rinse it off. I say mostly water because after enough jigs that have been in Hydrochloric Acid have been dipped to rinse this water is rather potent too. Also, the pigeon holes of bolts get washed in this water, so it is a mix of hydrochloric acid, caustic soda and water, yehah!!!

There is one tank of the caustic soda, one tank of stripper that is hydrochloric acid at a 5% solution, one long tank that can take two jigs or stuff that is VERY long, and one double wide tank that takes two jigs side by side, or very wide stuff. It also has at one end about 1/2 a length of a jig that can be used for other stuff that jigs. The long tank and wide tank are using 9% solution hydrochloric acid.

Once a jig is removed from the water I put it into the "flux" tank. From there it is the transfer crane operator's job to move it to the point where the dipper crane can get access to it.

Now since this is a process, I do not have much time to ever sit idle. As mentioned before there are those 10 jigs of bolts coming through on a shift as well as everything else. OH, the caustic soda tank can hold a jig and 2 pigeon hole jigs at the same time. With this job it is constant sorting out which jig was in first, is is ready, how soon can it be passed on down the line, get the next one out of the CS into the HA, unless it is the bolts which go through the stripper tank (it can hold 5 of these jigs), then into the belly of the wide tank (2 wide of pigeons). Our best night so far we did 41 dips or 41 jigs through the process. And that doesn't count that we fill up all the tanks before we leave for the night.

I LOVE IT. at the second break of the second day, Bill walks up to me and says, "I have never had anyone pick this up this fast." The next day the yard supervisor asked me where Bill was? I told him he was over there somewhere. He then asked, "are you running this part of the operation by yourself?" yes I told him. WOW, he said, you must be smart. he he he, I forgot to immediately ask for a raise.

2 weeks after this, I sat in an interview to become a dispatch officer in charge of all the galvanized material that would be shipped out of this plant. This position won't start until mid October at this writing. I am excited about this change. The OHC position sounds easy and in many ways it is. However, it is still quite difficult. The 'STUFF' that I mentioned is odd shaped sometimes very heavy steel that needs to be run through the system. I actually love this part best. It is my responsibility to get this stuff picked up safely and into the tank properly. To do this I use the chains that are stored on a chain rack. The lightest of these chains is larger than your little finger. The largest is larger than a big mans thumb joint. The largest that I use is a standard man's thumb joint. I am guessing that it weighs near 35 kilo (80 90 pounds) I have to lift it off the rack, drag it to the stuff, wrap it properly, lift the eye onto and off of the hooks. I am building muscles I can tell you that.

The other part of the job that is difficult is that it is night shift. I get off at 10PM. I often don't get into bed until 12 or sometimes later. I have learned that I cannot always do what I had hoped that I could do the next day. I am exhausted by the end of the week. The Friday shift starts at 11 and off at 4:30 without a lunch break. Australian standard is a 38 hour week. Thuraday night to Friday Morning is to Quick. Then there is the opportunity to work on Saturday for 6 hours starting at SIX AM. Thursday night I get to bed very early. Friday I am usually in bed by 7. And I get to bed as soon as I get home on Saturday. Saturday arvo and Sunday is used to catch up on sleep and I am ready to go back to work on Monday.

So, that is what is happening in my work world.

Dream world:

Friday night I had this dream:

I was in a subterrain area like under buildings, or in the basements of huge skyscraper buildings. Somehow I knew this. all of a sudden I was grabbed by Spirit Beings by my arms and forceably taken along. I tugged at them and knew that I could not free myself if I wanted to and I did not want too. I was completely happy being taken along through all of these subterrain areas. This went on for a while and I was thinking "COOL" being shown all these foundations of all of these buildings and that I was completely safe with Sprit taking me along. Then I was popped into the lobby of a very VERY swank hotel. Like the millionaires lobby of somewhere. I just knew that this was rags to riches time. Yet, I didn't know where I was, when I was or anything. I saw a group of what I assumed to be workers of the hotel having a smoko in an off side of this Lobby. I approached them with my hands in prayer position and told them, "I have been traveling a lot lately (Spirit taking me along) and when I do this "A LOT" I tend to forget where I am, ahhhh could you tell me where I am?" One of them popped up with the answer, "Perth Western Australia". Thanks you I said. However, wow I thought Spirit didn't take me very far. Next I asked them another question that I cannot now rememver what it was. One fellow started to answer me, but, I could not understand him. Another fellow over road him and started talking at the same time. I asked the second one to please butt out and please allow the first fellow to answer me. The first one got shy yet, I was patient. Meanwhile another one of them reached out and touched me on my left arm and asked, "Is your name Gene?" I said yes it was. He said, "Ah, please come with me I have a message for you . . . " I woke up ha ha ha

My interpretation is this:

Well, one of them is this. I have in life been working hard to get along. Spirit is with me. They are guiding me forceably along through some more of what is coming and will pop me out of it quickly and smoothly into a happier way of being here in Perth WA. So, it is for me to stay comfortable with who I am and Spirit is with me.

Also, I know from what my guids have been telling me that as I probably mentioned in my other blogs been eddied out for a while. In that time since returning from my over East trip, I have grown even more comfortable with who I am. I just before writing this returned from the 2007 EarthDance here in WA. I did the healing thing there. I did it for donations. I never even saw the money. I had fun. The entire time I just relaxed into having FUN. Doing the healing and letting what ever came up come up. I am making enough money at my night job that I didn't have to make any money so I could just relax into these two days.

I had just sprouted an exploded zit on my upper lip. Normally my vanity would have been weirded out by this. I didn't care. I am not looking for a female partner, I was not caring if I made any money, I just chilled out and allowed the weekend to be what ever it became.

It is a very good feeling just being me. Not attempting to be a "Healer" or a "man" or a "humanoid" or "Pleadian" or a "anything", just allowing what ever it is that I am to just be.

So, hoping that this letter finds some of you. And may you all at some point in your life be happy with who you are.

Love

Peace

gene

may you be well and happy

World Peace Meditation

2007-07-19T17:47:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

this past Tuesday, 17 July there was a set time of 7:11 here in Perth WA to sit and meditate for Peace. I started thinking about Peace, the World, and History as I remember it. The history of all peoples as far back as I can remember of what I have read in all countries, in all times has been one of some sort of mayhem, anger, greed, war, torment, and hatred. I cannot remember any group of peoples in any land that didn't in some way have some form of this. I have lightly heard that the Pagan's didn't have war tools, but have no proof in any of my firm memories.

So, what I was thinking all day Tuesday as I was contemplating sitting in meditation for world peace is that the nature of man is not that of peace. Natural order is one of Anger, Hatred, Greed, Theft, Torment and many other words to describe pain and suffering. Yet, in all peoples that I have thought about there are always a few that choose to not go this route. They choose the path of peace. Most in the past become the Spiritual people of any group.

There bugaboo is to not get so powerful from their meditations that they mis-use their power and/or mis-interpret power for ego.

That is not the direction of this blog.

What I realized is that for world peace to ever take a real stand, people as a whole need to know why being peaceful is a better alternative to being what comes natural. Those that desire peace need to show those that don't understand peace the splendors of being peaceful. Sleeping well at night, enjoying all moments of every day, no anger, no upsettedness, being happy just being, not needing to be better than anyone or anything, being happy with what I have rather than seeking more. Realizing the delusion of greed, that having more doesn't make me happier, it just makes me fear the loss more.

Currently Perth is going through a lot of torment in the schools by bullies. Really hard core adult level torture of fellow students level of bullying. Is it possible to show a bully the advantages of not bullying? Beating them wouldn't do any good, they would just want to get even. Where does the bullying start? Where does peace start? Always for both situations in education. The bullying starts in the home. Parents bully their kids all the time. I see it all the time when a parent stands over a child and demands them to do what they say to do this instant or else . . . . is bullying. I am bigger than you I am smarter than you, I am your parent, I know better, you are U&*() you lose!

So, the education needs to start with the parents. Why do parents bully? Most people explode when they are tired, or have been drinking alcohol, are scared of something, It is easier to explode to/at the little people around.

OK, so, We are not likely to stop the consumption of alcohol. Been there done that it never works. WE could encourage the population to go to bed a bit earlier and get more sleep. Yet they all fight to stay awake to watch some dumb movie about people being bullies to some other group of people. Well, WE are not going to be able to change the quality of the TV shows either. That to has been talked about for years unsuccessfully.

I am working now as a forklift driver. It affords me less free time. Yet it affords me more value for the time that I do have. I take a huge share of my time for personal satisfaction - Sleep, Stretching, Exercise, Massage and other forms of healing, the occasional coffee and movie, a rare meal out. In the midst of that also there is time found for meditation. I go to work in the mornings, my newest routine is to get in - change clothes, go to the office, make a pot of coffee and then take the time to stretch and meditate for a few minutes before drinking the cuppa.

So, all I have surmised here is that I walk the path of peace as a choice of my lifestyle. I observe most others for the most part not even realizing that there is a choice stumbling through life becoming the bully for others around them. The kids see the bullying and do what their parents do and the circle goes on.

The Buddha said the trouble of all people is Greed hatred and delusion. Delusion is interpreted as ignorance. Ignorance is not knowing that there is choices to be made.

Will there ever be world peace? I don't know. I do suspect that there will be pockets of peace in many places everywhere. There will be individuals that are peaceful at all costs that they can produce for themselves to remain peaceful.

Monday I needed to report a Truck Driver for driving his truck into a protective barrier that I had set up around my work area. It had already been agreed that the only person that could move a barrier was the person that set it up. It just so happened that the truck driver that did the incident was my favorite driver. I was not present when he drove into the barrier and caused it to be moved so that he could drive where he wanted to. So, it was a non-incident incident. yet, it could not be allowed to pass over.

All day long I wondered how the driver would take the report that he had been dobbed in. I played many scenarios through my head. None were nice. Through them all, I always had a smile on my face as the driver yelling at me exclaimed his anger over my actions. I have yet to see the driver since the report. I do not know of his response. I just hope that I can stay in peace when we do meet.

I have learned in my time of life that it is difficult if not impossible to force another to my point of view. However, it is much easier to live an exemplary life and allow others to observe and decide that they like what they see and choose to make changes to become more peaceful.

To all of you. I am not perfect. I am far from what ever perfect that there may be. I live my life as peaceful as I can. I observe the world around me and have found things that make me happy. I have found things that make me unhappy. I encourage my presence into those that make me happy and stay clear of those that don't make me happy.

I hope that all of you are pleased with what you have created of this life. If you are not. . . . the changes are just the next choice away.

Best wishes

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy

Electric Bill Savings galore!!!!

2007-07-12T20:51:00.000+08:00

Hey there friends,

OK I am on the stump once more about that good old Tesla's equipment and how it can help each of you. You have heard all the hype about saving your own skin from Positive Ions which are changed to Negative Ions with the Tesla's Electricity Stabilizer. And same for all the other equipment. I won't go into that. You will either get with the program or you won't. I only heal those that wish to be healed. Same with this equipment. You want it give me a call.

What I am going to tell you about though is the incredible savings that I am having on my electric bill this winter. I told all of you that I went out and bought the Fluro bulbs because they are supposed to be easier on the electric bill. Well, I am electricity saving in every way that I can. I have turned off the electric water heater except when I am about to use it which is about 3 times per week. Mostly I use my LP heated hot tub. But, as an added expense I heat my massage room with an expensive electric heater and an electric blanket on the table. And, I wash my one set of work clothes about 3 times per week AND dry them quickly with an electric dryer.

My electric bill was almost 1/3 less than the previous two months billing.

So, I am healthier, I have just a bit more in my pocket instead of the Electric company, and heaping my part of the world waste less electricity.

Call me some time 001 618 9337 3043 email geneshafer@iinet.net.au

One of the Webs geneshafer.com Tesla's of course

SpirituallyGuidedHealing.com Healing of course

Peace

gene

may you all be well and healthy

The vision lies

2007-07-10T20:53:00.000+08:00

hello everyone,

What that title means is that the vision that I had of myself is turning out to be a bit of a lie. The Vision? That of being forever capable of doing and doing and doing. Now I know that this body is approaching 60. YIKES! what a huge number. When did that all happen. Bloddy Hll! Over 1/2 century. Aargh!

Well, the mind thinks that we are only ehh 45 maybe younger.

And something that they don't tell you when you are younger or isn't realized is that all that fun, all those falls, all those trips down the stairs, flying off the back of the horse, car, truck, wagon, sled, falling out of the hay mow, tree, etc. All those bumps and bruises that I survived and thought YEHAH alive to go another day. Yeah all them. Now they come back to remind me. However, they don't seem to tell the same story. It's like they all wish to be told at the same time, cumulative you know. Like over thirty times flying off Ol Charlie my horse doesn't come up with the bruises, nor really the stiffness. More the weird sharp pain that shoots out of nowhere somewhere from hip to leg to foot. Or the creak in a foot that was NEVER ever there before.

I am not a walking ache. You know like a headache all over the body at once. I have had those too. That is not what is happening now. Now it is like that weird where did that come from sensation. Hey, everyone was really stoked about 7-7-7 right. That was the day my left knee started to go haywire. I wonder where the term haywire came into being that everyone sorta knows that it is like that cartoon of the clock coming apart with parts and pieces flying everywhere? Then again I remember the neighbor Leon Eaton's pile of saved hay baling wire all neatly stacked on shelves. Neatly that is until I tried to get just one piece out. Then it was like well haywire. All connected where it wasn't supposed to be and came out in one shelf full rather than one piece.

The knee feels like what ever was holding it together has gone away. It doesn't hurt so much as it just feels way too loose. And now I get all these weird clunks and chunk noises out of it. I am keeping it tightly wrapped and treating it as nicely as a forklift driver can. Unfortunately I am concerned that bike riding might be out of the question for a bit.

Had a friend drop by this evening pulling into the driveway before I even made it down the hall way after getting home. Told him about the knee and he has the man for me to see. You will all be posted.

Well, till the knee thing clears I will hang in carefully as a forky. then I think it will be time to move up north to the Pilbara and get a job in the mines.

peace to all

may you all be well and happy

gene

Diksha Healing? Uniting? we are all one?

2007-07-01T16:48:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

My dear friend Isha has been going to Diksha for a few weeks now. She mentioned to me that there was a double session on for this Sunday (today). I have had Diksha once while in Melbourne. That session was Very Profound and moving. And for me to "feel" anything from any other healer is Very Profound.

I do not know why (oh, Huelirhett just said, "yes you do". Huelirhett is my Guide.) OK, so let me restart or restate that. I strongly follow one of the many statements of the Buddha with regards to comparying me to anyone else. I am not better than, equal to, nor less than anyone, I am just different. However, one of those differences is that I have a very high, refined vibration. I do not know just exactly what that means, yet I suspect that I vibrate very close to Earth energies. Because of that I am extremely sensitive to energies that are not harmonious to me or to the Earth. Because of that is why I have gotten so deeply envolved with the Tesla's Technology. The personal pendant will move a person to the Earth energies and continue to shift as the Earth shifts. That really helps me to stay me. That is the me that is all of its own feelings without picking up so much stuff from everyone else.

When I had that first Diksha, my vibrations were lower than the giver and that which was transferred. I really felt something. The past couple of years has been one of tremendous growth for me. Not most of which I am fully clear about, yet growth none the less.

Today, I was open to what ever might happen. I know that I am sitting waiting for a shift to happen. I am idled out, treading water, in and eddy, whatever. I did have hopes of something really Earth shattering for me to happen. I generally don't like led meditations. That was part of the start up. I drifted off into my own meditation. That was really great. I did get into some deep states of meditation during the lead up to the Diksha and for a bit after. I felt no change whatsoever when the transferance was happening. Everyone had been told to bring pads to sleep on the floor after the transferance. I was not compelled to lay down at all. I just continued to sit meditation till everyone was asked to rise again.

Then lunch.

Then we did it all again. Again, nothing more than really great meditation energy. I asked Huelirhett what was going on? What he showed me was two tuning forks. If say one of the tuning forks has been designated "the Diksha Practitioner" and the other is a receiver of the Diksha. Now, if they are of the same tune/tone then when the giver gives it will only help the receiver vibrate at the level that they would anyway. So, my tuning today was ho hum of advancement. Yet, it was really great to be able to sit with so many really great people and have a great day of meditation.

I suspect that my friend Isha might say that I am full of it or myself with these past statements. Maybe I am. Yet this is my story for now and I am sticking too it until I learn differently.

Isha is off to India in November to learn the Diksha. it is $10,000 US. From Isha, I suspect that I will feel more. I trust Isha completely. I will let everyone know later on eh?

best wishes

Oh, please do not let my out come prevent any one from do the Diksha. It is called, "Transference of Grace".

may you all be well and happy

peace

gene

flat business as in road kill

2007-07-01T08:50:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Just wished to share a few thougths about my current lack of customers with the Healing. Spiritually Guided Healing is the most powerful form of healing that I have ever had the honour of working with. Yet, the number of clients has been reducing steadily for nearly two years.

I think I know at least one of the problems and I am not sure that I wish to compromise it. Most all healing modalities go with the flow of "God". God powered, Jesus this or that. And the second part is that all do touch. I do neither. The people, the clients have this false belief that both are necessary. OR, at least a majority of them. So, on the bell curve of potential customers I am getting the dregs. The ones strong enough to realize that all healing comes from Spirit by any name.

So, while I believe what my Guidance tells me that I, me this human manure producing bag doesn't need to touch the client, some one forgot to tell the client, ha ha ha.

I realized the other day that all things being equal I am ready to leave the earth plain. I have helped many people, I have students, I have had the opportunity to teach. Now I am just occupying space. I don't or I cannot see why I am still around. I will not commit suicide. I will wait to see what else I programed into this body before entering it. Its just that I don't see what it can be that is yet to come. Maybe the SGH business will reignite itself somehow, or I will meet the right person and get into another partnership that will get all rolling again.

I am Light unto myself. I am more and more knowing and understanding of much of the Buddhist Dhamma.

Go with Peace

may you be well and happy

gene

Funday everyday.

2007-06-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

I got this email from a friend. It was so great I asked her if I could put it out to all of you.

Best wishes

gene

Hi Gene,

I'm finding that knowing my number one value in life is really helping me to enjoy anything I do. I know of a lot of people who have health, family or sucess as their number one values (and know their top 10 so their decision making processes are much easier) but I have FUN!!

My number one value is FUN!! I know this may sound odd in this world where we are "supposed" to be sucessful or career oriented or whatever, and it still works for me!

I recently decided that I was allowed (I gave myself permission) to have fun at work. Not only did my productivity increase, but the clinic was also much easier to work in and the "difficult" workmates became tame pussycats!! I planned my own birthday celebrations (pole dancing followed by dinner and belly dancing!) and let go of the "I wonder if anyone is going to show up" and I had the best time ever and lots of friends showed up. In the past, most bailed at the last minute. Fun is contaigious!!

I was notified last Friday that I was successful in getting the promotion I applied for. I found out I came top of 10 people who applied and I spent yesterday in at the new job getting a hand-over from the lady who is leaving. I didn't panic (old pattern), didn't take it too seriously, I was just me being me enjoying myself and looking for how to do it with fun. I had a ball! I don't feel anxious about it now. I wont worry all night and get no sleep. I had fun, and will have fun because that is how I want things to be.

I'm finding I spend less energy debating decisions at the moment. I used to not make any because it took so long for me to make up my mind that I usually didn't make it up fast enough and would miss out, or I wouldn't do anything because I had talked myself out of it!!

My computer suddenly wouldn't let me access my emails. I spent over 2 hours over 2 nights trying to get to the bottom of the problem (unpaid bill from over 12 months ago I knew nothing about) to getting it fixed (it's paid now, how can I get you to turn on what you just turned off). I had been told 5 times that it was impossible for me to have my email back because it is impossible to have a cable internet account (mine) accessed through an ADSL line (mums where I am living) despite the fact that it was working that way for the last 6 months! I actually had fun with this process. I loved telling people that yes, it can be done, because it had been done!!

I'm finding so many people these days are so stuck inside their limiting beliefs that they cannot handle someone else doing something that may disprove their belief. I'm having fun busting out of mine! I celebrated my birthday for nearly a week!

I guess what I'm asking you to think about is what are your values? Most people don't know. If you do, and use them in decision making, it can really enhance what you do and gives more satisfaction with the journey.

I'm rambling again! I'm having fun listening to the sound of my new acrylic fingernails (a birthday present) hitting the keyboard! I'm still not used to them!

I hope things are going well for you and I'll talk with you soon

Love, Light and Laughter to you!

Jacque

Any comments to Jacque, let me know and I will forward them.

peace

gene

housemate time?

2007-06-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Been busy lately. Decided that it was time to not be broke. So, put out an advert to get a housemate. Only put out one and only got one call. She was to come by tonight, Tuesday. duh she forgot to call and cancel. Well, the house is really clean anyway. And my strong belief in Kharma says that she was not the correct person. Going to put up an ad at Nollamara Buddhist Society this Friday.

Along with the work toward changing of the funds, I decided to write to the employment agency to tell them that I need a seriously better paying job. Saw them on Friday with no results as yet. Monday the boss at Millennium came by and asked if I had purchased the Saturday paper? No why? Millennium had advertised for a position and he wanted me to have a copy so that I could apply. Hmmmmm interesting. So, I have done that.

In my current life time of being NOW. I stand more aware of the currents that are around me. To see the desire in me to have more change of what is current. . . house, income, status, friends, work etc and then to see the shifts happening shows the power of my mind in creating the possibilities. Work as I looked at it prior to applying for a postion was just a place to put in time as accurately as possibly to get time in grade until the next better position came along. Now, it looks like that might just be staying where I am. Yet, I will be probably one of many that would apply. I put in my cover letter all the training that I have already accomplished onsite. That ought to put me up a bit versus a new hire. However, there have been many people come through the place as hired forkies so maybe anyone of them could also apply and/or be interested. Time will tell.

Spent the last two weekends working with Bronwen and Richard learning more about Tesla's Innovative Technology. Then last evening went and did a house inspection. It was good that I did so too. I was able to feel and have it verified as to what I was feeling. Huge nice expensive home. Moblie phone tower within 2 kilometers, powerlines, train, underground water, Electric power substation 100 meters from home, Ley lines, and to top it all off just off of the corner of their bed was a VORTEX. It is a wonder that these people can even sleep or even have a chance to be healthy. And they got 3 kids in the messy soup too.

They are interested in a house kit, but have to wait for expenses to shift a bit.

Got Ity Bity tuned up today by friend Jacek. And he stayed for supper too. And I did a massage this evening. YEHAH life is moving on. Time for bed now.

Didn't say much this evening, yet I am happy to have some notes put down here.

peace to all

gene

prayers and prayers

2007-06-21T21:10:00.000+08:00

I just got one of those wonderful chain letters, you know, Do not break the chain .......

Anyway this one is to make a prayer and St. Theresa will help out:

REMEMBER to make a wish before you read the prayer. That's all you have
to do.

Well, I was just last week reading a quote from one of the Ajhan's Either Ajhan Chah or previous to him. Gave the book away so I can't check on it.

First I was thinking I would pray for happiness. That ought to cover health, wealthy, partner, success you know everything. But that quote jumped into my mind. "I so filled with Joy to know that there is no happiness." Bugger, He's right though. Everything eventually turns sour. The getting on with life is to realize that when life sucks that this too will change. Having lived a few years now I realize that I have had many times that I thought in the instance were happy. Lots of laughter, good friends, partner, money what ever. Its all gone.

So, what would a person pray for that realizes that there is no happiness. Success? Been there done that. It was serious hard work. Fighting all the time looking for the edge to really succeed. I have never quite gotten over the hump to really SUCCEED. Always the struggle, never the glory. OK, I have had relative success in many adventures. This healing thing that I am still sort of doing. Well, once a healer you can't exactly stop being a healer. Even if you don't have any clients eh? And I have many students. And many of the students use this method quite successfully. That all feels good. Yet, while the teaching was a blast and I really really love to teach spirituallity and healing, NOW right now as I sit here wondering how I am going to pay for the tax accountant to sort out my taxes this year. How to find enough money to pay the bills. How to find enough money to stay out of debt and many other problems. I am not a street person. I am just not cut out for it. yet the feeling is that it is just around the corner. YUCK. Maybe that is what I need to pray for that I never become a street person.

I get a picture of just enough success that I am hanging on by my fingernails and watching them break off as I go slipping down that slippery slope alone, sweating and in fear.

Well, honestly if it got that bad I would go to the monastery and join up. I know that it is my destiny to do that, yet I keep hoping that I can be "successful" before I decide to do that.

I thought that the Forky thing would pay out and get me ahead. It is just barely keeping my head above water. The thing in the news here was that average income is $60,000 per annum. If you have 8 people making $25,000 a year and one making $100,000 a year the average is $60,000. SUCKS big time. And I am one of many here in the 25,000 range. We are all having troubles. Food prices are going up. Rent is going up. Winter time.

Pray for success. . . . again? What is success? How is that determined? Or happiness for that matter. I know that I am living just as I am supposed to be living in a Spiritual way. Spiritual and broke, I don't believe that either. I like to think that I am in a waiting game for some thing that I have designed for my 60's. sure hope I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. Can't tell either.

Well, heck I am going to do the happiness/success prayer wish. Let you know in 10 years if it worked, ha ha ha.

peace

gene

Tesla's Tesla'a Tesla's

2007-06-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Went to a friend's place last night to show the Tesla's Home Kit. Once settle in, I got the Electric Stabilizer out of its package and clamped it onto the electric line to the microwave. Within seconds I started feeling waves of shivers passing through my body as the positive ions (bad for humans) were being changed in the entire home to negative ions (good for humans). My friend noticed that her headache was instantly gone. Then we both were tingling and shivering for about 4-5 minutes. Her partner also was noticing differences in the feeling of his own body. This was the most dramatic sensation that I have felt with the Electric Stablizer. They bought the entire kit.

Later I was describing how my life is currently going. When I listen to my Guides they have told me that prior to birth we all sit out and decide what we are hoping to work on in our life time. We decide who our parents are going to be, Existing parents have already decided who their children are going to be. OR, this is somehow done at the Spirit level that is within each of us as we are existing in the human body experience.

Now, as this entity is deciding on possibilities of what all might be accomplished in the life time there are at any one time many many options available for any age. So, just looking at being in the womb for instance. 1) being aborted 1a) not going full term 1b) major health problems while in the womb 1c) dying in the womb 2) being born healthy 2a) Cerebral Palsy 2b) cord around neck and suffocate before getting life 2c) abnormal body.

So, you can see how many choices there are before we even get the chance for a few good breathes. Many more options are created for all ages. If this gets accomplished then we can go and do that since it is a follow on. Then there is that and this and that and this while this and that and so on. Now sometimes while on our life path we sort of get ahead of the game. For instance when I was divorced from my 2nd wife and already looking for who was going to be with me from then on. . . I went for 5 years looking. I dated many. None were willing to go the distance. I also had many dry spells where no one was around. Then I started to consistently pull a certain Rune stone when ever I would ask the universe Where is my lady???? What it said was that I needed to stay within my beingness and wait on the will of heaven to unfold. What I understood this to mean was that whom ever there was that was supposed to be my partner as set up by Spirit (and us prior to encarnation) was not in a position to meet me as yet.

Along came 14 Feb 1997. I stated my undying love for a young lady and she to me. That night I had a dream. I dreamt that my partner and I had both been hit by a car while we were out riding. That traffic was not stopping. The first vehicle through was an old white car. The second was a black semi-tractor-trailer. and that I needed to crawl out into the traffic to get the cars to stop and help us. Well as many of you know that is basically what happened in real life on 15 Feb 1997. Now the next day, my friend Lee brought a present to me that was created by a friend of hers. I laughed about the gift and asked if I could call this friend to thank her. I did that and begged off after 5 minutes because I could not understand her Australian Accent over the telephone.

I kept pulling that same Rune for weeks and weeks and weeks. I traveled extensively that year even though I had gotten golden staph and needed additional surgery on my leg in November. While recovering from the final surgery, I was going through my lap top discarding unknown persons. I came across a woman's name that I just didn't recognise at all. I wrote her a letter. It turned out to be the lady that had made me the gift in the hospital. We started to email back and forth. Her husband had gone into secondaries with Cancer.

I kept pulling the same rune.

her husband died in May.

In late July the flavor of the emails started to change and we started serious flirting. We finally met 9-9-1998. We married 2 days after the 1 year anniversary of her late husband's death.

The waiting on the will of heaven was waiting for her late husband to die. Get it? Understand the flow of the universe?

Now, currently what ever is happening in my life, I am again needing to bide my time. I am not pulling the Runes. I know already that I would get this same Rune or one similar. I am edding out from my old flow of life. I am getting very grounded driving the forklifts. I am understanding a different way of existing too. One of fixed income with seemingly more going out than what is coming in. This is all due to the experiences that I have been fortunate to have in my past setting me up for some other great adventure to come. YEHAH life is great!!!!

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

dog sitting

2007-06-07T19:40:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone,

Not a lot to say tonight. Tired as. Been really busy at work. There is only so many tons that anyone can move in an hour. Did 6 containers today and one Road Tractor.

Been super windy here in WA for the last 3 days. We had a 43kph gust a couple of days ago and a 41 kph this morning early. Steady at around 15-25. Plays havoc with the mind all that whistling, creaking, groaning and paper flying. I quit riding the bike when the second day that the winds kept up. Not fun riding home into a 20kph wind after a long day.

Last weekend along with all the night people I visited friend Gavin. I have been working for Gavin off and on for at least a year now. Strong Back, weak mind stuff. He is building a 6X10 meter garage. Last weekend we painted the insides. This weekend I will go up and paint the outside while Gav is off to Darwin for Spiritual matters. Meanwhile I am Dog sitting his pooch, Cookie. Cookie is white, curly ShiatsuMaltise something. Gavin could tell me. Anywhay, cute as. Gavin bought him a warm jacket so he won't get cold while he is here. He is just absoultely gorgous in it. Cookie was very happy to see me tonight when I came home.

He is training me quickly too. This morning I scooped him up just after the alarm went off and put him outside to go toilet. He didn't even get off the stoop. Sat there and barked at me to be let back in, ha ha ha. I was running early so I took him for walk so he could mark the neighborhood. Then this evening after a bit of a run about in the back yard we went to do some shopping. I tied him to a rack outside the PO and asked him to just STAY. Wow, I don't think he moved at all while I was gone. Same at the produce store. Some people tried to engage him in conversation and he wouldn't have a bar of it.

He has found a couple of fav sleeping spots. One is just under the edge of my bed. I stepped on him returning from my own 3 am toilet run. The second is an IKEA chair that is just the right height for him to jump onto.

Not cold enough for me to need him in bed and I am not sure who would be warming whom.

Well, enough from me. I am off to an early bed.

peace

gene

may you be well and happy

Visitors again

2007-06-04T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hey everyone,

they came back last night again. Knocked on the door, demanding to be let in. I didn't even bother answering this time. I immediately called the Police. found out that they had been across the street somewhere harrassing a woman at her apartment. The police were supposedly in attendance at that address. Took them near 20 minutes to get to my place and that only after I placed the second (forth over all) call.

There were two again. I never saw the first bloke again. Just this white fella. Short Stocky, nice cut hair. He liked my hanging flowers and kept looking at them. Played with my hose for a bit. wondered if he was going to water them for me. Figured out this morning that he probably was just getting a drink. I could hear them talking about wanting to go somewhere and get something. They argued back and forth as to who was going to go. It got quiet and the white fella was still around so I guessed that the other had gone. I just kept waiting for the Police to show up. Didn't want to call again. Then the lights went out in the porch area. I figured that he had taken the light bulb out. NOT. He had switched the power off for the entire house. Found that out when I attempted to call the police and my phone wouldn't work. Had to use my mobile.

While I was talking with that officer the police arrived. The one on the phone said to go out and greet the police. Dumb me I didn't even think about where the blokes might be I just barged out. You know like and ostrich with its head in the sand doesn't see much. Didn't see anything so they must be gone. Tripped over the bloke sleeping in front of my car. That got me very motivated to run to the police car. They ran the other way and got him.

Then the deniles started flowing. "I'm at a friends house. I didn't turn the power off. He's my friend." He didn't have any id on him and was hauled off by the police.

Best wishes mate.

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy
and not have any late night callers.

Visitor's in the night

2007-06-03T20:29:00.000+08:00

Hello Everyone,

Well, sitting here sunday evening 8 PM watching Batman on the computer when I get a knock on the door. I never get anyone knocking on my door. NEVER. Least ways not after dark. Fortunately there is a movement sensor on the front door with a light. And a front living room window that looks out onto the front door. First I check there. some short darkskinned fellow. Not anyone that I know. I go to the door and ask who he is looking for. Some mumble. Ask again. Mumble again. Tell him he has the wrong place. He says, "No, I know I got the right place." He knocks again. I tell him to try the other house as he has the wrong place. He walks away.

Then he comes back. I reach over and call the police. You would think that the police would really be up on understanding people on the telephone. I had to say my name 3 times. And I always say my name and spell it immediately after. I still had to do it all 3 times. Amazing. So, gave a description as well as I could as the light isn't that great. When I look again the light is off and he is gone. But the police officer says that someone will be coming out to check.

I went into the kitchen and got a drink. The front light is on. NOT GOOD. I re call the police. This time it is a white fella. He kept talking to someone outside the lights. Tried to get into my car, the door and the window of the house. He did enjoy the plants that I have hanging. After about 10 minutes talking a play by play with the police (lady this time) he purposefully walks up to the door, opens the fly screen door and tries the front door. Then purposefully walks off. The police drove up within seconds of his walking away . . . . . . and . . . . missed him. I went out to greet them at the end of the drive way and told them he had just left. They did a walkabout with no results. I returned to the house and BATMAN. They have not as yet called to say hi de ho or anything. Wonder if I will get a call?

Good timing don't you think, watching Batman and getting strange knocks on the door he he he.

This morning early went to Dhammaloka to help out with the settup for Wesak. Cleaned one mirror in the toilet after using the facilities. Drank a cup of tea. Wasn't feeling good. Tried helping out with a lamp hanging and all it was was ' my idea is better than your idea and this isn't the way we did it last year, blah blah blah' I walked off.

I don't know. Maybe I am a misfit. As in I don't know how to get along with society in a social way. I don't know the questions to ask. I don't like most of the conversations.

I sat and watched the proceedings closer to the Dana Hall. helped where I could. Put paper napkins on paper plates. Waited for my friend Gavin to show up. He was supposed to be there at 9:30. It was closing in on 11 and I supposed that he had not been able to make it. I told him that I would have my phone on me and to call. Then he walked up. Been sitting at the main hall enjoying the lack of people.

We had a great and varied meal as is always available on weekends at Dhammaloka.

After I had planned on staying for the evening ceremonies. Ate toooooo much like I usually do. Went home and slept for 3 hours. Then much later BATman and you know the rest of the story.

best wishes to all

gene

weekends

2007-06-02T20:40:00.001+08:00

hello everyone,

It continues to amaze me as I observe life in this different lane. The difference is that after being self-employed for nearly 20 years of mostly working every weekend now they are free. Trouble is free to do what? I am not accustomed to having to find something to do on the weekend. That part was set. During the week I was always busy getting everything else ready for the work weekend.

Now there is work during the week, and blank for the weekend. Today I did a bike ride with friend George. Rode to his home and took off my Paniers. Then we rode around the river stopping at his home for a bite to eat, pick up the Paniers and go to Frematle to do some shopping. Got home to find a notice in the mail box that a package was waiting for me at the post office. I unloaded and took off. Some of the smaller post offices will be open for a few hours on Saturdays. YES. got my vitamin order. Came home, shower and started set up for a major project.

I have had this gore tex rain jacket for near 20 years. The zipper went this past week. This is my winter riding keep warm jacket. Gotta have that zipper. I stopped past the Spotlight (fabric store in OZ) and with the help of the attendent bought a red zipper of proper length, thread and a seam ripper.

After the shower I got out Jenny's sewing machine and started the project. I ripped out one seam but that half of the zipper was still attached. Felt a bit frustrated and KNEW that in this project calm was of utmost importance. I went to bed for an hour.

I carefully ripped out the other side of the zipper and it came free. I left both pieces attached at the top end to be sure that all would be fitted properly. Good thing as they were in differently on either side. I ended up having to re pin one whole side because I had it facing the wrong direction. Got it all well and truly sewed in place. Some of it is a bit grunge but it will last hopefully another 20 years.

Cleaned out the Cast Iron tub and replaced the water, washed the bike dirty from the few rains that we have had. Read a book and part of another washed the cycling clothes and got them dry on the line. Oh, the weather today was super. Tim Winton is a famous Fremantle area author. There is one book of his that I read a while back with a title something like, "The Eye, That Sky" About a kid that is going through life realizing that if no one else is watching that big all blue orb of the sky is. Reason that I bring this up is the Perth Sky is often just one big blue dome. . . . like the orb of the eye. It watches. There is seldom a cloud to be seen. Just absolutely clear blue. The only other place that I have ever seen such blueness is around Salida Colorado in the spring time. The air in both places is so clean and clear it is like a fresh washed . . . . . . . . . glass with no water marks. Just the clear blue as far as the eye can behold in any and all directions.

Tomorrow is Wesak Celebration. That is the. . . THE celebration of Buddhism. Celebrates the birth, Enlightenment, and death of the Buddha. Which being the master that he was he did all on a full moon in May.

Here are some great URL's

http://www.thaicongenvancouver.org/visakhabucha.htm
http://www.chiangmai-chiangrai.com/visakha_bucha_day.html
http://www.bswa.org

The last is the local Buddhist Society that I attend. On there you can hear our Abbot giving the latest talks on the Dhamma (word of the Buddha). Last night's talk was in my opinion one of the best that he has ever given. The Dalai Lama is due into Perth this Wednesday. Ajhan talked about the different factions of Buddhism. It is really worth taking the time to go on line and listen to this talk.

Well, enough for me. I am off to Wesak tomorrow to help out all day.

best wishes

peace

gene

may you all be well and happy